mrslizzyg
07-17-2015, 10:24 AM
SO... Tomorrow is my husbands birthday. Which is not the problem! I love birthdays!
BUT.. this exact day, last year, is the day my husband and I separated. Neither of us planned on it being the day before his birthday- I really didn't do that to be a b*tch, I felt really terrible about it, actually.
Well, today I'm having SO MUCH freakin anxiety. I feel this immense pressure to make it up to him this year for not being there for him last year.. and I'm doing my best but I just don't have the $$ to do anything super extravagant.
I'm sure he doesn't really mind. He hasn't made me feel like he is upset or anything at all. It's all in my head I know this..
I wish it would just SHUT UP!!
Just my little rant for today.. I hope he enjoys his birthday tomorrow.
BUT.. this exact day, last year, is the day my husband and I separated. Neither of us planned on it being the day before his birthday- I really didn't do that to be a b*tch, I felt really terrible about it, actually.
Well, today I'm having SO MUCH freakin anxiety. I feel this immense pressure to make it up to him this year for not being there for him last year.. and I'm doing my best but I just don't have the $$ to do anything super extravagant.
I'm sure he doesn't really mind. He hasn't made me feel like he is upset or anything at all. It's all in my head I know this..
I wish it would just SHUT UP!!
Just my little rant for today.. I hope he enjoys his birthday tomorrow.