tbird907
09-01-2015, 04:45 AM
So a little about myself. This is the first time I've shared anything with anyone online. I have always seen therapists and doctors for my problem, but none can really help me. Maybe that is my own problem. My fear is so bad that I can't even believe a cardiologist who tells me that nothing is wrong. In 2013, at the age of 24, I went into Atrial Fibrillation. I was an otherwise healthy guy, riding his bike, heart rate around 180 bpm, pushing it whilst commuting down the streets of Anchorage, Alaska. My heart went into such a rhythm, that I called the ambulance and I was sure I was going to die. The paramedics arrived, believing that I was having SVT (super ventricular tachycardia.) My heart rate lowered, but was soon discovered on the EKG, that I was in Atrial Fibrillation. I arrived at the Emergency Room at Providence Hospital undergoing constant monitoring for the next three hours. The doctors said that I wasn't in danger and sent me home. At the time, I was living with my mom who was out of town, so I went home alone. I spent the whole night basically hearing my heart struggle and thinking I could just die at any moment. I slept for a few hours and then went back to the heart institute to receive another EKG showing that my heart was indeed still in AFIB. I was scheduled for a cardioversion later that day. I arrived at the hospital to receive my cardioversion surrounded by a room full of elderly people. They all looked at me strange as if I wasn't supposed to be there. I received a pep talk from my doctor who informed me that I was to be put under and shocked, so that my heart would return to a normal rhythm. Luckily, this procedure went without any complications and I have been arrhythmia free since that day.
Unfortunately, a new health issue arrived. The fear of my heart. I have probably been to the Emergency Room more than 99% of the populations visits in their lifetime. I go on average once a month. Unfortunately, I have started to go weekly, and last week, I went twice. I experience such bad anxiety attacks, that I feel that I am having a heart attack every time. That this is the time that I will really die. No matter how illogical it sounds, at that moment, I feel like I'm going to die. My chest is squeezing, my chest pain is radiating to my jaw, my neck, and my arm. I cannot breathe, and I feel like I'm about to pass out. This is the end, and that is what I feel every time. It comes on slowly, starting at the beginning of the night. I try to sleep, only to feel sharp chest pains that radiate throughout the left side of my body. I get severe indigestion, that makes it feel as if a balloon is in my sternum. I try to ride it out, laying there in fear, waiting for it to subside, but it only becomes worse. Eventually the panic sets in and it becomes so extreme that I have to call 911. It is an illogical response every time, because every time it happens, I go to the ER, they check my troponin (heart enzyme normally elevated in an event of heart attack), they give me a chest x-ray, and an EKG, and then send me on my way.
At this point, I don't know what to believe. Everyone says it is anxiety, yet I experience these chest pains, shortness of breath, indigestion and bloating, before my anxiety symptoms.
I cannot live like this any longer. It is interfering with my job, my girlfriend and my enjoyment of life.
Please help.
Tom
Unfortunately, a new health issue arrived. The fear of my heart. I have probably been to the Emergency Room more than 99% of the populations visits in their lifetime. I go on average once a month. Unfortunately, I have started to go weekly, and last week, I went twice. I experience such bad anxiety attacks, that I feel that I am having a heart attack every time. That this is the time that I will really die. No matter how illogical it sounds, at that moment, I feel like I'm going to die. My chest is squeezing, my chest pain is radiating to my jaw, my neck, and my arm. I cannot breathe, and I feel like I'm about to pass out. This is the end, and that is what I feel every time. It comes on slowly, starting at the beginning of the night. I try to sleep, only to feel sharp chest pains that radiate throughout the left side of my body. I get severe indigestion, that makes it feel as if a balloon is in my sternum. I try to ride it out, laying there in fear, waiting for it to subside, but it only becomes worse. Eventually the panic sets in and it becomes so extreme that I have to call 911. It is an illogical response every time, because every time it happens, I go to the ER, they check my troponin (heart enzyme normally elevated in an event of heart attack), they give me a chest x-ray, and an EKG, and then send me on my way.
At this point, I don't know what to believe. Everyone says it is anxiety, yet I experience these chest pains, shortness of breath, indigestion and bloating, before my anxiety symptoms.
I cannot live like this any longer. It is interfering with my job, my girlfriend and my enjoyment of life.
Please help.
Tom