Olive Yew
09-16-2013, 01:23 PM
Hello world. My name is Kaylin. I've been dealing with Anxiety for about a month and a half. It sucks. If you go to Web MD and look through the list of symptoms that's a mile long.... I've been there done that with near about all of them. I think the only one I'm missing is the vomiting portion. My anxiety has even caused me to develop IBS (NOT FUN!!!).
Before anxiety, I was easy going, happy go lucky, laid back, fun loving. I was like the sweet innocent comic relief character you see in a lot of movies. Now I feel like I'm a storm cloud, crying all the time, scared of everything, my mood is either not-unhappy, Anxious, terrified, or grumpy. It's been hard on my friends and family and I feel like such a burden (even though they assure me I'm not and have been very supportive). I just want the old me back. I LIKED who I was... Even at the time, I was never one to have low self esteem and hate on myself. I was just generally content... And then I went through the "scared of everything, i feel like i'm dying of a horrible disease stage". I debunked those. But I still have the anxiety. It's better than it was. One or two attacks every 3-4 days. They aren't nearly as bad as they were because I dont jump to the worst conclusion anymore. But I'm still struggling to get back to happy go lucky me.
I'd like to make some friends and get some advice about killing off the rest of my anxiety that I haven't heard yet. Anything new helps! I really dont want to medicate. I know it's necessary for some people but i feel like it's not for me... I'm also scared of trying medication so... Tips for managing would be terrific :)
Before anxiety, I was easy going, happy go lucky, laid back, fun loving. I was like the sweet innocent comic relief character you see in a lot of movies. Now I feel like I'm a storm cloud, crying all the time, scared of everything, my mood is either not-unhappy, Anxious, terrified, or grumpy. It's been hard on my friends and family and I feel like such a burden (even though they assure me I'm not and have been very supportive). I just want the old me back. I LIKED who I was... Even at the time, I was never one to have low self esteem and hate on myself. I was just generally content... And then I went through the "scared of everything, i feel like i'm dying of a horrible disease stage". I debunked those. But I still have the anxiety. It's better than it was. One or two attacks every 3-4 days. They aren't nearly as bad as they were because I dont jump to the worst conclusion anymore. But I'm still struggling to get back to happy go lucky me.
I'd like to make some friends and get some advice about killing off the rest of my anxiety that I haven't heard yet. Anything new helps! I really dont want to medicate. I know it's necessary for some people but i feel like it's not for me... I'm also scared of trying medication so... Tips for managing would be terrific :)