forgiveandforget1995
04-03-2014, 03:06 PM
Hope everyone's good, 19 today getting old :) I received two Panic attacks today, it's been a week since I've had them.
Today I had to miss College because there were problems with the train, there was a disrupted signal, The train I usually catch is confusing because I have to get on 2 trains to get to my College, but because of all the hectic train problems, I accidentally went on the wrong train.
The train didn't stop where I need to get off, so I had to get off at the nearest stop, I got a bit lost, and I was just panicking and worrying :( I had no money on my phone so I couldn't text anyone. I eventually caught the right train but by the time I was on it, I was 4 hours late for College. I just felt like crap afterwards.
I attend College every Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays, it's quite hard work getting there, I have to get up 6:30 in the morning, and it takes me a Hour and half usually to get there.
I feel like these Panics are still getting the better of me, the course is also stressing me out a bit. I'm not too keen on the course.
Also my Tutor/Teacher phoned an hour ago at 8:30 in the evening, and asked why I didn't make it to College, I told her about the Trains, she told me she wants me in for 9 in the morning, I'm stressed because I was enjoying my Birthday, I don't like getting short notice of things.
The thing is the tutors don't fully understand how difficult I find it to get to College because of my Anxiety/Depression, I find it very difficult to face the world in the morning. I haven't told my mum and dad. I'm just frightened to talk to people about it because I know I'll get judged.
Thanks, I'm sorry to moan, Just feel shooken up,
Today I had to miss College because there were problems with the train, there was a disrupted signal, The train I usually catch is confusing because I have to get on 2 trains to get to my College, but because of all the hectic train problems, I accidentally went on the wrong train.
The train didn't stop where I need to get off, so I had to get off at the nearest stop, I got a bit lost, and I was just panicking and worrying :( I had no money on my phone so I couldn't text anyone. I eventually caught the right train but by the time I was on it, I was 4 hours late for College. I just felt like crap afterwards.
I attend College every Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays, it's quite hard work getting there, I have to get up 6:30 in the morning, and it takes me a Hour and half usually to get there.
I feel like these Panics are still getting the better of me, the course is also stressing me out a bit. I'm not too keen on the course.
Also my Tutor/Teacher phoned an hour ago at 8:30 in the evening, and asked why I didn't make it to College, I told her about the Trains, she told me she wants me in for 9 in the morning, I'm stressed because I was enjoying my Birthday, I don't like getting short notice of things.
The thing is the tutors don't fully understand how difficult I find it to get to College because of my Anxiety/Depression, I find it very difficult to face the world in the morning. I haven't told my mum and dad. I'm just frightened to talk to people about it because I know I'll get judged.
Thanks, I'm sorry to moan, Just feel shooken up,