Just hello

[Davit]

Hello My name is Davit and right now I'm here out of curiosity. I'm interested in information and technique that may or may not be similar to mine. Information is power. The only support I have to offer is that I'm recovered so know it is totally possible. It does take time though. If you have an anxiety disorder, time is something you have too much of. Unfortunately if you were like me it was unproductive time. So for now I may just read to see if I actually fit here.

[superchick22684]

Welcome aboard.

[PhilM]

Hello Davit. I discovered the site a few hours ago, I will create my own welcome thread, I hope we find what we're looking for.

[Davit]

Hello people I already know some of the members here from other sites. I'm glad to be here. Hoping to find like minded people seriously looking to get better.

[PhilM]

Hello people I already know some of the members here from other sites. I'm glad to be here. Hoping to find like minded people seriously looking to get better.

When you say "other sites", do you mean forums such as this one?

[Davit]

Hi PhilM Yes, and yes to the unasked question. I'm on two other Forum sites with some members I know from them on here. I'm easy to find since those sites are on google. I can find you or me or anyone by searching their name and their condition. It must be very cluttered since I have around 7000 posts from other sites. Some about Arthritis.

[Davit]

Must be the name. No one else uses it. I've never seen so many people look at a thread with so little in it. I want to take this time to thank those who welcomed me here and say hi to the rest.

[unknownme]

Hello Davit. Glad to see someone who's recovered (though I suspect you can't really "recover" from anxiety like it's a cold and then you're done with it, I hope you don't have it, I wouldn't wish it on anyone). Hope you enjoy your time here :)

[Davit]

I always get in trouble with this and then a few people hound me off the site. Like the owner of this site says you can get rid of anxiety for ever. I did. How much anxiety do I have left? normal anxiety only. I'm a cripple sort of. Some days I wonder how I'll get anything done but I really don't give a damn. I'll get done what I do. Anxiety about going to town, not a bit, even when I don't want to. Doing things I couldn't are no more difficult than going for a pee. In my driveway if I feel like it. Don't get me wrong, there are people here that only think they have anxiety. I had it bad, Panic attacks that lasted up to five hours and never less than one hour. Sheer terror. Don't believe that crap that they only last 15 minutes. And they happened every night between two and three in the morning. I've been in the psych ward so I couldn't kill myself. It wasn't the answer but i realized I had a chance if I worked at it, not like the real crazies who will be on meds for ever. I met angry people, bipolar people, failed suicides, a schizophrenic prostitute that would do me for a pack of cigarettes. I didn't take her up on that. And one girl that cried every minute she was awake.
So I studied and my biggest question was why. Why am I different and found out I'm not, I was just thinking different. My brain works just the same a normal peoples, it always did. It was just using the wrong information. I don't do that anymore. Difference between this and recovering from a cold is simple. I will never ever have another panic attack. I do not take medication anymore. I do not use my coping skills much anymore. I can't remember when I last did. I've been free now for around 6 years. The owner of this site is right, you can be totally free. I never expected this, I would have been happy with some freedom. Most people would. I'm not the only free person, I have a whole bunch of free and close to free Email friends. One as long as me too. You can do this. Anyone can, even my bipolar friends can.

[unknownme]

I still struggle to know what I have, exactly, you know? I haven't been the way you have nor do I have panick attacks like my boyfriend does but at the same time, I know I don't work the way a normal healthy human is supposed to. I've ignored it for far too long, my mind is hyper and that I need to get better. I've gotten better like I never though I would but I still have to go a long way.

[Davit]

I hope I only surprised you in Chat not confused. Things are not always as they seem.

Why is this thread getting so many views and so few comments? For the curious, I am the same guy you can find on the other sites posts on google. Four other sites have posts of mine on google, but so are everyones. This is weird.

[unknownme]

I don't know why either. Maybe people don't want to participate much and just want to watch?

As for the chat, I was actually interested and following the convo and seeing where it would lead to :)

[Davit]

Almost 3000 views overnight, this must be a mistake.

[unknownme]

Ahm, that sounds like a number way too big

[Davit]

Just weird, same number on both computers, wonder if they think I'm someone else.

[unknownme]

Here I see 10000 views :/

[Strangertohimself]

I have to disagree with you. My panic attacks last around 15 minutes, but the lasting effect, for days. The loud ringing in the ears, the cold sweats, the nausea and vomiting, the heart beating out of the chest.. all of that.. 15-20 minutes.. again the residuals from that are bad for a while, but they are just fear, not necessarily panic attack. I don't know how I would handle hours of that, if that is the same type of attacks you have. Anxiety attacks I know can last a long time, but I haven't had much of that.. only the panic attacks.

[Davit]

I'm saying when people say they only last 15 minutes that is not everyone. 15 minutes would be bad enough but after ones that last over an hour 15 minutes doesn't sound so bad. Especially to some one who doesn't have them. The people that write books? Stick your hand in a vice,and squeeze it so you can't get away. Now light the bench on fire. It is that kind of terror. Exaggeration? Not a bit. I'm told adrenaline feeds the panic. I never had residual anxiety or days of high anxiety. Worry yes. A fear it would turn to panic, it never did. An attack was either there or it wasn't. I always backed out of anxiety, by leaving or Ativan before it could, at night I never had this option. Most were at night. Days of anxiety with the symptoms but not the terror is probably worse than a long panic attack. Even worry stopped after I managed to shop and come home.

Back to the subject of views, I can find no other Davit I can be mistaken for on the internet, it has to be me. Creepy really.

[Davit]

Seems to be attached to the word hello. I wonder why. Well at least it isn't me.