GYDA
01-20-2014, 02:54 AM
Right basically I've got quite bad health anxiety, over the last year and a half I've been to the doctors way too many times! About a year ago I found a lump under my jawline on my neck which scared me a lot, I went to the doctors where he said he can't feel anything to worry about. Tried to move on and trust the doctor because he's been right with every illness i've diagnosed myself with so far (that i haven't got it) but I went back again a few weeks later for a second opinion by another doctor, he said its a swollen lymph node but it's not big enough for concern. Went back a third time about 2 months later, he said the same thing but sent me for blood tests because he could see I was worried, all came back fine. Put it to the back of my mind for a good 6 months but the other day it come back to me for some reason and i started feeling the lymph node again, so went back to the doctors and saw a different doctor to the previous 3 and he said it's nothing to worry about.
Now I know I should trust 4 different doctors advice and just leave it but it's impossible, it's just always there and i keep feeling it with my hand seeing if it's changed or whatever. For some reason if i've self diagnosed myself with something, i can't get it out my mind until I've a test done for it, like this one, if they sent me for a scan on it and it all come back fine, i'd leave it at that, but I feel like i'm unsure because there no tests its just the doctor feeling it. It's causing my anxiety to never stop, i feel like my throats always sore, im always congested in the morning, blaa! haha
I want to go in and just ask him to refer me to a specialist, they've said the lymph node is swollen but why's it swollen? it's been like it for a year (but then it was a year ago I got my anxiety, so maybe it's been there for ages or all my life, but i've only just noticed the small things like since i got anxiety) who knows? :) I just want to put it to bed so I can get back to anxiety free because this is the only thing holding me back.
Sorry for rambling haha, just stuck on what to do, go back to the doctors for the 6th time and for him to fob me off again or just man up and leave it? health anxiety is exhausting!
Now I know I should trust 4 different doctors advice and just leave it but it's impossible, it's just always there and i keep feeling it with my hand seeing if it's changed or whatever. For some reason if i've self diagnosed myself with something, i can't get it out my mind until I've a test done for it, like this one, if they sent me for a scan on it and it all come back fine, i'd leave it at that, but I feel like i'm unsure because there no tests its just the doctor feeling it. It's causing my anxiety to never stop, i feel like my throats always sore, im always congested in the morning, blaa! haha
I want to go in and just ask him to refer me to a specialist, they've said the lymph node is swollen but why's it swollen? it's been like it for a year (but then it was a year ago I got my anxiety, so maybe it's been there for ages or all my life, but i've only just noticed the small things like since i got anxiety) who knows? :) I just want to put it to bed so I can get back to anxiety free because this is the only thing holding me back.
Sorry for rambling haha, just stuck on what to do, go back to the doctors for the 6th time and for him to fob me off again or just man up and leave it? health anxiety is exhausting!