LittleRed1
11-04-2015, 08:46 AM
Hi all,
I'm quite new to this forum but am strongly in need of a place where I don't feel crazy. I'm 22, been working at a small company for the past 8 months and have periodically gone through periods of time where I just feel like shutting down. Right now I'm in the midst of some pretty intense work struggles and while I'm looking for a new job, it is quite often literally painful to get through the day.
This morning my boss started emailing me at 6:30am which provoked a panic attack that made me late for work. Interacting with anyone at work right now just sends me into a spiral of anxiety. My office is out of the way and I wind up sitting there hearing everyone talking and laughing in the main room and feel so left out but it's like the second I go out there, everyone stops talking. And of course, sitting at work feeling like I'm going to throw up or pass out doesn't do anything for my productivity, I wish it made me more productive but it's almost as if it just freezes me. I panic getting EMAILS. I mean really. Then I get in trouble for not responding quick enough because it takes me hours to get up the nerve to even open them.
I'm going back into therapy but I feel like this is consuming my life and just want to know I'm not alone.
I'm quite new to this forum but am strongly in need of a place where I don't feel crazy. I'm 22, been working at a small company for the past 8 months and have periodically gone through periods of time where I just feel like shutting down. Right now I'm in the midst of some pretty intense work struggles and while I'm looking for a new job, it is quite often literally painful to get through the day.
This morning my boss started emailing me at 6:30am which provoked a panic attack that made me late for work. Interacting with anyone at work right now just sends me into a spiral of anxiety. My office is out of the way and I wind up sitting there hearing everyone talking and laughing in the main room and feel so left out but it's like the second I go out there, everyone stops talking. And of course, sitting at work feeling like I'm going to throw up or pass out doesn't do anything for my productivity, I wish it made me more productive but it's almost as if it just freezes me. I panic getting EMAILS. I mean really. Then I get in trouble for not responding quick enough because it takes me hours to get up the nerve to even open them.
I'm going back into therapy but I feel like this is consuming my life and just want to know I'm not alone.