KieranA001
09-13-2013, 03:24 PM
I don't know how to explain it. When I was at school everything was, do this do that. Although I hated the people there I didn't feel like I do now. Now that I've left and am on my own I feel kinda like I cannot cope with doing everyday things that people do, I'm kinda scared. I just don't like it all.
I mean it's bad enough now having anyone their to support you, because I basically had no friends at school and now I finished college I only had two friends and they're either at uni or in a job. I want to get a job and found one I wouldn't mind doing to start off with but I always come over with a feeling that something bad is going to happen. I don't like traveling far away from my house.
Now only that, I feel that because I never really met any decent girls or friends at school, I'm never going to meet anyone else again my age because everyone in a job are older. I mean, it's computing... Very little girls do computing jobs.
It's hard to describe how I'm feeling, it's like an empty, down feeling right now. Like I'm always going to be like this and worry all the time. It's even more annoying to see people out there enjoying their lives, although that's probably selfish of me to say that. I just feel like I'm always going to be in this predicament. :(
I mean it's bad enough now having anyone their to support you, because I basically had no friends at school and now I finished college I only had two friends and they're either at uni or in a job. I want to get a job and found one I wouldn't mind doing to start off with but I always come over with a feeling that something bad is going to happen. I don't like traveling far away from my house.
Now only that, I feel that because I never really met any decent girls or friends at school, I'm never going to meet anyone else again my age because everyone in a job are older. I mean, it's computing... Very little girls do computing jobs.
It's hard to describe how I'm feeling, it's like an empty, down feeling right now. Like I'm always going to be like this and worry all the time. It's even more annoying to see people out there enjoying their lives, although that's probably selfish of me to say that. I just feel like I'm always going to be in this predicament. :(