R0cketer
04-08-2014, 01:02 PM
I am a person who battles, so here I am. I may be more depressed than anxious, I may be more worried than depressed, or I may be anxious, honestly I'm not sure where one part stops and another part starts. Just like communicating, I feel like it helps me.
I'm a 42 year old, father of a wonderful 2(almost 3) year old, who is a miracle baby, he's an in vitro baby, and my pride and joy. Didn't expect to ever be a daddy, I was a testicular cancer survivor in my early mid 20's so finding out we could have a child was a miracle. While he is my greatest joy, he's also probably part of the reason I worry so much right now. I want be an awesome dad, always loved kids, so that is a tough wear on me, only problem is with all the worry/concern about the current state of things in life, I've been absolutely beaten down. I've had a few episodes that have caused me to be worried about health issues, but I honestly don't know if there a real reason or just allowing things to 'get to me'. And lord knows they have. I can't rest, and lately, not really eating, food is unappealing, I fill up with just a few bites, etc. The rational me knows that things can be ok, might have to regress or cut back a lot but will figure out a way but getting that part into me is a challenge that I haven't so far gotten control of. I'm a hard work in progress, but hopefully it will get better sooner instead of later.
I'm a 42 year old, father of a wonderful 2(almost 3) year old, who is a miracle baby, he's an in vitro baby, and my pride and joy. Didn't expect to ever be a daddy, I was a testicular cancer survivor in my early mid 20's so finding out we could have a child was a miracle. While he is my greatest joy, he's also probably part of the reason I worry so much right now. I want be an awesome dad, always loved kids, so that is a tough wear on me, only problem is with all the worry/concern about the current state of things in life, I've been absolutely beaten down. I've had a few episodes that have caused me to be worried about health issues, but I honestly don't know if there a real reason or just allowing things to 'get to me'. And lord knows they have. I can't rest, and lately, not really eating, food is unappealing, I fill up with just a few bites, etc. The rational me knows that things can be ok, might have to regress or cut back a lot but will figure out a way but getting that part into me is a challenge that I haven't so far gotten control of. I'm a hard work in progress, but hopefully it will get better sooner instead of later.