Searching for anything good...(sigh)

[Enduronman]

I am..I'm leaving this joint to go get a pizza. To hell with a diet for the moment!!! (plus, my doc when I was lifting weights said to stop eating so clean)....PIZZA! BRB!

[Enduronman]

Well, at least you don't live in that town that Johnny Knoxville did a Jackass epsiode in, here in America!!!.. HAAAHA!!!

[staceatarian]

Sometimes the hardest step is just getting in my car. Once I'm there it seems foolish to back down and I start feeling more confident. I like to go to unfamiliar places early so I have time to adjust. Walking into a meeting, event or even a movie once there are already people there can get me more anxious. I like to settle a bit before interactions in a new environment. I haven't been an a vacation anywhere in just about forever.

[Enduronman]

That'll get better Stacy,..only (2) days on Remeron...you'll turn around then your husband won't be able to keep you outta the car!!! :)

[Dahila]

I am living in a loo, hehehe

[Enduronman]

So far,..so good.
Some MORE positive results in the forums members I won't mention names...but a few have taken that next step.
And...my daughter has chosen to be..clean!..YAY!!

Have a great day friends!!

E-Man..:D

[NixonRulz]

Today I took my night walk and did it during the day which is far harder for me. It's much more exposure. I walked up the main shopping area and said hello to every person I passed.....and there were a lot. It's still not a big distance from the house but it was again another step. Thanks again for all the support being given to me. It's making so much difference in my life. Hope you all had something that was good in your day too. Something else good today was my mood. Today it's not low or moderate but good. I started my day realising I've been able to contribute and have some purpose.

So much for taking baby steps with your issues

You're slaying this shit

As far as purpose, I'm sure just being here and writing your story has already helped some people. So keep doing it.

[Enduronman]

There just seems to be sooo much good energy in here lately,..I am lovin it!! Thank you Frankie for the compliment and for your inspiration...we admire you. And thank you Nixon for your unstandable randomness, humor, wit, and hilarious sarcasm too bruh, I really appreciate it and yes, Frankie is an Anxiety Slayer!! :)

[NixonRulz]

You should just go take another walk and instead of saying hi to everyone you pass, bitch slap em and see how fast you can run.

[Enduronman]

Amazing!!! Pain, from laughter and happiness!! YAY!!!....It has to be one of the most positive days I've seen. Look at Lizard, Staceatarian, Fischer, they're moving forward too...Anxiety Slaying!! friggin awesome!!

[Enduronman]

You should just go take another walk and instead of saying hi to everyone you pass, bitch slap em and see how fast you can run.

Yes do it!!! The ultimate in Nixon Therapy!!! (just don't use the What About Bob method yet)....BAHA!!

[jessed03]

Dorrie, I'm so glad you have a pic now!!! :D you look awesome

[Enduronman]

I saw that!!! It's Dorrie girl!!!... :)

[Dorrie23]

Ahhh Jesse... you're making me blush!! Well, it was about time wasn't it??? I was just super busy. But thanks my Jesse friend. Dorrie.

[Dorrie23]

E-Man, It's me! It's me! I finally got one up!! About time! You and Jesse have a good day big bro. Dorrie Girl.

[NeverToo...Fear]

^ooh, yes, I see Dorrie has a pic now. Got a name to a face..nice! :)

[Dorrie23]

Frankie, I'm soo glad you're feeling better as well. And I'm loving the puppy!! It is still a puppy?? We got our little guy a kitten for Christmas. Didn't know how I was going to like it at first, but we all love love love it. Adorable. Black with a white chest, and white belly. Green eyes. My little boy named him Jack. lol. Take care, hon. dorrie

[jessed03]

Dorrie, you look EXACTLY as I imagined!!!!! :D

[Dorrie23]

Girl... You crazy!!! But you know I love you just the way you are!! :) I'm telling you, I joined the site at kind of a bad time. My little guy was out for Thanksgiving, then Christmas, for two weeks, then New years for a week. I would come in my office... get on the board real quick, then sign off. lol. It was ridiculous!! ha ha. Now, I have a bit of time to actually be ON the site!! lol. But the little time I was able to be on here, you guys made me feel right at home, and I love you all to death. And can't wait to get to know you even better. The weather was crazy here day before yesterday. Tornado warnings everywhere, Thunder that shook the whole house. lol. Man. I don't know if you caught any of it, but it was some kind of craziness!! Talk to you later. Have a marvelous Sunday. The Sun is actually out today. I might faint of shock. lol. D.

[Dorrie23]

Well... I don't know if that's good or bad, coming from you, Jesse!!! It better be good dabnabbit!!! Dorrie

[Dorrie23]

Hi Dorrie
Hope you're doing ok. You like my little fog huh, yeah he is cute stuff! He's not a pup now though but he has a young face I think. He is 3. I bet your little guy was delighted with the kitten. It's lovely and relaxing stroking a pet. Good for the depressive/anxious person like ourselves!

Frankie, you know, the weirdest thing was I was scared our dog which is half Basenji/half German Shepeard wouldn't like it at all because the shelter flat out said "Not good w/cats! But my husband persisted it, and the two get along great!! Who would've thought?? Their just happy little campers!!

[Enduronman]

Friends,

Today,...is a realllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyy Good Day!!! YAY!!..
Got to take both daughters shopping, pushed one of them around in a wheelchair and bumped into things of course, and they were OK together too.
She also really needed to wheelchair too. She is still detoxing, overly talkative, repetative, but we knew what to expect...It was fun.
Then we left there and lion cub opened up my glovbox to look for a lighter for their smokes, well, she find a giant blunt!!
Yes, in a Swisher package...and I had been smelling something in there since I traded cars with my youngest because of a mechanical issue. Yes, weed, in a cigar leaf...
Anyway, the girls picked out a few hundred dollars worth of stuff, that ended up costing me $96.00 so I'm good with that! It was worth the trip..
Plus we were all just acting goofy the whole time anyway,..we used to do that together everywhere..just being clowns is fun and helps with ALL of our anxiety.
That was the first time that I had seen my daughter together in a car with me since Feb of 2012....priceless. and they were f**kin with each other the whole time too.
I don't expect anything less..LOL!

Have a great day all!

E-Man..:)

[em1]

Friends, Today,...is a realllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyy Good Day!!! YAY!!.. Got to take both daughters shopping, pushed one of them around in a wheelchair and bumped into things of course, and they were OK together too. She also really needed to wheelchair too. She is still detoxing, overly talkative, repetative, but we knew what to expect...It was fun. Then we left there and lion cub opened up my glovbox to look for a lighter for their smokes, well, she find a giant blunt!! Yes, in a Swisher package...and I had been smelling something in there since I traded cars with my youngest because of a mechanical issue. Yes, weed, in a cigar leaf... Anyway, the girls picked out a few hundred dollars worth of stuff, that ended up costing me $96.00 so I'm good with that! It was worth the trip.. Plus we were all just acting goofy the whole time anyway,..we used to do that together everywhere..just being clowns is fun and helps with ALL of our anxiety. That was the first time that I had seen my daughter together in a car with me since Feb of 2012....priceless. and they were f**kin with each other the whole time too. I don't expect anything less..LOL! Have a great day all! E-Man..:)

That's amazing E man what a lovely day out for you all :)

[Dorrie23]

Oh E-man, Now that's the stuff Man!! That's something I would definitely would want to come on here and immediately share with all my buds and friends. Yaaay!!!! I'm ecstatic for you big bro!! This was very much way overdue. Anyway... I can seriously feel the good vibes bouncing off of you right now. How awesome for you. Take care Big Bro. Your lil sis. d.

[jessed03]

Dorrie you know your pic is hotter than 4 chillis still with seeds in ;)

[jessed03]

Enduronman - I was talking to Terre Nova about the pronunciation of your name.

Is it:

End oor on man

-Or-

End your on man

[Enduronman]

LMAO!!

Its'....Endure On Man.....YAY!!! ........:rolleyes: :rolleyes: :rolleyes:

[jessed03]

Oh right, thanx for clearing that up :rolleyes::rolleyes:

[Enduronman]

It was also the name of my businesses...because I have Endured some reallllllyyyy tough shit over the past nearly 5 decades....close anyway. I'm fuggin old!!! wa....

[Lee Grant Irons]

Glad to hear you had a great time with your daughters! Life is too short for anything less. You have found the magic when you have found how to have such good times in the midst of your problems; how to have problems without letting them negatively impact your relationships.

Endure on, man!

[Enduronman]

Thank You brother Lee!!! Good to see you back around the forums!!...

Hope that life is treating you well bruh...

:)

[Lee Grant Irons]

Thanks bro! Busy week last week getting the kids back to college and high school and me back to work after a three and a half week vacation. I also have been working hard on the book. I also have to pay occasional heed to my own raft of problems to make sure I don't capsize and continue to make headway down the river. I have also started handing out my gifts to folks who have donated to my fund raising cause that is paying for the professional design and editing of the second edition of the book once the first edition is completed and posted on my blog. All in all, I am busier than a one-legged man in a butt-kicking contest. :D

[Enduronman]

welll...
I haven't been Mr. Excitement and bundles of joy today becauseeeeee my daughter tells me that she can't do her schoolwork on her new tablet (7"). Because it is lacking some particular something that the website requires to function properly...f**k.....and that was the point of the Xmas gift. Something compact, touch, to do this work.

SOOOOOO...I took all 4 of these other sloowwwwww laptops in to see what they are worth, or if they can have some added ram or something else to speed them up? Nope..the computer guru guy said that they're not worth putting any money into even though 3 of them work, you just have time to make a pot of coffee before a page loads. They're all 3 Dell, and 1 Toshiba. I lovveeedddd that Toshiba, until the hard drive crashed. So,...now I have to get another new laptop or she won't be able to do a damn thing. And, her ADD prevents her from sitting here to do it...grrrr....It's only money. Just kindof a bummer.

Ok, something good. Um, I guess I feel ok so that's good just not a bundle of baha or rolleyes at the moment. Weird feeling for me, because my original plan was a failure. I hate failure...

Have a great night all.

E-man.

[Th13thOne]

E-man ur inbox is full, bruh. Sorrry to hijack

[jessed03]

E-man ur inbox is full, bruh. Sorrry to hijack

Nooo... You've caught the 'bruh' off of Eman?

He's so contagious with that 'bruh' disease!!

[Enduronman]

I'm still trying to figure out where the best computer, for the best price, actually is....
It's worse than buying a friggin car!
It did however, cuase me to dig out all of my old stereo equipment that's some higher end stuff to go make a deal with a pawn shop or something.
They have a computer that would suit her just fine, and it would help her to get some of this educational crap out of the way. She only needs 10 credits to graduate.
I just have to get her set up to make this happen now...It really just pisses me off that I have 3 working laptops, that none will do what she needs (the site doesn't work)
Outdated, old, but doesnt have any problems with this, or Facebook, or whatever else...grrrrrr... I'm still in grrrr mode, until I accomplish this task.
It's just how I "am"....a challenge that must be focused on, to make it all come together...simple, one would think, in the Grand Scheme of things..LOL!!! :)

Thanks for thinking of me Frankie!

[Enduronman]

I did just learn that the new Windows 8 sucks ass, from a highly trained geek....Said I should try to find one that still has Windows 7 on it!!!...BUT, all the new ones have 8!!!!! OMGEEE....yay
Pawn shop, here I come! LMAO!

[jessed03]

I hate windows 8...

I actually bought an ipad, just to avoid it :eek:

I feel I'm selling my soul turning to Apple, but I don't don't enjoy using it one bit.

[NixonRulz]

Windows 8 is horrible.

I'm always on the iPad as well

Doesn't have enough of the full version on it

[jessed03]

Windows 8 is horrible.

I'm always on the iPad as well

Doesn't have enough of the full version on it

How come you post again properly ever since Tummy left for California?

[staceatarian]

My husband just got a samsung galaxy tablet and he loves it. It's android based, don't know what your daughter needs, but might be worth looking into. He paid around 300$ for a 10.1"

Hope you find something that will work for her :)

[Enduronman]

Thank you Stacy!

Well,..considering that I will have to make her feel "accomodated" somewhat because she has ADD/ADHD, PTSD, and intense anxiety I'm going to have to make the screen as large as possible plus she has bad vision too. I will have to either go 14" or larger and I'm really considering a desktop and a complete office like space upstairs for her to study in. She only needs 10 measly credits, then she gets a newer car. It still isn't enough incentive for her, but the mini office may just be the ticket...I hope!! :)

[NixonRulz]

How come you post again properly ever since Tummy left for California?

