savingkie
01-10-2014, 09:51 PM
Hi! I'm 14 and I started taking Zoloft (20 mL/mg) about 3 weeks ago, and ever since, I've been crying constantly, my anxiety has been heightened, I've been getting horribly scary obsessive fears/thoughts, and worst of all, I've truly been depressed and I think I've had a few suicidal thoughts and I actually feel like I'm going nuts and I'm experiencing some really weird symptoms like depersonilization. I have never felt any of these things before the medicine, and never in my life did I ever have these thoughts before I took the medication, I actually had a FEAR of dying, losing control, and hurting myself, and now these seem like a reality and I hate it so much. Nor was I ever depressed or even close to depressed. I told my parents about it and they're super supportive and so are my friends, but I'm at a total loss, I have never felt this bad- I'm missing a lot of school, I haven't seen my friends in weeks, and I've stopped doing the things that made me happy. Worst of all, none of this was ever an issue before medication. I don't know if it's literally the medication causing this as I would never think or feel this way in a normal state, or if I googled too much (a bad habit of mine) right off the bat- I saw stories about people who committed suicide while on Zoloft and stories of increased suicidal thoughts in teens. Today my parents and I called my doctor because they knew it was getting serious and she said I can just stop it cold turkey since it's apparently such a low dose, so I was just wondering how long it'll take for all the mental side effects to go, because I'm really suffering and overthinking as I'm having a lot of trouble leaving the house and going to school.. I feel like my life is ruined :( Will all of these problems go away once the medication leaves my system? Or did I really convince myself into all of this due to the fact that my life has basically been flipped upside down and irregular since late October? I just don't want depression to be an issue now, it's always been a worst case scenario thing for me and I never imagined myself having it :(