Pamela 'Collie' Brawn
09-29-2013, 12:37 PM
Hi everyone,
You may have seen my last post on driving anxiety. I thought I had a hold of it - I was wrong
Friday I was driving to work, felt the need to pull over, pulled over and couldn't get my nerve back to carry on. Started to cry as I was so upset with myself. I phoned my husband and he said to come back home. I did, and he drove me in.
That night I had an event up at a local hall about 12 miles away. Got in the car but felt tense in a controlled way. Set up my stall etc and spoke to nearly everyone. Felt brilliant! Drove back no problems what so ever. Felt quite proud :)
On Saturday I did my usual drive to work. Sadly still tense but managed it. Felt okay
Today it all went wrong. Was with my other half driving to Perth which is about a 20 minute drive if that. Started to panic (dry mouth, racing heart, tense shoulder, tense lower chest, felt like I wasn't getting enough air in). Had to pull over and let him drive. Hated myself
Why is it that I can stand in front of people and tell them about services my business offers and not drive my car. All this because I had a panic attack behind the wheel about a week and a half ago.
I'm on a beta blocker but I think my system is used to it. I had a panic attack for such a stupid reason too - I had to open the shop at 9 and had a busy day ahead- daft!
I'm debating wether to see the Dr tomorrow. I don't want to be told I'm depressed. I'm really not. I just let things get to me. I'm on a waiting list for counselling which is about six to eight weeks away :0
I really feel like I am letting everyone down and quite upset that I can't seem to relax in my own car :(
You may have seen my last post on driving anxiety. I thought I had a hold of it - I was wrong
Friday I was driving to work, felt the need to pull over, pulled over and couldn't get my nerve back to carry on. Started to cry as I was so upset with myself. I phoned my husband and he said to come back home. I did, and he drove me in.
That night I had an event up at a local hall about 12 miles away. Got in the car but felt tense in a controlled way. Set up my stall etc and spoke to nearly everyone. Felt brilliant! Drove back no problems what so ever. Felt quite proud :)
On Saturday I did my usual drive to work. Sadly still tense but managed it. Felt okay
Today it all went wrong. Was with my other half driving to Perth which is about a 20 minute drive if that. Started to panic (dry mouth, racing heart, tense shoulder, tense lower chest, felt like I wasn't getting enough air in). Had to pull over and let him drive. Hated myself
Why is it that I can stand in front of people and tell them about services my business offers and not drive my car. All this because I had a panic attack behind the wheel about a week and a half ago.
I'm on a beta blocker but I think my system is used to it. I had a panic attack for such a stupid reason too - I had to open the shop at 9 and had a busy day ahead- daft!
I'm debating wether to see the Dr tomorrow. I don't want to be told I'm depressed. I'm really not. I just let things get to me. I'm on a waiting list for counselling which is about six to eight weeks away :0
I really feel like I am letting everyone down and quite upset that I can't seem to relax in my own car :(