She went to California?

[Enduronman]

OK!
Finally..something good. I've been away from the forums for awhile, that's how I focus on a pretty important tasks but it is nearly now completed.
Obviously, my daughter needed for something to happen that was positive for her, she was using these computer issues as a means to ignore schooling.
She wasn't in a rush to get back to school after the holidays and as of this day, still hasn't..but, she has NO fuggin excuse now!!
Got her a computer desk, chair, painted to her liking of course, annnddddd someone brought me over a computer that just needed hacked, and some updates done.
Well, I'm in and it's clean and it's updating now...
A 15" Compaq laptop, about 3 years old...good to go for a few more years and only minimal investment in it too....
This is a good thing, makes me feel like I actually accomplished something, and now maybe she will too.

Hope everyone else is doing well!

Going to get back to my forum friends here reallllll soooonnnn....

Enduronman...:)

[NixonRulz]

Don't you miss the days of just needing a few binders and paper to complete your work?

My kids look like they are going on a 2 week vacation when they leave everyday with their backpacks

[Enduronman]

Something good I hope...(weird is what it is)..odd, rare..
1. First off, have we lost Jesse to alcohol?...CMON MAN!!! Haven't seen him all day.. Anyone?
2. Hopefully he didn't OD on that box I sent him..
3. Haven't seen some of our other Veteran members either today...What's your take on this, and who comes to mind????
4. I do want to see people recover, get better, succeed,...but it will (generally) take continued support and therapy to do that. It may just "pop up" but it rarely ever just "pops out"....
5. Let's see...got my daughters issue dealt with nicely...(youngest)
6. Taking my oldest to the doctor on Monday, 10am...(was an addict until 16 days ago)..hard core stuff.
7. My tv quit working last week in the living room. (like I care)..but I needed to find a replacement anyway. I was upstairs yesterday and opened the door to a spare room we never use. There was a giant TV sitting in the hallway? WTF? I asked lil C who's it was? IDK...Oh well, it works. Just weird....
8. Went to Goodwill yesterday just to have something to do. They had all kinds of cool (high end) sound equip in there for like $15!...I like loud music. I bought it..Oh, and in case you're in America and need a TV or whatever,, they have them there for $10 to $15 too....weird. and working, with remotes....
9. The new meds are helping me to walk easier, so that's good. weird....could hardly walk for 20 months, here try this, ok,..I can walk better....unreal.
10. Hope everyone out there in the Anxiety Forums has a great weekend and finds something good to share too!...It may be right in front of your face too!...YAY!!!!

E-Man...:)

[Terre Nova]

Something good I hope...(weird is what it is)..odd, rare..
1. First off, have we lost Jesse to alcohol?...CMON MAN!!! Haven't seen him all day.. Anyone?
2. Hopefully he didn't OD on that box I sent him..
3. Haven't seen some of our other Veteran members either today...What's your take on this, and who comes to mind????
4. I do want to see people recover, get better, succeed,...but it will (generally) take continued support and therapy to do that. It may just "pop up" but it rarely ever just "pops out"....
5. Let's see...got my daughters issue dealt with nicely...(youngest)
6. Taking my oldest to the doctor on Monday, 10am...(was an addict until 16 days ago)..hard core stuff.
7. My tv quit working last week in the living room. (like I care)..but I needed to find a replacement anyway. I was upstairs yesterday and opened the door to a spare room we never use. There was a giant TV sitting in the hallway? WTF? I asked lil C who's it was? IDK...Oh well, it works. Just weird....
8. Went to Goodwill yesterday just to have something to do. They had all kinds of cool (high end) sound equip in there for like $15!...I like loud music. I bought it..Oh, and in case you're in America and need a TV or whatever,, they have them there for $10 to $15 too....weird. and working, with remotes....
9. The new meds are helping me to walk easier, so that's good. weird....could hardly walk for 20 months, here try this, ok,..I can walk better....unreal.
10. Hope everyone out there in the Anxiety Forums has a great weekend and finds something good to share too!...It may be right in front of your face too!...YAY!!!!

E-Man...:)

Sounds like you're doing pretty great E-Man!!
Good to hear!! :)

[Lord Jazzinho]

Don't just look for the positives mate rinse out every last bit of positivity you can find, let yourself forget as much of the negative as you can. From what I read of your posts you strike me as someone who deals with life one obstacle at a time. Have faith in yourself and you will overcome

[Enduronman]

Thank you Terre and Jazz!

Doing ok..just reading up about RLS that my oldest daughter has had since about age 15 er so..Want to be prepared for what the Doc may say on Monday. It is nearly disabling her..

Yes Jazz, exactly. (1) issue at a time, full steam ahead until it's either corrected or at least much more tolerable and understandable by all parties involved. I don't know any other way to deal with them, and I don't let them become a huge pile (which is at least partly why my anxiety is like a .5 on a 1 to 10 scale.....:)

Have a great night friends.

E..:D

[Enduronman]

Hey Frankie!

Just trying to understand this (restless leg syndrome) my oldest has and what the medications are and costs...About $11 a month, if they work!...I am taking her to see my Doc on Monday. Her first visit, but my Doc already knows alllllll aboutttt her...eessshhhh..

Good day overall and learning more about something else too. I love to learn about new things!

How is your new computer working???....:)

[Enduronman]

scratch that!

Youngest daughter just called (17, completely a fuggin teen girl) and was yelling for me to come get her...she spun her car around and parked it in a ditch. It was buried..it looked as if it must have been a quit memorable experience. By my observations and brief investigation. LMAO!!

Proabably, the only car, on that entire roadway, in the ditch...

Oh no Dad I was paying attention, wasn't using my phone, just driving along on the blacktop paths created by the billion other cars that wore them and the sand, salt, and giant plow trucks that moved the snow....it just suddenly spun around.

BULLSHIT!!!....BAHAAAHAAAHA!!!

and then,...she wanted to take my other car? NO!!! F**K YOU!!!!....hehheeheheehe!!!...

Well, looks like she's just stuck at home for the night..wah.

I will have a tow truck pull it out tomorrow,...and she'll do it all over again I'm sure.

It was great while it lasted!!!...

Endure On Man....LOL! :)

[Chatative]

Just trying to understand this (restless leg syndrome) my oldest has and what the medications are and costs...About $11 a month, if they work!...I am taking her to see my Doc on Monday. Her first visit, but my Doc already knows alllllll aboutttt her...eessshhhh..

I have RLS. Or perhaps persisting Akithisia. I'm not sure... they are very similar.

Mine is just confined to bed at night. Doesn't stop me from falling asleep thankfully. Magnesium *might* help but supposedly the best way is to have a bath with Magnesium Salts.

[Enduronman]

I have RLS. Or perhaps persisting Akithisia. I'm not sure... they are very similar.

Mine is just confined to bed at night. Doesn't stop me from falling asleep thankfully. Magnesium *might* help but supposedly the best way is to have a bath with Magnesium Salts.

I will mention this to her. She's had it for well over 5 yrs now. The research says that it can be genetic (mother had it mildly)..CC's is like, all the time.. The net says that she needs a (dopamine agonists) and oddly enough I take one that is a partial dopamine agonists with my anti-holy-shit-I'm-going-to-tear-something-up pill, Abilify. Interesting...(sigh)...

[Enduronman]

E-man, what can I say......it never rains but it pours!........in your house. It's amazing how many things test you. Yet you can still add a baahaabaahaaa etc! Hats off to the E-man.

My computer is nice and shiny and a lovely treat for me. The windows 8 is definately created to test my patience however but I will think of you and not lose my cool. It is only a silly thing for sure and I will get it figured out. I'm just going to have lots of things pop up while I do lol!

I lost my cool for a few seconds,..when she said "gimme the GD keys to the other car" 5 times and I said hell no 5 times...I am going to remove your f**king teeth!!! STFU!!...LOL!!..

I just hope it doesn't need more tires. I just had them put on the week before. I told her (again) that this is why she is NOT going to drive my fuggin trucks....Her car is like a demo derby car now!!..LMAO!!

I hope you get the computer issues worked out Frankie,...and that you and everyone else here has a good or at least betterr day friends...

E-Man...:)

[Chatative]

The net says that she needs a (dopamine agonists) and oddly enough I take one that is a partial dopamine agonists with my anti-holy-shit-I'm-going-to-tear-something-up pill, Abilify. Interesting...(sigh)...

Hmm strange. Most Antipsychotics reduce Dopamine. I never realised there was one that worked differently! Intriguing.

How bad is her RLS?

I haven't brought it up with my Doctor yet. I mentioned it in passing when asking if there was any reason not to supplement with Magnesium but he made no comment. For me, using medication that was solely a Dopamine Agonist could be like playing with fire :p

[Enduronman]

Yes, its the ONLY AP that ever worked for me...it has been a blessing in disguise. The partial DA seems to be a perfect match (so far) and I stay happy most days even though things are exploding all around me at times. And the drama involved in having these 2 daughters, with their drama friends too...eessshhhhh

It is realllyyyyy bad. She moves her legs all the time, complains about them, and says that its worse when she tries to lay down too. APPARENTLY klonopin can make it worse over time too. She took up to 6mg a day for her anxiety, she won't be taking anymore of that...

She goes to the Doc tomorrow am so we'll see what Doc H has to say or add...

Gotta try to wake up now,..I have a car in a ditch. If it wasn't snowing, wouldn't be a big deal and I could pull it out..It'll have to be winched out now. Awesome!! yay :rolleyes:

[Enduronman]

This is what I take....

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aripiprazole

It, in combination with xanax and atenolol, has stopped my anxiety completely...:)

[GeneAllen]

E-Man I did see I-65 in Indiana is a mess. Hope things are not piling up too much for you dude.

You've got your hands full this morning for sure. My best to you! Peace

[Enduronman]

Thanks Gene!!

I at least had the tow truck guy laughing when I told him it may have a flat tire, but I have 2 or 3 of them in the trunk...he asked why so many?...Because it's kindof like my daughters own Demolition Derby Car!! She runs over things, hits things, and spins around into ditches!! ....

He's meeting us over there at 10am.

I highly doubt that she has a flat tire..I think it was just the snow from her burning rubber trying to get out before she had to call me...

It wouldnt have mattered how much rubber she burnt, it wasn't coming out of this ditch!!!...LMAO!!

E-Man....YAY!!! :)

[trinidiva]

Sorry to hear about the crappy weather out your way.....we dont have snow here but it is just freezing....it makes you just want to hibernate. I need spring right now!

[Enduronman]

Hey Trin!!

Yes, the weather was crappy enough to cause my youngest to spin, crash, burn,...and bend the suspension system too!! YAY!!!... I have to get more new parts for her Demo Derby car now....yippee.... :(

[Chatative]

This is what I take....

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aripiprazole

It, in combination with xanax and atenolol, has stopped my anxiety completely...:)

I'm glad to hear it has worked so well for you.

If anyone tries to prescribe me APs again I'll probably hit them, repeatedly :p

Despite the fact the newer atypical APs are much safer than the old typical ones, they are still potentially very nasty drugs.

[Enduronman]

Smack em up side the head!!....LOL!!! :)

[Enduronman]

Car is back on the road, ready for next wreck. YAY!!! :D

[trinidiva]

Hey Trin!!

Yes, the weather was crappy enough to cause my youngest to spin, crash, burn,...and bend the suspension system too!! YAY!!!... I have to get more new parts for her Demo Derby car now....yippee.... :(

Oh no.....that is terrible...lol at demo Derby car........ Im sure you guys have it much worse out there weather wize. ...but I swear my SAD is in full swing. ......im not feeling very motivated to do anything at all. I have to cook lunch pretty soon so I can sit and watch the playoffs in a bit and im not even motivated to do that. My husband is putting in requests......buffalo and bbq wings.

[Enduronman]

She crashed into something every other week!!..The SAD thing is something I know all to well about too, this weather makes me groggy and down...

I hope your day gets better and you can find some energy Trin! ....

E_Man..:)

[trinidiva]

She crashed into something every other week!!..The SAD thing is something I know all to well about too, this weather makes me groggy and down...

I hope your day gets better and you can find some energy Trin! ....

E_Man..:)

Goodness....you need to get her a driving course..........pronto! To save your pockets in the long run!!!!!!

