BrookeLynnnn
04-22-2015, 09:55 AM
Well, drove myself to class today after I hadn't been since last week.. Pulled in, parked & started freaking out. Drove right back home.
I'm upset. I wanted to graduate before I gave birth & I could if I went everyday but I just can't bring myself to do it. I'll probably take a leave until after he's born & I can get back on my medication. It's hard because I feel like I've let myself down. I've worked so hard in school & now I'm 13 weeks away from graduation & I can't do it.
Being away from my mom or sister gives me bad anxiety.
I once had a panic attack riding on Bart with my mom, sister, dad & brother. We had to ride all the way into the city still & here I was crying & freaking out. My mom held my hand & they both calmed me down. Not all the way because I still cried almost the whole ride but they were there for me & now I've found them as my "safe place."
Am I wrong for leaving school until I can get my head right? Ugh, life..
I'm upset. I wanted to graduate before I gave birth & I could if I went everyday but I just can't bring myself to do it. I'll probably take a leave until after he's born & I can get back on my medication. It's hard because I feel like I've let myself down. I've worked so hard in school & now I'm 13 weeks away from graduation & I can't do it.
Being away from my mom or sister gives me bad anxiety.
I once had a panic attack riding on Bart with my mom, sister, dad & brother. We had to ride all the way into the city still & here I was crying & freaking out. My mom held my hand & they both calmed me down. Not all the way because I still cried almost the whole ride but they were there for me & now I've found them as my "safe place."
Am I wrong for leaving school until I can get my head right? Ugh, life..