Kyle Morgan
02-11-2014, 06:34 PM
Many of you know on here now probably know what I've been through the past few months. I have suffered with Anxiety and Depression for over 3 years, since I was about 15. I had my very first Panic attack in October of last year, it scared the crap out of me. I've had friends leave me and turn their back on me because they found out about my condition. I only told people because I kept it in for so long, I felt like I just had to tell someone!! My parents have split up and all they do is fight and argue. I struggle to make it into College by Train, I used to catch a lift with my Neighbour but she's stopped talking to me because she don't like my friend. I got bullied for years in school and I keep telling myself I am ugly and a failure. The thing is though over the past two months, I have broken down a few times, it mainly happens in the night, but I will sometimes break down crying for no reason. I am embarrassed about this because I am a guy and I think to myself, "Why the hell am I crying for" I can't watch the news because it makes me too sad, if I hear about people getting hurt or animals getting hurt, it makes me angry and sad" It makes me upset when I think of people who have to suffer". I can't really explain why I suddenly break down for no reason, is it to do with my Anxiety and suicidal thoughts?? I keep thinking I'm pathetic for doing this, I feel like people will make fun of me for this.