I finally found the energy to make some killer chicken wings.. honey bbq and the second batch was chipotle.

Are you into football? Are you watching the playoffs? Im cheering for the Broncos.

[issy]

Hey E-Man Sorry to hear of the many harsh adversities life has thrown at you, but just wanted to say you're an inspiration. You must have a hell of a lot of strength is all I can say :)

[Dahila]

Goodness....you need to get her a driving course..........pronto! To save your pockets in the long run!!!!!!

I finally found the energy to make some killer chicken wings.. honey bbq and the second batch was chipotle.

Are you into football? Are you watching the playoffs? Im cheering for the Broncos.
No, no she already have it. She needs to put her phone away when she is driving. Somehow we got a new trend; young people text when they are driving, it is a disaster, so many lifes lost because of stupid smart phones...

[trinidiva]

Yeah, it definitely is a huge problem. ...texting and driving.....I even see the cops on their phones when im driving by...

[Enduronman]

@ Trin, she had been driving since she was 14 so you'd think she'd be great at it!! NOPE!!..I'm really glad that you found some energy too (now share where cuz I need some too please???)... I like the Broncos to win it all!! Peyton played here, before he left for Denver..

@Issy, Thank you so much for thinking of me! I am thinking of you too friend...life loves to throw stuff at me allll thhee timmeee...That explains my screen name. (Endure On Man)....Enduronman... :)

Have a great upcoming week friends!..:)

[Enduronman]

No, no she already have it. She needs to put her phone away when she is driving. Somehow we got a new trend; young people text when they are driving, it is a disaster, so many lifes lost because of stupid smart phones...

They sayyyyy that they were just driving along, and all the sudden...the car spins around 3 times and hits a ditch???...BBAAAHAA!!

I'm just glad that they're ok,..Lion Cub wasn't shook up, she was mad because she wanted to go somewhere...LOL!

[Enduronman]

"I even see the cops on their phones when im driving by"...

Yes, doing the SAME thing we're told not to do....:(

[trinidiva]

@ Trin, she had been driving since she was 14 so you'd think she'd be great at it!! NOPE!!..I'm really glad that you found some energy too (now share where cuz I need some too please???)... I like the Broncos to win it all!! Peyton played here, before he left for Denver..

@Issy, Thank you so much for thinking of me! I am thinking of you too friend...life loves to throw stuff at me allll thhee timmeee...That explains my screen name. (Endure On Man)....Enduronman... :)

Have a great upcoming week friends!..:)

I have no idea where the burst of energy came from.....but everything turned out great and right on time for me to see the Broncos win. Im really a die hard Packers fan but since they got knocked out...I decided to cheer for Broncos. Now I will be cheering for San Fran in the next playoff game.

Yes, you dont know how many times ive seen police officers cruising by while on their cell phones.......hmmm.......

[jessed03]

I have no idea where the burst of energy came from.....but everything turned out great and right on time for me to see the Broncos win. Im really a die hard Packers fan but since they got knocked out...I decided to cheer for Broncos. Now I will be cheering for San Fran in the next playoff game.

Yes, you dont know how many times ive seen police officers cruising by while on their cell phones.......hmmm.......

Sucked that Aaron Rodgers got injured. Pack were building momentum before that freak Chicago game. Threw them out of sorts. I think a Green Bay with momentum would have beaten 49ers the way that game went

P.s. Seattle are gonna crush San Fran!!

[jessed03]

Eman - least ya'll have a kick ass basketball team this year.

[Enduronman]

Eman - least ya'll have a kick ass basketball team this year.

We do?????

Lil Bruh, You think I got a spare minute to pay attention to sports????....Mmm NO!!! LMAO!!

E-Man...:)

[Enduronman]

(sigh)
1. Picked up my oldest daughter for the Doc's visit...
2. She wanted to "tell stories" about drama crap and her younger sis.
3. She "thinks" that she is smoking meth..awesome.....
4. I just listened to all the BS all the way to the office and all the way back too..34 miles.
5. The doc did put her on abilify, and her RLS has already stopped too..weird how fast a (dopamine agonist) helps that so quickly...
6. I will wait to see what the rest of this day has in store..visit was pretty good however and she is still methadone free too. Day #18. HOORAYY!!!!.....

Have a great day all...:)

[GeneAllen]

Great news E-Man.

That abilify must be some awesome stuff. Y'all getting more snow? We're fixin to get hammered a little or so they say. 48 degrees today though. Awesome day!
Peace Bro (that's nut my dug). LOL still kickin that around in the old melon.

[Chatative]

5. The doc did put her on abilify, and her RLS has already stopped too..weird how fast a (dopamine agonist) helps that so quickly...

I find it curious that an AP would be used for RLS.

One of the common side effects of APs like Abilify is Akathisia which is like really bad RLS. Kind of ironic that it can cure & cause much the same thing. :p

If it works though, why question it! :)

[GeneAllen]

Congrats Frankie,


That is awesome!! So, so proud, and look how far you have come, such a good thing. :) Peace

[GeneAllen]

Oh, okay sorry about that Frankie. I'll try again. ;) Peace Keep up the good work! This is great news.

[jjh333]

I'm loving the sports talk, someone should start a thread for it if it doesn't annoy people possibly straying far from the anxiety theme

[Lee Grant Irons]

Hello all

I would like to share with you tonight another little milestone for me.

When I was doing my walk this evening I was feeling pretty good and calm so instead of turning right, I turned left and looped a whole new block outside of my latest safety zone. This zone is growing for me each week after years of it shrinking. Furthermore my left turn took me up the huge hill which climbs to the top of the town. It obviously had my heart rate increasing sharpish and I was very breathless when I reached the top.
I concentrated hard on my breathing and my thoughts keeping away from triggering other anxiety symptoms. I remained steadfast and no panic. I smiled all the way along the block that returned me back to my usual lap of the town. When I got home I was so pleased.

Frankie, that is fantastic! Interesting that you say that you were effectively doing things to block triggers. What are your triggers for your anxiety when you are out walking?

[Lee Grant Irons]

Hi Lee, thanks for your support.

One of my main thoughts that cause my anxiety at least in relation to the agoraphobia is the further I go from a bathroom the stronger the urge is to go. Obviously a fear builds upon that as no one wants to lose control of themselves. That thought is a massive trigger for me.

Also on that occasion as I walked up the "hill of death" my heart was pounding and my chest was very tight both of which occur during a panic episode. I was actively focusing on thoughts that those were normal feelings for many people who go up that hill and it was NOT because I had gone far from home and needing the bathroom.

Does that make sense?

Yay Frankie! Makes perfect sense. :)

So, to clarify. Moving further away from a bathroom is a trigger. The fear suggestion that comes to your mind is, "If I get too far from the bathroom, I will lose control of myself." The thought is not the trigger. The thought is a fear suggestion that results from the trigger of walking further away from a bathroom. One way to overcome this is by countering the fear suggestion. So I imagine you did something to make yourself feel safe that if a problem happened, you were prepared. Either that, or you just toughed it out and made it okay. :)

That seems to be exactly what you did with the hill. You felt the trigger of the increased heart rate and heavy chest, and rather than let it suggest fear to your mind that you were having a heart attack (or a panic attack), you countered the suggestion by telling yourself it is all normal feelings for walking up a hill. And it worked. :)

Controlling your suggestion response. This can be very effective in breaking the anxiety cycle. Chapter 2. :)

[Lee Grant Irons]

Checking in E-Man... Hope all is well. Everything is sat on my end.

[Enduronman]

Ok dear forum friends,..here's what is going on and why you haven't seen me much..

First off, all these damn test and procedures to try and figure out why I can hardly walk. My legs feel like they're being squeezed by something every friggin day. Like I'm a damn mummy. Just the legs (for now) and been like this for 14 fuggin months. I have medications, they help, but there has to be a cause or reason. Hence=test after test.
I have ANOTHER friggin MRI tomorrow morning at 630am..the spine. There may be spinal damage from this disease and or pinched nerves. Then I have to have something called an EMG on the 27th. Tiny needles will be stuck in my legs with electrodes attached to see electrical malfunctions I guess. Like acupuncture with wires. Yay...
Then a Neurosurgeon on the 28th, to read all this s**t and tell me what's next or if there's nothing that they can do. I've already had physical therapy for my neck, then maybe I'll have therapy on my legs. I just don't really know..I can't stand for more than 10 mins without my legs killing me, get in and out of the damn car, climb the stairs, but used to be able to do anything and lift tons of weight. It still makes no sense to me.

Second off, my oldest daughter was a drug addict. She quit taking (methadone) after 2 solid years..but, there's a catch. She replaced it with something else I believe (crystal meth)..She's dropping weight fast, and I see and sense other things going on too. Just when I thought she had found her inner strengths, I see she just chose something else completely f**kin stupid instead..plus, she adds extra "drama" into my life now too. I don't know what to believe when she tells me stories. Most of the stories are about her younger sis that is in my home. About drugs. That's ALLLLLLLLL she talks about....and not the LEGAL ones that I take, the other ones...it's draining me.

Then, lastnight. I get a call from the Doctors office to speak to me about lion cub..(17)..They say that they need her to come in for a drug test because something strange popped up in her system? So, for a few hours..I am freaking the f**k out about what it could be? She saw the Doc on the 20th, 1 day after going to a damn dentists office to have a filling done, and they gave her VALIUM!! I even took the f**kin bottle out there with us on the 20th, showed the nurse, showed the Doc, they both looked at it,,,,but TOOK NO F**KIN NOTES ABOUT IT!!!..That's what was "in her system"...Son of a beyotch! So, I had to take her out there today for a surprise drug screen, because of something that I tried to make them aware of and prevent on December fuggin 20th!!!....Lion cub was not happy, nor kind to the RN that didn't (DO HER JOB)!!!......

Between allllll this shit...I'm trying to hang in there and hang in here too.....

Now you know!!

Like my new signature???? It's from a song that you would all HATE!!! LMAO!!...

(sigh)...

E-Man...:)

[Ashlee13x]

Keep strong E-man!! Were all here for when you need to get something off your chest just like you are always here for us!!! Never lose sight of how lovely and kind you are to everyone on here because I know you have really helped me on my journey through anxiety and I bet a lot of other people can say that too!! You really deserve to have it easy because you have been through soo much.. I look up to you (not just because i'm 5ft tall) because although you have been through/going through a lot your still your happy bubbly self and you still bring so much fun and laughter to the forum!!! Stay strong pupa lion!!

Anywayyyy… enough of the soppy crap hahhahaa!!! THE SONG!! I forgot, i'm gonna listen to it now!!

Ash xx

[Enduronman]

Thank you Ashlee...that was very kind, very powerful. Blessings your way for being so strong!! (even at 5')....LOL!

I am realllllyyyyy trying to stay on the "road" if you know what I mean now...

