lizzy
08-24-2014, 06:35 PM
i feel uncomfortable talking about my feelings to my friends/family, so i've come to this forum for support/advice/help.
I'm 14 yrs old and i think i've developed anxiety in the past 3/4 years? I've written what's happened in that time space down below and if anyone could read it all and give me some advice or help i would be very greatful!
I started feeling an overwhelming feeling of despair and dread when i was about to go to high school. The prospect of going to a new bigger school was scary for everyone, but i seemed to be more worried than my peers so i felt weird. i've never liked being out of my comfort zone and i don't know if that adds to my 'anxiety'. The first morning before high school i experienced immense feelings of dread, so bad that i felt dizzy to the point of fainting and vomited at least 5 times in the space of an hour!? I'd never felt this way before, it was honestly the worst thing i'd ever experienced, which only added to my worry.
This became a kind of 'routine' for the next 3 weeks i would vomit in the mornings purely because i was worried about how the day would go. when the holidays were ending this horrible feeling would creep up on me and continue to make me feel stressed. Before any kind of special event or day out with school it would constantly be on my mind.If anyone invited me round to sleep over or go out for the day even my closest friends, i would worry that i would worry (does that make sense) and ruin the day.
Before flying i worry terribly and vomit in the airports and the stress of going through security and carrying my luggage etc is too much for me, aswell as knowing i was going to land somewhere unknown. if i'm invited somewhere without my family/close friends i worry about what is going to happen during the day as i'm around people i don't know well and think about worst case scenarios like 'i could get excluded'?
I feel pathetic that the slightest annoying/upsetting/uncomfortable thing makes me vomit. I feel like it's stopping me from enjoying myself. sometimes at night these thoughts replay in my head and i worry about my future. Once i've stressed for no reason i get into a cycle, i take precautions not to go anywhere unknown etc to stop myself from being uncomfortable. I sometimes think about my friends and wonder if they like me or if i have enough, i always think worst case scenario.
When i say 'vomit' i also mean horrible feelings of despair, shortness of breath dizziness etc, it always ends in vomiting, is this classed as a panic attack? Whenever i try to speak to my parents about it they say i'm being silly?
my gcse exams are coming up soon and i don't know how i'm going to control this feeling, as these exams are so important, and after that i'm moving to college. So two big steps at once, which i have no idea how i'm going to get through with my mental health being as f**ked up as it is. When I'm in my room i sometimes feel so alone that thinking about my life makes me feel this 'dread'.
I feel isolated with this problem as a girl in my school is diagnosed with anxiety and everyone respects it while i suffer in silence? Do i have anxiety? What is wrong with me? Do i go to a doctor? How do i stop feeling like this?
I hope someone takes the time to read this and reach out to me, thankyou. :))))
I'm 14 yrs old and i think i've developed anxiety in the past 3/4 years? I've written what's happened in that time space down below and if anyone could read it all and give me some advice or help i would be very greatful!
I started feeling an overwhelming feeling of despair and dread when i was about to go to high school. The prospect of going to a new bigger school was scary for everyone, but i seemed to be more worried than my peers so i felt weird. i've never liked being out of my comfort zone and i don't know if that adds to my 'anxiety'. The first morning before high school i experienced immense feelings of dread, so bad that i felt dizzy to the point of fainting and vomited at least 5 times in the space of an hour!? I'd never felt this way before, it was honestly the worst thing i'd ever experienced, which only added to my worry.
This became a kind of 'routine' for the next 3 weeks i would vomit in the mornings purely because i was worried about how the day would go. when the holidays were ending this horrible feeling would creep up on me and continue to make me feel stressed. Before any kind of special event or day out with school it would constantly be on my mind.If anyone invited me round to sleep over or go out for the day even my closest friends, i would worry that i would worry (does that make sense) and ruin the day.
Before flying i worry terribly and vomit in the airports and the stress of going through security and carrying my luggage etc is too much for me, aswell as knowing i was going to land somewhere unknown. if i'm invited somewhere without my family/close friends i worry about what is going to happen during the day as i'm around people i don't know well and think about worst case scenarios like 'i could get excluded'?
I feel pathetic that the slightest annoying/upsetting/uncomfortable thing makes me vomit. I feel like it's stopping me from enjoying myself. sometimes at night these thoughts replay in my head and i worry about my future. Once i've stressed for no reason i get into a cycle, i take precautions not to go anywhere unknown etc to stop myself from being uncomfortable. I sometimes think about my friends and wonder if they like me or if i have enough, i always think worst case scenario.
When i say 'vomit' i also mean horrible feelings of despair, shortness of breath dizziness etc, it always ends in vomiting, is this classed as a panic attack? Whenever i try to speak to my parents about it they say i'm being silly?
my gcse exams are coming up soon and i don't know how i'm going to control this feeling, as these exams are so important, and after that i'm moving to college. So two big steps at once, which i have no idea how i'm going to get through with my mental health being as f**ked up as it is. When I'm in my room i sometimes feel so alone that thinking about my life makes me feel this 'dread'.
I feel isolated with this problem as a girl in my school is diagnosed with anxiety and everyone respects it while i suffer in silence? Do i have anxiety? What is wrong with me? Do i go to a doctor? How do i stop feeling like this?
I hope someone takes the time to read this and reach out to me, thankyou. :))))