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[Jborst13]

Hi everyone..my name is Jessica. I was formally diagnosed with depression, generalized anxiety, and A.D.D. last year. Always nice to have what you've known all along finally confirmed by a professional. It took me so long to see a doctor because I have anxiety....vicious cycle. Anyway, my doctor told me that he couldn't help me and he doesn't like medicine for depression. I finally went to a psych and got diagnosed. I have a husband who doesn't understand depression at all. He constantly asks me why I'm so sad and I don't know what to tell him. I went on prozac and the depression slowly went away, I felt better, I stopped taking it. I then had a massive meltdown one night over something trivial, I can't even remember what it was, if there even was anything to begin with. I went back to the doctor and she told me that I need to stay on it....so I went back on it but then we decided we wanted to have more kids. I havn't been taking it for a while and havn't had any break downs, which is good. I don't want to go back on it because I've heard the affects are unknown on babies. I feel so blah lately. I can't seem to get happy and am not particurally sad. I just feel like I just exist. Other then all of that, I like football, zombie movies, and some sad music to cry to. Now I need to post this before I over analyze everything I typed and delete it!

[tailspin]

Hi Jessica, Welcome! It's good that Prozac works well for you so you'll be able to go back on it if necessary when the timing is right for you. In the meantime I hope that things go as smoothly as possible and that you find support here at the site!

[Jborst13]

Thank you for the warm welcoming! I wasn't sure if anybody would say hello....but then again it is late. Being a night owl is hard! I'm glad the prozac worked too. It was my last resort but I needed it badly.

[Dahila]

welcome to the forum and I hope you can survive a few months with the future baby without the meds. Good luck;)

[Lin]

Hi everyone..my name is Jessica. I was formally diagnosed with depression, generalized anxiety, and A.D.D. last year. Always nice to have what you've known all along finally confirmed by a professional. It took me so long to see a doctor because I have anxiety....vicious cycle. Anyway, my doctor told me that he couldn't help me and he doesn't like medicine for depression. I finally went to a psych and got diagnosed. I have a husband who doesn't understand depression at all. He constantly asks me why I'm so sad and I don't know what to tell him. I went on prozac and the depression slowly went away, I felt better, I stopped taking it. I then had a massive meltdown one night over something trivial, I can't even remember what it was, if there even was anything to begin with. I went back to the doctor and she told me that I need to stay on it....so I went back on it but then we decided we wanted to have more kids. I havn't been taking it for a while and havn't had any break downs, which is good. I don't want to go back on it because I've heard the affects are unknown on babies. I feel so blah lately. I can't seem to get happy and am not particurally sad. I just feel like I just exist. Other then all of that, I like football, zombie movies, and some sad music to cry to. Now I need to post this before I over analyze everything I typed and delete it!

Welcome to the forum, hope you get lots of help on here and make some friends, I have found it really good.

I have had post natal depression a few times, and some of my friends who had it too got pregnant quickly afterwards. You could check with your doctor whether there are any safe anti depressants you can take before you have your lovely baby, it is a shame not to enjoy your pregnancy because of depression.

Also after the birth, if you are unlucky you might find that you will need help with post natal depression. Please make sure you get the help you need. I have been through it without help and it is far worse than if you get help with it. There is no harm in taking anti depressants like prozac until your hormones settle down after a baby and you should not worry if after the baby you need to take tablets.

My husband does not understand at all either because he has never had it. He just puts up with my bouts but this time my hormones have been bad during the menopause so instead of 5-6 months of bad time after a baby this time it is lasting nearly 3 years, so we are not coping at all with it. Also this time my psychiatrist has been unable to find an anti depressant which helps me this time. So no lift from tablets and no end in sight - so a very big mountain on top of me this time, not just a long dark tunnel like usual with post natal depression.

My doctor tells me that men just don't understand women and hormones and depression etc unless they are medically trained. My husband has been on carer courses but he still is impossible to help and often makes me a lot worse by pushing my triggers, although I have given him a list of them.

Good luck with having your baby, make sure you get the personal help you need during and after your pregnancy.

[Dahila]

Lin I am sorry to hear that your husband does not understand it. My does but he is as stressed out, as I am and on meds. It seems that having go through what I go, helps with understanding the anxiety and depression. He is diagnosed with PSD.
Jessica Being pregnant is a beautiful thing and you should enjoy it without depression, I was having the anxiety attacks, but somehow they were easier and not so frequent. You need to be under the care of good doctor, two of them your gyno and the psych. I am sure they can help you with the adequate meds and information, which would easy your anxiety. Keep us posted please:)

[SleeplessInPA]

HI Jessica, welcome to the group! I am sorry you are having such a tough time. I have a friend who had to go off of her meds because she is trying to get pregnant. Her dad died recently and she has been super depressed. Like you, her husband doesn't understand depression and gives her a hard time about it. Do you think your hubby would be willing to go to therapy with you? Maybe if someone explains it to him he will better understand.

[Lin]

Hi everyone..my name is Jessica. I was formally diagnosed with depression, generalized anxiety, and A.D.D. last year. Always nice to have what you've known all along finally confirmed by a professional. It took me so long to see a doctor because I have anxiety....vicious cycle. Anyway, my doctor told me that he couldn't help me and he doesn't like medicine for depression. I finally went to a psych and got diagnosed. I have a husband who doesn't understand depression at all. He constantly asks me why I'm so sad and I don't know what to tell him. I went on prozac and the depression slowly went away, I felt better, I stopped taking it. I then had a massive meltdown one night over something trivial, I can't even remember what it was, if there even was anything to begin with. I went back to the doctor and she told me that I need to stay on it....so I went back on it but then we decided we wanted to have more kids. I havn't been taking it for a while and havn't had any break downs, which is good. I don't want to go back on it because I've heard the affects are unknown on babies. I feel so blah lately. I can't seem to get happy and am not particurally sad. I just feel like I just exist. Other then all of that, I like football, zombie movies, and some sad music to cry to. Now I need to post this before I over analyze everything I typed and delete it!

I hope that you have found some help and support from the replies you have received. It always helps to know that you are not alone with problems, and that other people are going through similar things. I hope that life gets better for you soon and you get the proper help and care you need.

[Lin]

My husband has just run out of empathy and sympathy, after 28 years of bouts of depression through post natal depression etc, he has found it harder and harder each time to help. This time has lasted so long that he has completely got fed up with it and can't handle it. He has gone to carer courses to try and understand, but unless you have had depression yourself of any kind it is very hard to understand.
That is why this forum is so good because you are talking to people who understand and can give you sympathy and kindness.