E-Man...:)

[Cullingford]

Sorry to hear you're going through it! E-man such a shit that you have so many things to deal with at once.
Try and keep strong we all need you and your great support and advice.
Cully

[mykids12]

Ok dear forum friends,..here's what is going on and why you haven't seen me much.. First off, all these damn test and procedures to try and figure out why I can hardly walk. My legs feel like they're being squeezed by something every friggin day. Like I'm a damn mummy. Just the legs (for now) and been like this for 14 fuggin months. I have medications, they help, but there has to be a cause or reason. Hence=test after test. I have ANOTHER friggin MRI tomorrow morning at 630am..the spine. There may be spinal damage from this disease and or pinched nerves. Then I have to have something called an EMG on the 27th. Tiny needles will be stuck in my legs with electrodes attached to see electrical malfunctions I guess. Like acupuncture with wires. Yay... Then a Neurosurgeon on the 28th, to read all this s**t and tell me what's next or if there's nothing that they can do. I've already had physical therapy for my neck, then maybe I'll have therapy on my legs. I just don't really know..I can't stand for more than 10 mins without my legs killing me, get in and out of the damn car, climb the stairs, but used to be able to do anything and lift tons of weight. It still makes no sense to me. Second off, my oldest daughter was a drug addict. She quit taking (methadone) after 2 solid years..but, there's a catch. She replaced it with something else I believe (crystal meth)..She's dropping weight fast, and I see and sense other things going on too. Just when I thought she had found her inner strengths, I see she just chose something else completely f**kin stupid instead..plus, she adds extra "drama" into my life now too. I don't know what to believe when she tells me stories. Most of the stories are about her younger sis that is in my home. About drugs. That's ALLLLLLLLL she talks about....and not the LEGAL ones that I take, the other ones...it's draining me. Then, lastnight. I get a call from the Doctors office to speak to me about lion cub..(17)..They say that they need her to come in for a drug test because something strange popped up in her system? So, for a few hours..I am freaking the f**k out about what it could be? She saw the Doc on the 20th, 1 day after going to a damn dentists office to have a filling done, and they gave her VALIUM!! I even took the f**kin bottle out there with us on the 20th, showed the nurse, showed the Doc, they both looked at it,,,,but TOOK NO F**KIN NOTES ABOUT IT!!!..That's what was "in her system"...Son of a beyotch! So, I had to take her out there today for a surprise drug screen, because of something that I tried to make them aware of and prevent on December fuggin 20th!!!....Lion cub was not happy, nor kind to the RN that didn't (DO HER JOB)!!!...... Between allllll this shit...I'm trying to hang in there and hang in here too..... Now you know!! Like my new signature???? It's from a song that you would all HATE!!! LMAO!!... (sigh)... E-Man...:)

BUT you manage to stay positive even with everything going on. I wish I could be that way. Not that I'm negative all the time but the bad things always manage to creep into my head and stay there for awhile. I look too far into the future instead of living each day as it comes. I need to learn how to do this :)

[em1]

Ok dear forum friends,..here's what is going on and why you haven't seen me much.. First off, all these damn test and procedures to try and figure out why I can hardly walk. My legs feel like they're being squeezed by something every friggin day. Like I'm a damn mummy. Just the legs (for now) and been like this for 14 fuggin months. I have medications, they help, but there has to be a cause or reason. Hence=test after test. I have ANOTHER friggin MRI tomorrow morning at 630am..the spine. There may be spinal damage from this disease and or pinched nerves. Then I have to have something called an EMG on the 27th. Tiny needles will be stuck in my legs with electrodes attached to see electrical malfunctions I guess. Like acupuncture with wires. Yay... Then a Neurosurgeon on the 28th, to read all this s**t and tell me what's next or if there's nothing that they can do. I've already had physical therapy for my neck, then maybe I'll have therapy on my legs. I just don't really know..I can't stand for more than 10 mins without my legs killing me, get in and out of the damn car, climb the stairs, but used to be able to do anything and lift tons of weight. It still makes no sense to me. Second off, my oldest daughter was a drug addict. She quit taking (methadone) after 2 solid years..but, there's a catch. She replaced it with something else I believe (crystal meth)..She's dropping weight fast, and I see and sense other things going on too. Just when I thought she had found her inner strengths, I see she just chose something else completely f**kin stupid instead..plus, she adds extra "drama" into my life now too. I don't know what to believe when she tells me stories. Most of the stories are about her younger sis that is in my home. About drugs. That's ALLLLLLLLL she talks about....and not the LEGAL ones that I take, the other ones...it's draining me. Then, lastnight. I get a call from the Doctors office to speak to me about lion cub..(17)..They say that they need her to come in for a drug test because something strange popped up in her system? So, for a few hours..I am freaking the f**k out about what it could be? She saw the Doc on the 20th, 1 day after going to a damn dentists office to have a filling done, and they gave her VALIUM!! I even took the f**kin bottle out there with us on the 20th, showed the nurse, showed the Doc, they both looked at it,,,,but TOOK NO F**KIN NOTES ABOUT IT!!!..That's what was "in her system"...Son of a beyotch! So, I had to take her out there today for a surprise drug screen, because of something that I tried to make them aware of and prevent on December fuggin 20th!!!....Lion cub was not happy, nor kind to the RN that didn't (DO HER JOB)!!!...... Between allllll this shit...I'm trying to hang in there and hang in here too..... Now you know!! Like my new signature???? It's from a song that you would all HATE!!! LMAO!!... (sigh)... E-Man...:)

Hey EMan oh you have got so much on your mind right now,your strong and you can get through this,we are all here for you,come on here and have a vent let it all out
Hugs to you

[John_Mark]

Hey EMan oh you have got so much on your mind right now,your strong and you can get through this,we are all here for you,come on here and have a vent let it all out
Hugs to you

Hugs for you :-)

[em1]

Hugs for you :-)

Oh thanks :)

[jessed03]

Keep strong big bro. I'm building the machine here cos of your help, you'll get it sorted there. You have the determination and the patience.

[Dahila]

Keep strong big bro. I'm building the machine here cos of your help, you'll get it sorted there. You have the determination and the patience.

Yeah he is stong and positive for us, so sending the hugs:)

[NeverToo...Fear]

You got all of us here for support, E-man.. if anyone can stay strong, it's you.. You're not called Endure on Man for nothing! Although sometimes, a break from adversity would be great.. More hugs to you! :)

[NixonRulz]

That sucks E man. Seeing your kids falling into a bad sort is heartbreaking. I feel for you

Also about all the shit you have to get done

If I look for some solace, I see that the doctors are determined to find what is going on based on all the tests

I know the are a nuisance and annoying, but it am glad they are doing their due diligence.

Soon you'll be back lifting tons of shit again if they have their way

[Lee Grant Irons]

Hey Eman! Glad to see you are still in the mode. Have you ever taken Lion Cub for a ride, pointed at a homeless woman on the street, and said, "You do realize that while I am alive, you have it easy, but when I die, you will get nothing because I have nothing. That is gonna be you when I die, unless you get your act together and stop the drugs."

[Enduronman]

I really appreciate all this support, more then my words could even express. You're all true friends, truly compassionate, truly caring,..
I am reallllly being stretched and pushed to the edges of sanity with these health issues, the girls, and things that all come along with being disabled too.

All I have to do tomorrow is an MRI at 7am, and then the rest of the weekend is "mind clearing" time I hope...Then start the process again on Monday.

I hope to get back here and spend some time with you all too..alot of people still in need out there I know.

I will get these issues resolved, just wish it didn't take years to figure out.

Many, many blessings to you all!...

E-Man..:)

[Dahila]

I am so frozen, but still I want to hug Eman:)) U will survive at least maybe they find what is going on:)

[Lee Grant Irons]

Eman, make sure you drink plenty of fluids to flush out your system immediately following an MRI with a gadolinium contrast. It is important to give your liver and kidneys a boost with flushing the system, considering Gadolinium is normally toxic, but should be flushed in its chelated state.

[SSMommy]

I'm sending some positive thoughts your way.. I hope they come back with good news for you. You are an amazing example of positivity to everyone on this forum and I really truly hope that you are able to catch a break here soon. Thank you for the inspiration that you give to so many of us on a daily basis.

[Enduronman]

Thank you Dahl, Lee, And SSMom!!...really means alot to me to read these words of hope and inspirations as well.

I'm not not real sure about getting up at 530am!! I usually get up at 4 am but force myself back to sleep again....I may be abit groggy tomorrow.

I also don't think that they're going to use contrast because I'm allergic to so many different medications that most people aren't. I'd be the one that contrast messed up...
I hope they don't plan on it or it'll be even more interesting tomorrow morning with a tired Chris and them trying to run some gadolinium through me!! eessshhhh....

E-Man..:D

[Lee Grant Irons]

Here is a good chuckle for everyone. This is pretty funny.

http://themetapicture.com/dear-neighbor/

[mykids12]

Here is a good chuckle for everyone. This is pretty funny. http://themetapicture.com/dear-neighbor/

Lmao. That was hilarious

[Dahila]

Here is a good chuckle for everyone. This is pretty funny.

http://themetapicture.com/dear-neighbor/

I love it:) thank you

[Enduronman]

Here's a chuckle too!

I was awoken at 3:18am by knocking at the door. Local City Police Dept officers telling me to go pick up my youngest lion cub at a Police Dept, in another city 12 miles north..LMAO!!...ok....

I go up there, after taking my time,...they have her held and they found a meth pipe on her. She's being transported to the juvenile detention center now, I didn't want to bring her home. Awl,...poor wittle lying little lion cub...gotta go to where the tough girls are. (only problem is that she'll kick the shit out of aany girl in there, so it isn't going to be as scary as it sounds)...

She also had 2, 45 yr old men in the back of the car with her and another 18 yr old friend. She told the officer that I knew them, then she changed her story again...NO I don't them nor any 45 yr old dude hanging out with my daughter...

BAHAHAAAAAHA!!!...

F**K and I was going to sleep until 530!!!...

Have a great day all!....

E-Man...:)

[trinidiva]

Here's a chuckle too!

I was awoken at 3:18am by knocking at the door. Local City Police Dept officers telling me to go pick up my youngest lion cub at a Police Dept, in another city 12 miles north..LMAO!!...ok....

I go up there, after taking my time,...they have her held and they found a meth pipe on her. She's being transported to the juvenile detention center now, I didn't want to bring her home. Awl,...poor wittle lying little lion cub...gotta go to where the tough girls are. (only problem is that she'll kick the shit out of aany girl in there, so it isn't going to be as scary as it sounds)...

She also had 2, 45 yr old men in the back of the car with her and another 18 yr old friend. She told the officer that I knew them, then she changed her story again...NO I don't them nor any 45 yr old dude hanging out with my daughter...

BAHAHAAAAAHA!!!...

F**K and I was going to sleep until 530!!!...

Have a great day all!....

E-Man...:)

Man, thats alot to deal with, first thing in the morning. So, you are going to have her stay at the detention center for now? And yeah, id want to know who the heck were the two 45 yr old men in the car with her. No Bueno.......

I dont know too much about this and im sure you've looked into this already....but are there any treatment centers that you could have her go to that dont cost an arm and a leg? Meth is a tough drug to deal with, its not like weed....
I honestly dont know what I would of done if I got a call like that either....id probably go the tough route too and let them cool their heels in detention center for a bit. Im so sorry you have to deal with this.

[GeneAllen]

Sorry E-man.

That sounds messed up. Like the skit on Saturday night live "what up wit dat"? "what up wit dat"? I hope this all gets straightened out, and yep some time away might be good for

her. If anyone can pull this off the best possible way it'll be you. All my best friend. Peace

[Enduronman]

S**t Frankie, Cub is fine she'll just be bitchy and pissy at everyone out there. I am not worried about her at all. Hard as iron and sharp as steel..

She does have to SIT in there until 430 today, which I find quite funny and entertaining in a tough love sorta way...

She put herself in there, not me...LMAO!!....

It'll be quiet around here today for sure....YAY!!!!!!!!! :)

[Dahila]

I am sorry about it, Eman it is not easy for parent to see that. I hope your day will not be that awful. Keep us posted please......

[staceatarian]

You never do have a quiet day, huh? I hope everything works out and she gets the help she needs. Looking into a treatment center may be worth your time.

[jjh333]

I just caught up on your life eman! Keep your head up! My youngest cousin was similar to your lion cub, she got mixed in with drugs/stripping/alcohol etc. She had to spend a day in juvenile detention once and it set her straight for a bit! You've always been super kind and responsive to me on here, you're in my thoughts. You are great!

[Enduronman]

Thank you Stacy, Frankie, JJ!! And whomever else I have left out..

Here's the "story"
I read the report, the officer made a vital error..he arrested and detained her for being out past curfew. It is NOT an arrestable offense in this State. Only, ticketable.
Then, he patted her down to find a glass pipe..anything that follows the arrest and detainment (cuffed) of a juvenile, out past 11pm, in inadmissable in court.
They let her go, come home, and she is now on house arrests which mean that I gotta put up with her 17 yr old bullshit!!!
They can not charge her with anything related to the paraphenalia found on person....He made a huge error.
Therefore, no legal cost, or courts, or nothing...just stuck in this house with me!!!..HOLY SHIT!!!....

So, there we have it...I got baby lion cub back. (I did ask them if they could just keep her though)..They said no....

(sigggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh).....BUT, :)

[NixonRulz]

Thank you Stacy, Frankie, JJ!! And whomever else I have left out.. Here's the "story" I read the report, the officer made a vital error..he arrested and detained her for being out past curfew. It is NOT an arrestable offense in this State. Only, ticketable. Then, he patted her down to find a glass pipe..anything that follows the arrest and detainment (cuffed) of a juvenile, out past 11pm, in inadmissable in court. They let her go, come home, and she is now on house arrests which mean that I gotta put up with her 17 yr old bullshit!!! They can not charge her with anything related to the paraphenalia found on person....He made a huge error. Therefore, no legal cost, or courts, or nothing...just stuck in this house with me!!!..HOLY SHIT!!!.... So, there we have it...I got baby lion cub back. (I did ask them if they could just keep her though)..They said no.... (sigggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh).....BUT, :)

Sounds like you'll have plenty of time to inject your wisdom

Take advantage of of it

[Enduronman]

Having a reallllll hard time getting my head unfogged from all this bullshit!! Can't even read into another thread it all looks like a blur.

