jackfrost
10-31-2015, 07:40 AM
So over a year I tried acid and had a weird trip in which everything was a loop, and i was constantly explaining my environment in my head and how i could explain it too someone else, i thought i was going insane but i had no anxiety and wasnt afraid.
It was a drug so i got over it, but then the trip happened again when i mixed weed with a legal high, this trip though affected my emotions which became a loop of anger, fear, laughter, sadness, over and over again, i think i am out only to be drawn back in with each cycle. It is was utter torture. But again it was a drug so the affects wore off.(this happened February of this year)
Then the affects happened again when i mixed weed with mandy, and i never expected this(it really affected me) cause mandy makes you very happy and i never thought i could be scared on mandy but i was, i managed to sort of get out of the loop by never doing the same thing twice. This and the next bad trip happened at Glastonbury festival this year. The next time it happened was the very next day when i smoked a very small amount of weed(i thought the bad trips existed in the mixing of drugs, i was wrong) and i immediately rushed back to my tent with my friends because when you're in this bad trip you feel anxious for the next event to happen, delaying the inevitable is what makes you so scared.
Since then i stopped with weed and drugs, i am not anti them but they are not for me.
But then last Wednesday i was in the cinema and i shivered and all of a sudden my heartbeat was racing and i was hot and scared and i couldnt wait for the film to end so i could get home and go to bed. I dont know if this was the bad trip(i dont see how it could be cause ive had no drugs) or a panic attack but i only have the bad trip to refer too.
I got over it but then yesterday it happened again and i quickly left the house to find friends and i got over that one within a few hours. It seems just quickly getting on with the day helps.
Then about 20 minutes ago my friend gave me this puzzle in which i saw a loop and i was immediately anxious and scared and went straight here too find some form of help.
Im gonna see a gp, i dont know if i need drugs or what is wrong with me but the last few days i have been in constant doubt of my sanity. I feel controlled by the word "loop" and i even had to take a break from this message because i have used the word too much.
Can anyone help in anyway.
It was a drug so i got over it, but then the trip happened again when i mixed weed with a legal high, this trip though affected my emotions which became a loop of anger, fear, laughter, sadness, over and over again, i think i am out only to be drawn back in with each cycle. It is was utter torture. But again it was a drug so the affects wore off.(this happened February of this year)
Then the affects happened again when i mixed weed with mandy, and i never expected this(it really affected me) cause mandy makes you very happy and i never thought i could be scared on mandy but i was, i managed to sort of get out of the loop by never doing the same thing twice. This and the next bad trip happened at Glastonbury festival this year. The next time it happened was the very next day when i smoked a very small amount of weed(i thought the bad trips existed in the mixing of drugs, i was wrong) and i immediately rushed back to my tent with my friends because when you're in this bad trip you feel anxious for the next event to happen, delaying the inevitable is what makes you so scared.
Since then i stopped with weed and drugs, i am not anti them but they are not for me.
But then last Wednesday i was in the cinema and i shivered and all of a sudden my heartbeat was racing and i was hot and scared and i couldnt wait for the film to end so i could get home and go to bed. I dont know if this was the bad trip(i dont see how it could be cause ive had no drugs) or a panic attack but i only have the bad trip to refer too.
I got over it but then yesterday it happened again and i quickly left the house to find friends and i got over that one within a few hours. It seems just quickly getting on with the day helps.
Then about 20 minutes ago my friend gave me this puzzle in which i saw a loop and i was immediately anxious and scared and went straight here too find some form of help.
Im gonna see a gp, i dont know if i need drugs or what is wrong with me but the last few days i have been in constant doubt of my sanity. I feel controlled by the word "loop" and i even had to take a break from this message because i have used the word too much.
Can anyone help in anyway.