Newbie from the UK

[Leanne87]

Hi Everyone,

My name is Leanne and I'm from the UK. I am happily married and a mum of 3. I have suffered with borderline personality disorder since childhood and was diagnosed officially 3 years ago. Anxiety has ruled my life throughout it's entirety and I was diagnosed with that in my teens. I was always a fearful child, surrounding by ill health and death as well as several other traumas (hence the development of BPD). I would run to the Doctor for the tiniest complaint, however it was only after my 1st daughter was born that the fear of death came in. I am scared of everything (bees, bugs, heights, spiders, crowds, confined spaces, germs, humiliation, strangers etc..) and have regular panic attacks in which I truly believe I am about to die, these can come on at any time, even when I am lying in bed.

More recently I have developed another phobia which has been coming on slowly after a bad experience a year ago but it is a very embarrassing one and I think I would rather see if there are any other posts about it before I announce it to everyone.

Hope that is okay.

Leanne x

[Ritch]

Welcome to the forum Leanne :)

You only have to share what you feel comfortable with but you will not be judged or mocked by anybody here, I hope you find the forum helpful.

[JohnC]

Hi Leanne x,
I understand completely and welcome to the forum. Maybe some of these fine folks just might be able to help you out or I know for sure that you will get some comfort out of this forum. I did

[Leanne87]

Thank you for the welcome, I have bitten the bullet and written a post in the discussion forum. Ritch has already responded but I would appreciate any more input if possible.

Thanks x

[jessed03]

Hey Leanne.

Welcome to the forum.

I'm sure others will take a look at your thread too.

Beautiful part of the country you're from.

Do you live anywhere near Norwich?

I lived there for a year, really nice city.

Hope you enjoy your time here, being vocal, communicating, really helps you meet great people, learn a lot, and get answers to questions :)

[Leanne87]

Hi Jess,

I live in a town called Thetford which is about 30 miles away from Norwich, just a short trip down the A11.

I agree it's a beautiful city but I don't go there too often as it's a little too busy for my liking x

[sarahadella]

Hi Leanne,

I too, am from the UK!

The severity of my bouts of anxiety comes and goes, but I for a longtime have been anxious about death. Not my own, but my families (Everyone one is healthy, so this was quite irrational) . At one stage I was really bad, everytime the phone would ring my heart would jump, i'd assume it was bad news, I'd get breathless If i had any missed calls, I would text my sisters for confirmation they had got home from school and hadnt been involved in an accident, and I would get agitated if I didnt get replies immediately.

Writing this down, I realise quite how bad that period in my life was. It was exhausting, irrational, My family didn't understand at all, but to me the threat was very real. I don't know what made that particular thread of my anxiety disipate, but I no longer worry as much about that. There is certainly no quick fix, but I sometimes tell myself that life is indeed short and that is why I need to enjoy every minute of it!