I'm sure once I get all these issues resolved, that I will once again be able to get back into helping others as I really looked forward to that daily.

Now, shit has exploded all around me. (the daughters)...plus all these other upcoming doctors visits too.

No, I'm not anxious, depressed, neurotic, or psychotic....just feel like a 215 pound cotton ball. LMAO!!!..

Miss you all much though!!

E-Man... :)

[Lee Grant Irons]

Hey E-Man,

You have helped a lot of people, so now maybe it is your turn to get some help. :)

It sounds like you respond to kid stress like me. I have a hard time controlling my stress response when my kids are involved. I'm concerned for all the stress you are going through while you try to resolve your medical issues. I know that you have limited to no control over their choices. You also might have higher expectations for them than they have for themselves. As a result, there is a lot of friction. This kind of problem is very difficult to solve. Just thinking about my own kids, I find that they tend to back down and become more cooperative and understanding when I don't get upset, yell, and catastrophize. You seem like you are a type-A personality like me, so you might tend to default into the agitated response, like me. Maybe if you completely become a teddy bear when it comes to communicating with your daughters when they and all of their issues enter your presence. Minimum, you will get a physical benefit by remaining calm and preventing the stress hormones from flowing. After all, getting agitated about our kids is a form of anxiety. Giving your body a break from stressing out over the daughters will give you time and energy to work on your health problem. True, this will likely not solve your daughter problems, but it will reduce your stress and it might put your daughters in a position to be more thoughtful about their father who seem to be taking everything very calmly. It might help them change their perceptions of the constant hell they put you through.

Just some thoughts. Something has got to change or something is going to break. Changing your own response to your daughters is likely a key to this.

Love you bruh!

[Blessed]

Having a reallllll hard time getting my head unfogged from all this bullshit!! Can't even read into another thread it all looks like a blur. I'm sure once I get all these issues resolved, that I will once again be able to get back into helping others as I really looked forward to that daily. Now, shit has exploded all around me. (the daughters)...plus all these other upcoming doctors visits too. No, I'm not anxious, depressed, neurotic, or psychotic....just feel like a 215 pound cotton ball. LMAO!!!.. Miss you all much though!! E-Man... :) you have been such a strong and amazing help to me although I may not show it at times . You're in my thoughts and prayers. Well wishes to you and your family during this time. Hang in there.... We need you!

[jessed03]

Eman, how you doin bruh?

[em1]

Hang in there EMan like others have said give your body and mind time to heal,having children/teenagers can be very stressful when problems occur on top of what you have to deal with yourself to,take care

[Dahila]

Eman everyone is missing you :)

[GeneAllen]

Thinking of you E-Man. Hang in there friend. Peace

[Enduronman]

(phew)....I've been everywhere, done everything. Whatever you do, if a doctor ever mentions an EMG..tell them hell to the NO!!! Cuzzzz, it hurts like hell!!! They stick needles in your muscles and then run electrical current through them and it causes you to convulse!!!...Holy S**************T!!!!!

Then, I had to go to (2) different hospitals and pick up (discs) copies of the MRI's I had done on Thur and Fri..

Good news: There is 0 wrong with my brain, other then I act like I'm retarded for fun!!! YAY!!!!

One more visit to a NeuroSURGEON tomorrow at 2..then everyone tries to figure out why I had 15 seizures..

Everything else is OK...My "prisoner" is doing fine. LMAO!

E-Man...:)

[Enduronman]

I can not possibly catch up here, so many new members!!! OMGAWWWDDDDD!!!!.....hmm...

May be a good time to start a newbie thread to put them all into one place?...

E-Man...:)

[Dahila]

(phew)....I've been everywhere, done everything. Whatever you do, if a doctor ever mentions an EMG..tell them hell to the NO!!! Cuzzzz, it hurts like hell!!! They stick needles in your muscles and then run electrical current through them and it causes you to convulse!!!...Holy S**************T!!!!!

Then, I had to go to (2) different hospitals and pick up (discs) copies of the MRI's I had done on Thur and Fri..

Good news: There is 0 wrong with my brain, other then I act like I'm retarded for fun!!! YAY!!!!



One more visit to a NeuroSURGEON tomorrow at 2..then everyone tries to figure out why I had 15 seizures..

Everything else is OK...My "prisoner" is doing fine. LMAO!

E-Man...:)
I was wondering if I should tell you about Emg, but it would not give you any benefits, The pain is horrible, I was crying with the screaming like crazy woman, having two kids , natural way, no epidural, it was nothing to compare to f****electrical current in your body. If I could get the doc who send me to this, and connect his ****s to it, I would be more than happy..... Sorry Eman you have to go through it.

[GeneAllen]

I was wondering if I should tell you about Emg, but it would not give you any benefits, The pain is horrible, I was crying with the screaming like crazy woman, having two kids , natural way, no epidural, it was nothing to compare to f****electrical current in your body. If I could get the doc who send me to this, and connect his ****s to it, I would be more than happy..... Sorry Eman you have to go through it.

Hmmm E-Man sounds like somebody forgot to tell you sumfin. lol Glad to see ya dude and sorry you're havin to deal wif dis stuff. Piece :D

[Dahila]

Hmmm E-Man sounds like somebody forgot to tell you sumfin. lol Glad to see ya dude and sorry you're havin to deal wif dis stuff. Piece :D

I considered to tell him, but decide, to keep quiete. Saved some stress:)

[Th13thOne]

Get better, E-Man!!

I have an EMG in my near future. Thanks for bringing up my confidence haha.

Hope to see you on here more soon.

[jjh333]

I've definitely been missing your wisdom on a lot of the threads! I'm sorry about the EMG, that sounds awful

[jessed03]

^ You're like a magic 8 ball with your comments

[jessed03]

Anyway, keep hustling big bruh!!

[Dahila]

Get better, E-Man!!

I have an EMG in my near future. Thanks for bringing up my confidence haha.

Hope to see you on here more soon.
Emg is a torture usually they use it when there is insurance claim. Wicb loves that......everything to discaurage people....
I asked they told me that it will cause SLICHG DISCOMFORT !!!!

[NixonRulz]

I was electrocuted back in my early 20's and was thrown 10 feet

This sounds worse

Yet E-Man seems like he has a higher pain tolerance than I .

[Enduronman]

I'm still here.
Tryin this Lyrica crap again to see if it'll help with this intense backache that had kept me up all night, many times.
Hoping to get back "into" the forums threads and offer some assistance soon.
I see the Doc again on the 6th for another shot, then another refill, then again on the 10th to figure out wtf to do with this spine that needs replaced..LOL!
Words of wisdom: There's no f**kin reason for anyone to squat 550 pounds....jus sayin.
I want my back, back...lmao!!

I'm just hanging on in the background and will read through some of the newer thread.

Be well friends!!

E-Man...:)

[Enduronman]

(sigh)....
I'm reeeaaallllyyy trying to get back into this Frankie!!!
I've got a new back brace so that's helping abit.
I see Blessed is back, but she is being a whiner!! So proud of her.
Hmmm...the lyrica? IDK..if it did anything honestly. I will try it again tonight. Still hard to sleep with 6 herniated discs.
I go back to the Doc on Monday and I'm going to ask about using a prescription patch on the lower back rather then more shots. Needles everywhere!!!
You seem to be doing pretty well too, that's good to see from here!!.
I like happy success stories and people that make that effort to change things that seem to keep them pinned down,..your post aren't repetative for sure.
You're still gaining ground Frankie!!!...

E-Man...:)

[jessed03]

Me and Frankie put our air mail hugs in the same box. It saves on postage. Well, I put some handshakes in there...

Oh alright, I'll fill it with hugs too. ;) much love to ya bruh in this difficult time.

Trying to send this penny, but can't find my bank card. Will have a real root around for it tomorrow!

Take all the time you need to get back into the swing of things. You've given a lot of time to others, take some for yourself.

Will get this penny business sorted, and then await the next mission!!!

[Dahila]

pheee I just move my hand think about my favorite Indiana man and the hugs go straight to him.
Eman I posted nice post but I got error.....:( I am not at home this why....the comps are screwed up here...

Do u have decent mattress?

[Enduronman]

Something good?
Got a call from my oldest daughter..AN EMERGENCY of course. Come get "us".
They don't have a car..not real sure why.
I go get them, it was an EMERGENCY because her bf is gettin a new tattoo and they got ran out of the place that they were because her bf's X apparently visits there too.
Well, she showed up and all hell broke loose. She ran them out.
So, I picked up my daughter, her bf, and a tat artists to come over HERE to finish off this tattoo....This was the EMERGENCY.
These f**kin daughters are drama...always have been, always will be.
Are all girls drama???...Is that a rhetorical question that I should already know the answer too? LMAO!!

(sigh)....

I hate answering the phone..for these reasons.

YAY!!!

E-Man...:)

[Enduronman]

Wait, we lost Amber and Jesse????

[Dahila]

no way
..............

[Enduronman]

I think it gets better...
So, my oldest daughter was here till after midnight, upstairs, while her bf got a new tattoo.
It makes no sense. It's like some other dimension of existence that I don't understand or comprehend other than I think drugs are involved.
They have NO car. She nor her bf have NO jobs. They live with his mother, and he has NO key.
They just walked back in the front door. at 445am, here...They had been shopping at Walmart since my youngest daughter picked them up after midnight.
She has since not returned to the house herself. She's on house arrests and I'm supposed to report her to police. I'm not going to do it quite like that.
She also isn't eating, losing alot of weight quickly, and I think she herself may be using drugs..which is why I'm going to address her issue abit differently..
She's also up all night too..another sign of drug use. A certain type of drug (crystal meth) that she constantly states she is NOT using. Bullshit...
I'm up, because I have to meet with an attorney and Judge to discuss this house today at 9 am. A foreclosure, because of my disability..lack of ability to earn an income.
Am I worried about that? No..I can make certain things happen and keeping this house is the easiest part of this mess..
I just wish sometimes that these daughters would disappear. I'm just being honest. They will continually present me with some really difficult challenges.
I'm not only planning how to deal with this house, I'm also planning on how to deal with a drug addict 17 yr old..I MUST ACT NOW. Before she becomes an adult....
In March...22nd. Thinking I may have to force her into an Inpatient Intensive Drug Rehab where she's locked in...not a pleasant thought.
Am I worried about this? No, but I must figure out the way to save her life. Before it ends to quickly....I didn't bring her into this world to watch her die.

I'll find something good about today, just not yet..

E-Man..

[blondieqtpie]

Enduronman... If you feel your daughter is a drug addict it's best to act now before she turns 18. Right now you have parental right and after 18, you won't. Don't be to get into a long story but the sooner the better that she gets help for that.
Here is some info maybe to help:
Crystal meth signs and symptoms are often related to the drug’s impact on the body as a function of its stimulant nature. A single sign may not determine an addiction, but several signs seen over a short period of time can mean an addiction. Signs include:

Dilated pupils
Weight loss
Eye twitching
Loss of appetite
Repetitious behavior
Hyperactivity
People with an addiction to methamphetamine can also stay up for days at a time followed by an extreme crash, where they sleep for long periods. They can also go into a manic phase, where they have compulsive and obsessive needs for cleaning.

Those addicted to crystal meth for an extended period may show signs of extreme weight loss, seizures, rotted teeth and sores on the mouth and face. If you would like more information about crystal meth symptoms, call 1-800-943-0566. It’s never too late to find proper treatment. Don’t let this chance slip away.

I hope truly your daughter gets help. Most drug users and addicts will deny they use or have a problem and will not want treatment or help.
So if she's using it may be a bit of a battle and you believe her boyfriend uses too? Well, him being in her life doesn't help.
Best wishes on getting your daughter help. My husband and I had to go through what sojdbd similar with my step daughter.. His first born ( we have two children together ). Her bf and her were I into drugs and off and on together. It was a very unhealthy relationship. While she was using again she got pregnant. She decided to keep her baby and we let her detox at our home, and made it clear no drugs in the house and no HIM ( the bf). She has been clean since and is in college and an awesome young mom... And works too. In so proud of her. The father of her child is only in her life as her sons dad. She says he's a good dad but a sucky bf. I think FINALLY she sees she's too good for him. None of her friends or or family have ever liked him. He's a low life scum bag.

