My anxiety

[Hittmidor-3]

I'm only a young teenager and compared to most people my anxiety isn't a big deal,maybe because they don't understand.None the less I'm finding it harder and harder to cope. Thinking it was nerves until realizing no one gets nervous about entering a shop by themselves or catching the bus. Ive made some bad choices and decisions trying to avoid social situations and because i'm consistently too afraid, its limiting me so much! I recently got a job in a busy fast food restaurant and i find myself having panic attacks and breaking down into tears because i'm to anxious i'm constantly elaborating on the 'what if? I'm in tears freaking out because 'im worried my shoes wont fit regulations.I cant help but think of scenarios on how it could go terribly wrong.
Sleep has now become a rarity, i rely on watching T.V as late (or early in the morning) as i can to distract myself until i fall asleep exhausted, because i'm so worried things wont go 'according to plan'. I am in a 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger family' so if your not dying you don't need help, which is fine because all i can do is man up and deal with what i have to.
On top of this social anxiety has become a big thing i don't know whether i am able to blame this on the fact was bullied for years, maybe theirs some psychological underlay, but i feel as if im being suffocated as i'm regretting the choices im making more and more: trying to quit my job because i cant stand the environment, to afraid to change subjects at college so im forced to study subjects i hate.
Im honestly clueless to why i wrote this because it cant change the decisions i face nor that the words of people (who are trying to understand) which do not effect the way i feel in the slightest. But im glad im not alone, and im glad i signed up, reading the posts helps a great deal. I dont want bags of confidence i just want to feel how i used to. I dont know how to deal with the panic attacks or any of this.
I am helpless!

[Sagittarius]

I had some of that anxiety at your age, and was too afraid to reach out for help. I regret it now because 15 years later it's become really hard to manage. Get the help you need now and nip that anxiety in the bud.

[Zenlover]

First of all, you are not helpless. We've all experienced anxiety when we were young. You should seek help in your community. Reach out to mental health professionals or the counseling center at your school. You will want to make an appointment with a counselor on campus that you feel comfortable with and explain what is going on. To help calm your anxiety and panic attacks, you will want immediately incorporate abdominal deep breathing on a daily basis and deep relaxation techniques. With abdominal breathing make sure you breathe in through your nose and hold for a count of six, and release for a count of 12. Just make sure your outbreath is twice as long as your inbreath. Try getting some physical exercise daily can also help relax you. In terms of the social anxiety try to focus on one thing at a time at work/school and not on other tasks. The counselor at school will more than likely have some great resources for you. Be sure to take advantage of them and follow through.