pugsarecool
10-19-2014, 07:48 PM
Alright, so I'm 19, a full time college student, and I've been working 30 hours or more a week. The semester started a month and a half ago, and I turned in my updated schedule to work, and specified I could only work 20 hours a week maximum as I am a full time student now. They abided by this for about a week, then it was slowly raising to 22 or 23 hours. I thought maybe it's a busy week, they need the extra help, whatever. But by the start of October I was doing 28 to 30 hour weeks, when I'm hired as a part time employee and it's on my availability that I can only work 20 hours a week. Around when I started these work weeks, my classes started piling on the homework and I came down with 3 different illnesses (Which of course I had a lot of anxiety over) in the span of about a week. Not only that, all this added stress brought back my anxiety disorder and depression, which I was completely free of for about 10 months. So at this point, I have terrible anxiety, depression, I'm sick, loaded with homework, loaded with hours at work. Not to mention Type 1 Diabetes that I've had for 17 years, which is it's own beast. Of course, I started forgetting about assignments, and now I'm behind in classes. I worked my entire weekend away this weekend (usually the only days I get off in a week are Wednesday and Thursday, I have classes on both days and Thursday I have class til 5:30 PM anyway), 8 hours both days, and today, I was ready to snap. I work at a fast paced retail store with some of the worst customers ever, and I was honestly ready to let the F-bombs fly and punch somebody. I was honestly kinda scared of myself, I had never felt myself that angry before in my life. This one lady was so rude to me I was so close to flying off the handle and screaming at her.
I updated my schedule for work again yesterday, letting them know I can't work more than 20 hours in a week and cut my available hours on weekends. I still feel really fired up from today, just pissed off at the world. The whole time I was mad at work today I felt physically sick too, like I was going to throw up. I still have 2 weeks scheduled out at work that are both 30 hours, and I don't know how I'm going to do it. I'm so stressed I don't feel like I can even go back tomorrow, or at all. These customers are so rude, they think they're entitled to everything and are bullies. I worked at a different store for a year and a half before this, and while it had it's fair share of winners, I have never experienced the amount of ***holes any other time in my life than I do in just a 4 hour shift at this store. So you're probably thinking, why don't I just quit? I'd love to, but the remaining $1200 for this semester of college that needs to get paid off in the next month and a half isn't gonna go away on it's own magically (This has also been a major stressor). I'd call in tomorrow and take the day off, but I'm at about 5 absences now and I don't think it'd be a good idea to call in anymore, as I need the $ to pay for school. I'd appreciate any advice so much, my quality of life has gone down so much since college started, which I was excited for thinking it was a new beginning. I have to basically force myself out of bed in the morning, I'm always exhausted, relationships of mine are straining, I'm losing my temper easier every day and getting really angry, my anxiety is back, I feel depressed often, I just don't know what to do anymore. Even just sitting here my mind is racing, I feel dizzy and nauseous, I feel angry and like running a mile yet at the same time I feel 100% drained. My life is this terrible mess and it seems to only be spinning more and more out of control as each day goes by. Help
I updated my schedule for work again yesterday, letting them know I can't work more than 20 hours in a week and cut my available hours on weekends. I still feel really fired up from today, just pissed off at the world. The whole time I was mad at work today I felt physically sick too, like I was going to throw up. I still have 2 weeks scheduled out at work that are both 30 hours, and I don't know how I'm going to do it. I'm so stressed I don't feel like I can even go back tomorrow, or at all. These customers are so rude, they think they're entitled to everything and are bullies. I worked at a different store for a year and a half before this, and while it had it's fair share of winners, I have never experienced the amount of ***holes any other time in my life than I do in just a 4 hour shift at this store. So you're probably thinking, why don't I just quit? I'd love to, but the remaining $1200 for this semester of college that needs to get paid off in the next month and a half isn't gonna go away on it's own magically (This has also been a major stressor). I'd call in tomorrow and take the day off, but I'm at about 5 absences now and I don't think it'd be a good idea to call in anymore, as I need the $ to pay for school. I'd appreciate any advice so much, my quality of life has gone down so much since college started, which I was excited for thinking it was a new beginning. I have to basically force myself out of bed in the morning, I'm always exhausted, relationships of mine are straining, I'm losing my temper easier every day and getting really angry, my anxiety is back, I feel depressed often, I just don't know what to do anymore. Even just sitting here my mind is racing, I feel dizzy and nauseous, I feel angry and like running a mile yet at the same time I feel 100% drained. My life is this terrible mess and it seems to only be spinning more and more out of control as each day goes by. Help