Anyways sorry for talking about me... I didn't mean to take your situation away from the convo.. Just want you to know I can relate to what you are Saying about your daughter.

You are her dad so don't give upon her

[Enduronman]

I really appreciate your advice, suggestions, and your story too. Yes, I am going to act..today. She has all those symptoms, and my oldest daughter seems to have many of them too. She's 22 however, different deal there..

Thank you so much!!..

E-Man...:)

[Enduronman]

Well alrighty then!
I was just told by the courts, that my 9am meeting has been vacated and they're sending out a new ORDER to do some more damn paperwork.
This paperwork was something that I ALREADY DID in October of last year, and then was told to go f myself.
I have to do this AGAIN, AND PROVIDE A COPY OF IT TO THE COURT, THE MORTGAGE COMPANY, AND THE ATTORNEY,.before I can even go speak to them!!!! Hilarious.
I was also just TOLD by my oldest daughter whom of which is still AWAKE now for 24hours...that she got the meth FROM her younger sister..
It's starting to look like a f**ked up day!! YAY!!!!....(sigh)...:rolleyes:

Here's the next f**ked up part. I have a pocket full of methamphetamine that I take everyday to keep me calm and make me sleepy!!! Prescription!!! Ritalin...

It's just not homemade nasty shit...or a rock.

Ima need counclin...

LMAO!! E-Man...:)

[SSMommy]

E-man,

Man - you have a LOT going on. Meth is nasty nasty stuff. I've seen many many friends screw their lives up and then some have gotten back on track. Needless to say.... It sounds like you have some really stressful stuff going on. Do your daughters realize what meth does to you? Maybe you can show them some before and after pictures.

Hell... Google Pekin, IL and you should be able to find lots of nasty stuff there. (My hometown). Maybe if they realize what this stuff does long term it'll help?

[Dahila]

Awful situation, Eman I do not have advice any sound advice, you know what to do, Usually we can not do much. Keep it together man. Thinking of you

[Enduronman]

Well,.my youngest was just discharged from her therapists and will now be ordered to attend an outpatient intensive drug program at the Juvenile Detention Center....YAY!!! Yes, that is a real YAY!!!
She was f**kin with the therapist today, aggressive, arrogant, and he finally said you need more then what I can offer you...HELL YES!!!
Lion Cub just burned her own bridge, he had a giant fish tank and leather chairs...it was plush.
NOW< she goes out there...different world, that she NEEDS!!!
BAHAAAHAHA!!!

I FOUND SOMETHING GOOD, THAT I WASN'T EVEN LOOKING FOR!!!...

Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts.

I feel great now! She won't be able to pull over a fast one at the juvenile detention center....BAHAAAHA!!!


E-Man...:)

[Enduronman]

YIPPEE!!!!!

You're extremely anxious,...because you can finally see the "light" at the end of those tunnels Frankie..You WANT to make things happen at a much faster rate, but remember,..slow and steady will always get you to that same point B that you're striving for rather than running a sprint and forgetting everything that you learned or saw along the way...
I hope you win the contest and best wishes and luck coming your way too!!! I wanna see you on morning tv!!! A Star!!!! YAY!!!!

Yes,...I have gone from dooommm and glooommm to this is what actually needed to happen. I just didnt kow it yet.

E-Man..:)

[Dahila]

I am so proud of Frankie, She is fighting and winning:)) Keep it this way. My best friend son did not leave the house for 5 years and she is on end with it. She can not help him. He refused the help...

[Cullingford]

Well done Frankie :) I know you find it hard to walk there but it sounds like a really nice place, I would like to see a photo! I bet the scenery is lovery there.
Frankie on the telly that would be brilliant my fingers are crossed.

[Enduronman]

um..ok...
So, uhhhhhh....something good.
My Mother called today, some days that's good, some days OMG!!!....She drinks alot,..after 3pm.
I answered the phone, immediately looked at the clock, 427pm, thought holy shit here we go,...she hadn't been drinking.
She said that there's a house across the street from her for sale, should she buy it so I could live there????
WTF???....I looked at the phone, pinched myself, then checked the stock market to see where it was...over 15,000 if anyone understands what that means.
I do know what those numbers mean, to her..she has multiple investments but not to get into great detail, she has money.....
The house would be perfect for me, 3bd, 2 bath, deck, yard, fence, and a giant dog house for my new 200 pound dog,..Dureaux (Duro)....
She was being serious...I still wonder if this is the twilight zone?
I am thinking about what to do, but in all reality, I don't have to do anything because to her it is just "an investment" that will appreciate..
Whether I decide to live in it or not..hmmmmm...
Lots to think about now, but great if I get kicked out of here!! (foreclosure)...because of disability...

Yay?

E-Man...:)

[Ponder]

double post srry

[Ponder]

If there is reason to hope --- then this it it!

Looking forward to the development of such on offer. WOW!!!!!

But you know how I feel ---- if it happens it happens --- you know what I mean. ;)

Cliff hanger to be sure :)

Wishing you the very best all the same --- I'm in suspense dude .....

[Enduronman]

Me too!!!...:D

[Blessed]

Eman tell me about your dog. I have a big saint barnyard dog named Big Lolo. She's helped me they many an anxious days :)

[Enduronman]

French Mastiff,..male. He arrives in 2 weeks. 6 weeks old, 27 pounds...can grow up to 200 pounds. Never had a giant behemoth dog before only 40 pounders... My Doc said it would be good for me and make me get out and walk him for exercise....:)

[Blessed]

Oh I just love big dogs!! Big lolo is my third child and thinks she's human! One day I want a Great Dane too.

[GeneAllen]

Sure hope this works out for you E Man. Sounds very probable. My Best Peace Bro

[trinidiva]

um..ok...
So, uhhhhhh....something good.
My Mother called today, some days that's good, some days OMG!!!....She drinks alot,..after 3pm.
I answered the phone, immediately looked at the clock, 427pm, thought holy shit here we go,...she hadn't been drinking.
She said that there's a house across the street from her for sale, should she buy it so I could live there????
WTF???....I looked at the phone, pinched myself, then checked the stock market to see where it was...over 15,000 if anyone understands what that means.
I do know what those numbers mean, to her..she has multiple investments but not to get into great detail, she has money.....
The house would be perfect for me, 3bd, 2 bath, deck, yard, fence, and a giant dog house for my new 200 pound dog,..Dureaux (Duro)....
She was being serious...I still wonder if this is the twilight zone?
I am thinking about what to do, but in all reality, I don't have to do anything because to her it is just "an investment" that will appreciate..
Whether I decide to live in it or not..hmmmmm...
Lots to think about now, but great if I get kicked out of here!! (foreclosure)...because of disability...

Yay?

E-Man...:)

This sounds really good!!!!! Go for it!

[Enduronman]

I am seriously thinking about this now...I dont have anything to lose in the matter...:)

[stp4779]

Sounds like a great opportunity! Do you and your mom get along?

[Enduronman]

Yeah we get along great, its my sis that she can't deal with..(and neither can anyone else for that matter).. Severe mental disorders. It does seem like an actual "good" thing, kinda rare around here..LOL!!! :)

[stp4779]

I could NEVER live across the street from my mom - she drives me bonkers.

[Enduronman]

BAHAAAAHA!!^^^^...as long as Ma stays away from the sauce, I'm ok. LOL!!! :)

[lizard0921]

Sorry to ask, but did your disease cause you your anxiety?

[Enduronman]

No friend,..the lifetime of anxiety caused the disease. My adrenal system failed, went out of control from living in constant stress of chronic levels. That's another reason why I'm here to help others overcome this before they wake up one morning and their hands wont move...:)

[lizard0921]

Oh my! That is scary :( Sometimes I feel like my left arm is going out on me when I start to panic thinking I have a heart disorder. Weird!

[Blessed]

No friend,..the lifetime of anxiety caused the disease. My adrenal system failed, went out of control from living in constant stress of chronic levels. That's another reason why I'm here to help others overcome this before they wake up one morning and their hands wont move...:) E... How long did you suffer from anxiety before it took such a drastic turn for the worse? I feel like sometimes this anxiety has me so bound that I don't know how not to stress and worry then I worry that I'm worrying so on and so forth. Then it scares me that maybe im too far gone. Some wicked stuff

[lizard0921]

E... How long did you suffer from anxiety before it took such a drastic turn for the worse? I feel like sometimes this anxiety has me so bound that I don't know how not to stress and worry then I worry that I'm worrying so on and so forth. Then it scares me that maybe im too far gone. Some wicked stuff

Did you think for a second that it can happen to you? It's stuff like this I wished I didn't read, or asked because then I suffer the consequences. We need to not think about it because it will trigger a panic attack and this will be in back of our minds. Let it goooooo :) That's what I intend on doing since I'm such a worried person as it is.

[Enduronman]

E... How long did you suffer from anxiety before it took such a drastic turn for the worse? I feel like sometimes this anxiety has me so bound that I don't know how not to stress and worry then I worry that I'm worrying so on and so forth. Then it scares me that maybe im too far gone. Some wicked stuff

I was born with many personality disorders that haunted me into adulthood.
Then, we had our firstborn child, as shit got real....stress, worry, anxiety..That was 22 years ago.
I thought that living a life in chronic stress was normal, do this, do that, go here, go there, pay the man...
Mostly, I was living my life sub-conciously but getting things done, feeding the entire family of myself and 4 others, and just living..
Then after about 7 really tough years, BOOM! All that just added up to an adrenal system crisis and failure and my body attacked itself, destroying tissue internally.
I had NOOOO idea that all this, would equal this....(auto-immune diseases and mixed connective tissue diseases) from ignoring the effects on my physical body.
I was NOT (neurotic or suffering from neuroticism) as many of you are but I ignored what my body was telling me with a pain here, a pain there..I never got help.
People who constantly worry, fret, concern, that the pains that they have are diseases = NEUROTIC at much higher levels then those of us that just have "anxiety".
Although people with "anxiety" still fall into this NEUROTIC catagory...difficult to understand I know. Neuroticism is even different too..

GET THIS SHIT UNDER YOUR OWN CONTROL, AND IF IT TAKES AN SSRI OR AN ANTI-PSYCHOTIC MED TO DO THAT, THEN TAKE THEM....

Thinking of you all,

E-Man...:)

[Enduronman]

PLEASE READ.

NEUROSIS = http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neurosis

NEUROTICISM = http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neuroticism

HYPOCHONDRIASIS = http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypochondria

and if those are left unchecked, can equal PSYCHOSIS = http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychosis

Once you're psychotic, then it becomes even that much more difficult to help pull you back out of this mess.....HOSPITAL is next....


Have a great day, and if it isn't great, make it great!!!!

E-Man...:)

[lizard0921]

I was born with many personality disorders that haunted me into adulthood.
Then, we had our firstborn child, as shit got real....stress, worry, anxiety..That was 22 years ago.
I thought that living a life in chronic stress was normal, do this, do that, go here, go there, pay the man...
Mostly, I was living my life sub-conciously but getting things done, feeding the entire family of myself and 4 others, and just living..
Then after about 7 really tough years, BOOM! All that just added up to an adrenal system crisis and failure and my body attacked itself, destroying tissue internally.
I had NOOOO idea that all this, would equal this....(auto-immune diseases and mixed connective tissue diseases) from ignoring the effects on my physical body.
I was NOT (neurotic or suffering from neuroticism) as many of you are but I ignored what my body was telling me with a pain here, a pain there..I never got help.
People who constantly worry, fret, concern, that the pains that they have are diseases = NEUROTIC at much higher levels then those of us that just have "anxiety".
Although people with "anxiety" still fall into this NEUROTIC catagory...difficult to understand I know. Neuroticism is even different too..

GET THIS SHIT UNDER YOUR OWN CONTROL, AND IF IT TAKES AN SSRI OR AN ANTI-PSYCHOTIC MED TO DO THAT, THEN TAKE THEM....

Thinking of you all,

E-Man...:)

Thank you for sharing this with us! I'm sorry to hear this, but you seem like a strong minded person with a great attitude :) That's impressing! God bless you, E-man!

