cici23
07-18-2014, 09:52 PM
Hello!
My name is Cindy and I have been suffering from anxiety for a while now. I think I've had some version of it all my life but never really identified it until sometime after July of 2007. I had a triggering event, and now what really sets of my anxiety is when I am in any place or situation where I am "trapped" with no easy way out... a movie theater, a mall, car wash, a courthouse, a train, plane, sometimes a car, etc. I have gotten better with some of it, but I always try to find the spots that have the easiest way out... and I find it is 100 times worse if I am alone. I can get into the triggering event if anyone is interested, but it directly relates to being physically trapped when bad things were happening around me (and also trapped with my son who was 15 then). I also obsessively worry about health things, as I see many people here do. I don't go to the doctor much... don't like my doctor. She blows me off and is short with me. I do take Buspar, not sure how much it helps. I take Nexium for my stomach and then an allergy pill at certain times of the year. The Buspar makes me feel funny (warm, nauseous, strange... ) so I usually only take it at night which is silly because my issues are best at night! My stomach complicates things because I get those esophageal spasms (kind of like stomach flip flops) that make me worry my heart is acting up. It scares me right into an anxiety attack sometimes! It doesn't help that my kids (ages 17 and 22) don't get what I go through. NO, it isn't taking over my life but it affects it. I want to fly soon on a vacation, just don't know how I would ever do that! To me, that's like the ULTIMATE in being trapped!! At least on the commuter train there are a lot of stops. I also have had issues having anxiety attacks walking the dog because we have had some issues with strays coming after us. I get VERY anxious whenever I get too far from home. Pretty much anything that has triggered an attack in the past sets up red flags for me now. I know I psych myself out. I have seen a therapist, and it was OK. She taught me some techniques that I try to use. I think what might help me more than anything is finding some people here that I can relate do so I don't feel like such a freak with all of this.
Tomorrow (July 19) I am going to see Blake Shelton in concert at Wrigley Field in Chicago and am feeling a lot of stress being away from home (my friend and I are spending the night), taking the commuter train, taxis and being out in a crowd. I am sure it will be fun and my friend is very dependable, but I am feeling the stress. I am so excited to go, but yet so thrilled already at the prospect of being home!!
Anyway, I am happy to find this site and look forward to meeting you all!
Cindy
My name is Cindy and I have been suffering from anxiety for a while now. I think I've had some version of it all my life but never really identified it until sometime after July of 2007. I had a triggering event, and now what really sets of my anxiety is when I am in any place or situation where I am "trapped" with no easy way out... a movie theater, a mall, car wash, a courthouse, a train, plane, sometimes a car, etc. I have gotten better with some of it, but I always try to find the spots that have the easiest way out... and I find it is 100 times worse if I am alone. I can get into the triggering event if anyone is interested, but it directly relates to being physically trapped when bad things were happening around me (and also trapped with my son who was 15 then). I also obsessively worry about health things, as I see many people here do. I don't go to the doctor much... don't like my doctor. She blows me off and is short with me. I do take Buspar, not sure how much it helps. I take Nexium for my stomach and then an allergy pill at certain times of the year. The Buspar makes me feel funny (warm, nauseous, strange... ) so I usually only take it at night which is silly because my issues are best at night! My stomach complicates things because I get those esophageal spasms (kind of like stomach flip flops) that make me worry my heart is acting up. It scares me right into an anxiety attack sometimes! It doesn't help that my kids (ages 17 and 22) don't get what I go through. NO, it isn't taking over my life but it affects it. I want to fly soon on a vacation, just don't know how I would ever do that! To me, that's like the ULTIMATE in being trapped!! At least on the commuter train there are a lot of stops. I also have had issues having anxiety attacks walking the dog because we have had some issues with strays coming after us. I get VERY anxious whenever I get too far from home. Pretty much anything that has triggered an attack in the past sets up red flags for me now. I know I psych myself out. I have seen a therapist, and it was OK. She taught me some techniques that I try to use. I think what might help me more than anything is finding some people here that I can relate do so I don't feel like such a freak with all of this.
Tomorrow (July 19) I am going to see Blake Shelton in concert at Wrigley Field in Chicago and am feeling a lot of stress being away from home (my friend and I are spending the night), taking the commuter train, taxis and being out in a crowd. I am sure it will be fun and my friend is very dependable, but I am feeling the stress. I am so excited to go, but yet so thrilled already at the prospect of being home!!
Anyway, I am happy to find this site and look forward to meeting you all!
Cindy