The only help I've gotten is meds. I think I should talk to a therapist or psychiatrist. Which do you recommend?

[Enduronman]

Always start small,..then THEY will make referrals from that point forward once they see (if they do) that you need someone with more education, experience, background, degrees,...Start at your nearest Mental Health Clinic and UNLOAD all these thoughts that you have, to the first person you meet with.

Then, you'll get your life back where you want it to be..:)

E-Man...

[lizard0921]

Always start small,..then THEY will make referrals from that point forward once they see (if they do) that you need someone with more education, experience, background, degrees,...Start at your nearest Mental Health Clinic and UNLOAD all these thoughts that you have, to the first person you meet with.

Then, you'll get your life back where you want it to be..:)

E-Man...

Will do! I will look into it right now. Thank you once again!

[Dahila]

I do not like to scare anyone, but most of folks here are very young, in young age you can bit the anxiety, with the time passing it is worse, more difficult. later one it could be almost impossible to win with it. I know it from expierence.
If I was you, I would do something, use the excellent advices in most of the treads.
Do something, everyone has the same symptoms, and we know it all. We need to hear some success stories, and about progress...
I prefer topics " Today is a good day" " Story of my success" ; it helps with my anxiety issues. Not the topics which appear every day
HPalps
is it panic attack
Panic attack
Attack of panic
Is that me or anyone else and bla bla and bla
We need something good here, some happiness and smile
Nixon does good job in this departement, Jessed did before Applecherry chased him out of the site, Eman did with him and Mist, who dissappeared one day....

[Enduronman]

My new meds are turning me into a zombie.
It's called Lyrica. They just upped my dose from 50 to 300mg a day.
I now see things differently. These posts, the things in my house, I feel kinda drunk to bo honest with you.
Spacey, weird, loopy, goofy, and if this is how this shit is going to be then I'd rather just have pain...derrrr...
I just feel reeaallllyyy different than my usual self.
Hope I haven't pissed anyone off today, and I feel kind of flat too, persay...
The last posts I read I thought to myself, so, wtf are you going to do about it?...Which isn't the best way to go about dealing with things, so abruptly.
The world doesn't work like that, or at least in my mind I think it should...I've always been a "fixer"...
Now I look around this house and think, wtf is all this stuff??!!!! I need boxes to put it all away!!! Like now!!!
Who in the hell needs 100 bottles of supplements on a counter top????!!!! When I only use like 15 of them...
Ok,..yes, It's like I've never seen this shit before but its been sitting there for months....computers everywhere, parts, hard drives, etc, etc,..why???!!!!

Oh boy,..not sure if I should be posting right now maybe just read through some things and try to figure out where I actually am...

yippee.

E-Man....:rolleyes:

[Dahila]

Liryca is so strong....My friend was on it, she was a half zombie;)))
One day I brought her a homemade all purpose cleaner, she cleaned all the walls in house :))

[Enduronman]

I sure as hell hope that this "high" feeling goes away I feel like everytime I look around or at something I'm surprised!..LOL!
What do you know about (Butrans) or Buprenorphine? I have to pick those up tomorrow. Some sort of patch that you leave on for 7 days..semi synthetic opiate.

Interesting on paper, but will they work??? Says it causes euphoria (I need more of that) and its also anti-anxiety too...hmmm, maybe I need more of that..geeze.

Med number 11...LMAO!...YEE HAW!!!

Can't wait, already feel like I drank a 12 pack without the bloat.

E-Bert. Man :)

[stp4779]

Why did they increase the amount so drastically? 50 to... 300?? Yowzers!

[Enduronman]

I'm stoned!!
50 wasn't doing anything and the max dose os 450...so she thought, lets hit it midway and see if that knocks the pain down...
Well, yes it does but its also knocking me down too...wooobbblleeeyyyyy....whoot whhoot....LMAO!!

E. :)

[stp4779]

HAHA! Weeeeeeeee!!

[Enduronman]

weeeeeeeeee!!! whoo whhhoooootttt!!! this shizzzzzz isss crazyyyy....
Why do you take Lyrica????? Frankle????

E-Man...:)

[em1]

weeeeeeeeee!!! whoo whhhoooootttt!!! this shizzzzzz isss crazyyyy.... Why do you take Lyrica????? Frankle???? E-Man...:)

What are you buzzing on EMan lol

[Enduronman]

This (Lyrica) stuff..it's for neuropathic pain and its a scheduled controlled substance over here (They wanted to see my ID)...I now see why!!! bbbbzzzzzzzzzzz whoo hooooooo!!!!.....
I hope it goes away with time (as Frankie says) because its like I've been drinking and smoking some left handed cigarettes...that stanky!.. LOL!!!

E-man... :P

[em1]

This (Lyrica) stuff..it's for neuropathic pain and its a scheduled controlled substance over here (They wanted to see my ID)...I now see why!!! bbbbzzzzzzzzzzz whoo hooooooo!!!!..... I hope it goes away with time (as Frankie says) because its like I've been drinking and smoking some left handed cigarettes...that stanky!.. LOL!!! E-man... :P

OMG lol I've never been
On that,I hope it's helping you

[Enduronman]

Yes Emma it stops the neuro pain, but,..um uhhhh.....it does other things too. Spacey, cotton headed ninny muggin, and high without the dizziness. I hope this part passes because I have places to go and people to see!! OMG!!
It's kinda like "where am I" or "what just happened" in a funny yet creepy sort of way... :)
I think........toot toot! LMAO!!!

E.

[em1]

Yes Emma it stops the neuro pain, but,..um uhhhh.....it does other things too. Spacey, cotton headed ninny muggin, and high without the dizziness. I hope this part passes because I have places to go and people to see!! OMG!! It's kinda like "where am I" or "what just happened" in a funny yet creepy sort of way... :) I think........toot toot! LMAO!!! E.

How long will these symptoms last you know?
I am laughing my ass off
Here tho I know I should not be lol

[Enduronman]

BHAAHAA!! I can see Emma laughing!!! At ME!!! derrrrrrr!!! (I want you to laugh because daaayyyyuuuuummm sssaaawwweeettttt!!!).....
@Frankie...Lyrica+Ritalin+Meloxicam+Prednisone+Abi lify+Testosterone+HCG+Prilosec+Atenolol+Compound 6 topical (Ketamine, Baclofen, Cyclobenzaprine, Voltaren, Gabapentin, TetraCAINE)+Xanax XR========== HOLY SHIT!!! I swear that if I jumped off of my roof I could hang glide with my T shirt.....I wannnnaaa doo ittt!!!..:)

ANNNNNDDDDDDDDDD today, I pick up something called (Butrans) which is a patch that I can put on my spine for pain and it has effects of EUPHORIA AND ANTI-ANXIETY.... It's an OPIATE...OMGGGAWDDD. WOW MAN...



http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Buprenorphine



help. E. yay...:rolleyes:

[em1]

No EMan you can't fly lol

[Enduronman]

I swear I'm hovering over this chair right now Emma!! and I have a Special Force Field around me to protect me from any DANGER!!!....weeee!!!!
I bet the Pharmacists is going to be wondering about me when I go get this other NEW MED....
It's even complete with uncontrolled slobbering...wait, that isn't a friggin side effect on this sheet!!!


:)

[Dahila]

Eman you are stoned, completely stoned, now you know why it is controlled substance.
I remember years ago, my mom still was alive, I got some problems with my neck muscle and I got muscle relaxer, I do not remember what it was, but I spend whole night writing letters to my mom in form of poem. It was like 6 pages.....:)

[em1]

I swear I'm hovering over this chair right now Emma!! and I have a Special Force Field around me to protect me from any DANGER!!!....weeee!!!! I bet the Pharmacists is going to be wondering about me when I go get this other NEW MED.... It's even complete with uncontrolled slobbering...wait, that isn't a friggin side effect on this sheet!!! :)

Hahaha omg

[lizard0921]

That is true! I get happy when I read success stories myself because then I feel there's still hope. I'm 24 years old. I've been suffering from anxiety for 2 years now. I sometimes think like, "Heck no! I don't wanna feel like this another 5 years!" Then there's times, I learn to accept my anxiety and know there is help out there that will help me control it. For example, my meds :)

Wanted to share with you all that yesterday after feeling not so well. My husband got off of work early. We went to look into a new 1 story apartment rather than 2 (that I dislike!!) then we went to watch the Lego movie with our son and finally did some Valentine Day's shopping. I had no pain in my neck (which I always do) and no tension headaches. I felt like running up & down. I usually just want to get home ASAP, but I told my husband, "I feel good babe. I don't wanna go home just yet." and he was happy about that :) I even had a good night sleep.

[em1]

That is true! I get happy when I read success stories myself because then I feel there's still hope. I'm 24 years old. I've been suffering from anxiety for 2 years now. I sometimes think like, "Heck no! I don't wanna feel like this another 5 years!" Then there's times, I learn to accept my anxiety and know there is help out there that will help me control it. For example, my meds :) Wanted to share with you all that yesterday after feeling not so well. My husband got off of work early. We went to look into a new 1 story apartment rather than 2 (that I dislike!!) then we went to watch the Lego movie with our son and finally did some Valentine Day's shopping. I had no pain in my neck (which I always do) and no tension headaches. I felt like running up & down. I usually just want to get home ASAP, but I told my husband, "I feel good babe. I don't wanna go home just yet." and he was happy about that :) I even had a good night sleep.

That's amazing :) yay here's
To another good day woop

[Enduronman]

That is true! I get happy when I read success stories myself because then I feel there's still hope. I'm 24 years old. I've been suffering from anxiety for 2 years now. I sometimes think like, "Heck no! I don't wanna feel like this another 5 years!" Then there's times, I learn to accept my anxiety and know there is help out there that will help me control it. For example, my meds :)

Wanted to share with you all that yesterday after feeling not so well. My husband got off of work early. We went to look into a new 1 story apartment rather than 2 (that I dislike!!) then we went to watch the Lego movie with our son and finally did some Valentine Day's shopping. I had no pain in my neck (which I always do) and no tension headaches. I felt like running up & down. I usually just want to get home ASAP, but I told my husband, "I feel good babe. I don't wanna go home just yet." and he was happy about that :) I even had a good night sleep.

WHOOOO HOOOO!!!!
SOOOOO happy for you!!!!
I love success stories....

E-Man..:D

[lizard0921]

Thank you Em & E-Man&hearts; So kind of you both! Blessings sent your way :)

[Enduronman]

YAY!!!^^^^^...I'm glad you're feeling good too Frankie! :)

[Enduronman]

Well then, this is STILL GREAT NEWS!!! YAY!!!! :D

[Enduronman]

Oh gawd..what happened now?? I missed it!!! LOL!!!
That Lyrica and I do NOT get along well Frankie..I literally feel like I could fall over, lay down on the floor, BUT it makes me want to "do things" like organize shit
but I can't even friggin stand up without wanting to fall over!!!....WHHEEEEE!!!
I'm not reeaaallll enthused about continuing this med but the Pharmacists said give a "few days"....
I didnt get a damn thing done today that I wanted too!!!
And I only took 150mgs!!!......grrrrr....:(

E-Man...

[stp4779]

Want to come over to my place and organize some shit?

[Boinkers]

Hiya Emn. Boinkers here, Memba me? :)

You gav me one of tha warmest welcomes. Helpd make my Xmas! Bless you!

[Enduronman]

Yes I rememba you!!

So glad that your Xmas turned around and you made it through!!!

Great to have you back too...

E-man....:D

[lizard0921]

I feel good babe! That is always a welcome feeling and post. :) lizard.

I'm glad you're feeling good, Frankie! "Happy thoughts!" :D

[lizard0921]

Lol @ troll...

E-man is thee man! He always knows the right things to say. Tells it like it is. ;)

[Enduronman]

Lol @ troll...

E-man is thee man! He always knows the right things to say. Tells it like it is. ;)

BAHAAHA!! Thank you Lizard.. :D

[Enduronman]

Hey Frankie!!

Yeah I'm doing ok, getting ready to start taking some meds of course..
I don't think I'll be taking that Lyrica during the days however, it makes me wanna fall over still...only at night from now on.
I hope your med reviews go well, and mayyybbbeeee you'll get the Abilify if they don't.. :)

E-Man..

[Dahila]

Frankie good luck with the review:))

[Enduronman]

Hi.

Thanks people x

I'm just back and my meds were changed today.

Continue with 100mg sertraline and 150mg lyrica

Trazadone doubled to 100mg

Abilify started at low dose 10mg.

Review in 30 days again.

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Now for the good news this thread asks for.

Rory had his appointment today for results on his echo and good news. Paediatrician said his murmur continues to be fine. He was told he can play football, hurling, and chase girls lol. Poor thing was mortified.
More Rory good news...... Just got a phone call from CAMHS about seeing Rory to help him around the mental health problems! Brilliant. Hopefully now things can get on the right path.


SUCCESS!!! YAY!!!!!

You'll forget that you ever had anxiety, agoraphobia, and every other condition on that Abilify Frankie,...I have hope!!!

E-Man..:)

[Enduronman]

PS: Little whiny doggie is here too...He's napping now. THANK GOD!!!! Yippee!!!! :)

I will get some pics shortly...

E-Man...:D

[em1]

PS: Little whiny doggie is here too...He's napping now. THANK GOD!!!! Yippee!!!! :) I will get some pics shortly... E-Man...:D

Aww what dog
Did you get ?

[Enduronman]

I got a French Mastiff..he's still really tiny! ...and whiny, and snores...LOL! :)

[em1]

I got a French Mastiff..he's still really tiny! ...and whiny, and snores...LOL! :)

Oh he's going to be a big doggie lol
I have a American akita she's not Even two yet

[Enduronman]

Yes, big doggie!!!
His mother was 105 pounds, dad was 155 pounds and he's a little chunk already...LMAO!!!

Like I needed a dog after 36 years!!!


E-Man....:rolleyes:

[em1]

Yes, big doggie!!! His mother was 105 pounds, dad was 155 pounds and he's a little chunk already...LMAO!!! Like I needed a dog after 36 years!!! E-Man....:rolleyes:

Aww so cute tho lol
He can go in your anxiety hunting team van lol

[Dahila]

yes Eman you need a dog, he is going to grow fast, just keep his bowl full of food and water. All dogs that have link to Romans war dogs are snorers , big time:)))

[Enduronman]

He has to lay by my feet touching my boot!! Hilarious!! He's been wandering around here whining for his bros and sissys but can't find them..LMAO! He's right HERE now...geeze it is like having a newborn!!....BAAAAHA!!!

[Enduronman]

Whiny friggin puppy...LOL! Introducing Dureaux (Duro)....1035

He's chewing on the wooden table leg now. Yay...

E-Man...:)

[AliasEQ]

OMG SOO CUTEEE!! <3 Dureaux -Cool name tho :O

[Fourteen14]

Whiny friggin puppy...LOL! Introducing Dureaux (Duro)....<img src="http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1035"/> He's chewing on the wooden table leg now. Yay... E-Man...:)

Seriously cute pooch!

[Terre Nova]

Whiny friggin puppy...LOL! Introducing Dureaux (Duro)....<img src="http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1035"/>

He's chewing on the wooden table leg now. Yay...

E-Man...:)

I wanna see!! Show me the puppyyyyyyyy!' Pls

[Enduronman]

I put his pic up on Facebook too so maybe you could see him there easier, sometimes this site won't permit phone browsers to view attachments...YAY!! ruff ruff whine..

LOL!!! :)

[NeverToo...Fear]

Whiny friggin puppy...LOL! Introducing Dureaux (Duro)....1035

He's chewing on the wooden table leg now. Yay...

E-Man...:)

Haha, I like that stare he has going on..he's such an adorable looking puppy :)

[Terre Nova]

I put his pic up on Facebook too so maybe you could see him there easier, sometimes this site won't permit phone browsers to view attachments...YAY!! ruff ruff whine..

LOL!!! :)

Ill go look Eman!

[Enduronman]

He growled at my daughter for pointing the phone at him...I hope that's not a bad thing!!! LOL!!! :)

[Boinkers]

EmaN ur puppy is to cute :) bless

Wait until his jumpin on you in the morning, wanting to play ha ha

[Terre Nova]

He growled at my daughter for pointing the phone at him...I hope that's not a bad thing!!! LOL!!! :)

Do you know of Caeser Milan? Dog whisperer?
Really great and knowledgable!!
Also i would recommend puppy classes asap to get him on track early!
I too have a mastiff 110lbs and she has dominance issues not aggression just bad manners..
Ive always found my PitBulls were better behaved than my mastiffs lol early training intervention is a must :)
I miss having puppies! You're sooo lucky :)))

[Dahila]

the puppy is awesome, I am in loveeeeeeeee . Eman , I had a career of training dogs and judging them on dog shows (In Europe) and I strongly advice you to train him well. they are excellent dogs but the will try to dominate you, and you have to be very smart not to break them...he is a cutie

click on the pic to display the big one:)

[jessed03]

the puppy is awesome, I am in loveeeeeeeee . Eman , I had a career of training dogs and judging them on dog shows (In Europe) and I strongly advice you to train him well. they are excellent dogs but the will try to dominate you, and you have to be very smart not to break them...he is a cutie

click on the pic to display the big one:)

Just like having a wife then ;)

[AliasEQ]

Just like having a wife then ;)

hahahhaha lmao!

[Enduronman]

hahahhaha lmao!

Yes,...already gotta friggin sit on my lap and help me type too!!! This is bullshit!!! LOL!!! :)
I know, I know,...he's just a baby....bla bla....Yippee!!!

[Dahila]

oh my 100 pound late dog never got that she is not lap dog:))) in her 12 years she was always trying to go on my lap:)

[Enduronman]

LMAO!!! I bundled him up and moved him to a clothes basket...seems easier to type now!...:)

[Dahila]

you not suppose to sleep with the dog,but the first night and second sometimes I make an exception, so I have a control over his peeing in house, because puppy will move and wake me up, they need to move around to go pee.... and they miss the brothers, and mom....In two days puppy will bond with you and then you move him beside your bed in doggie bed, and you still will have control over his bladder. My puppies usually have one or two accidents before they learn to ask for a walk:)

[Terre Nova]

oh my 100 pound late dog never got that she is not lap dog:))) in her 12 years she was always trying to go on my lap:)

Mine too! Can't get her off my lap! My kids use her as a pillow and they snuggle all the time take naps together and both dogs sleep on their or my bed.. So we've probably given her mixed msgs lol

[Dahila]

Dogs are the best creatures in the world, they give us unconditional love and acceptance. I was controlling my anxiety with occasional ativan or clonazepam, maybe once a week when I was stressed out. When I have to put down my girl (she passed in my arms, and in my house) this was a trigger, it was 7 years ago and from this time on, I am dealing with awfull anxiety. I need the dog, but I worry that something happens to me and my dog will go to some cruel strangers.
Having dog beside or on my lap calmed me down, always, my bp was ok, and is not for the last 7 years, I need to be on beta blockers.
We have no idea how much dogs improve our health till the time we do not have any......

[Enduronman]

HI DAHL, TERRE, FRANKIIIIEEEE!!!!

I can't have a 100 pound lap dog either..oh boy!
Yes, beta blockers are da bomb!
I read your post about the Abilify...SHIT!!!!

I'm doing ok today but need to get to the store,..snowing again too. bla bla.....

E-Man...:)

[Dorrie23]

Hey there. Adorable. I bet you spoil him rotten. If you love him like you do everyone on here, he's going to be one happy puppy. I hope you have fun with him. And... I hope you are doing ok. I'm feeling better today than I have in ages. Take care, big bro. and have a great day with pup. D.

[Dorrie23]

Hey frankie! And how's your little one doing. Talk about E-man spoiling his puppy, I bet your little one doesn't have too hard of a life either. lol. I have a half Basenji, and half German Shep. We got her from the pound, and she has been the best dog we have ever had. I wanted a so called "Guard Dog" for when I'm by myself. Holy Moly.... She barks at a fly. She's the most alert attentive dog imaginable. She wouldn't ever let anything happen to me, if she could help it. lol. I kind of spoil her too. She was neglected, not abused. Heck..same thing. She's like a different dog now. Happy. That makes me happy!! She gets more than her share of love, and deserves it. I hope you're doing well. dorrie

[Dorrie23]

Hey...long time no talk. LOL. LOL. I thought you might be missing me Dee Dee. :) I'm going to send you a pic of my dog. And the new kitten as well too. You will love them. I'm sure we'll talk soon, so I'll send them now. Love Dorrie..aka your Abby girl.

[Dorrie23]

Hey Terre!! That's too funny, and familiar too. lol. I was so worried at first when we got the dog, and kitten. That my little boy would be all over them too much and they might not like it. Lets just say, I was worried for nothing. And she does the same thing to me, as far as not getting her (the dog) off my lap. Once she gets her way and gets up there, it's done. lol. Hope you're doing good girl. You look just like my stepdaughter. That would be a compliment!! :) Take care, and have yourself a great weekend. Dorrie

[Dahila]

Hey...long time no talk. LOL. LOL. I thought you might be missing me Dee Dee. :) I'm going to send you a pic of my dog. And the new kitten as well too. You will love them. I'm sure we'll talk soon, so I'll send them now. Love Dorrie..aka your Abby girl.

Do it!!!!


Have you thought about being a dog fosterer for blind dogs or something like that. They need somewhere for their first year that you can socialise them etc preparing them for their specialist training. If not them, fostering unwanted dogs while forever homes are found. Lots of organisations would benefit from your love and experience. It's not for everyone though so it was just an idea.
I have but I get so attached to animal i would not give it back. It would break my heart. The other thing is I can not say goodbye....
The only option for me is to have a small dog, I will train it well, having training a whole bunch of different dogs in my life, and small so my children will eventually take it home if anything happens....

[Dahila]

I had a Jack Russell terrier and he was driving me crazy, but they are clowns that true:)) Frankie every dog on this planet is the one I love, I do not discriminate them at all. Love them all:))

[Terre Nova]

Hey Terre!! That's too funny, and familiar too. lol. I was so worried at first when we got the dog, and kitten. That my little boy would be all over them too much and they might not like it. Lets just say, I was worried for nothing. And she does the same thing to me, as far as not getting her (the dog) off my lap. Once she gets her way and gets up there, it's done. lol. Hope you're doing good girl. You look just like my stepdaughter. That would be a compliment!! :) Take care, and have yourself a great weekend. Dorrie

Lol! Thank you for the compliment ;)
I couldn't imagine life without a dog, in fact i lasted a week when my other dog passed to get a dog.. It was eerie and too weird... I actually have 5 cats and two dogs.. Never a dull moment around here!
I hope you have a great weekend as well!!
<3

[jjh333]

holy crap eman your dog is adorable! we had to put my 14 year old cocker spaniel to sleep in september and it is still terrible/like losing a best friend. Once I graduate and am finished with student teaching I am getting a pup asap!

[Enduronman]

He is presently chewing up one of my knee pads...yay. LOL!
He is a cute little fella, whiny, but he's growing into being alone on day #2...
I swore I would never have another dog 36 years ago after mine was hit by a car but he'll be therapeutic to me and make me walk him..and a friend too.
It's usually just me sitting here in this house, most days...Now I gotta new baby to take care of!!!...Waiting to see what all gets chewed up...
Here, chew up these bills!!

E-Man..:D

[Dahila]

He is presently chewing up one of my knee pads...yay. LOL!
He is a cute little fella, whiny, but he's growing into being alone on day #2...
I swore I would never have another dog 36 years ago after mine was hit by a car but he'll be therapeutic to me and make me walk him..and a friend too.
It's usually just me sitting here in this house, most days...Now I gotta new baby to take care of!!!...Waiting to see what all gets chewed up...
Here, chew up these bills!!

E-Man..:D

Eman it is going to like 8 months of chewing, are you sure:))))?

[Enduronman]

Um...no but there's no refunds!!!...OMGEEEE!!!! LOL! :)

[Dahila]

around one year of age :))) they get 4 last molars, it is a hell, well behived dog start chewing. They chew because their tissue is swelled and hurt....freeze a wet towel and give him to chew on it, you could put some good staff like gravy on it:)))

[Enduronman]

Supposedly, I'm to feed this terd raw chickens!! Has anyone done this as I was always lead to believe otherwise but that's what many places online are saying to add into their diets when they're mature...wow!!! A real beast!!! Who is presently chewing on my tablecloth!!! AYAAAAYAYA!!! HEEEYYYYY!!!!......:)