anxiety causing depression help please

[JJKeegan86]

i posted this on the medication board but maybe i can get answers here too?
i've been clinically depressed since i was about 16, im 21now. I was
diagnosed as bi-polar after i had a manic episode, and was taken to an
institution in mount vernon. when i was drug tested they found
amphetamines (cocaine), and cannabinoids. i've kicked all that stuff
since, and ive really only done coke 3 times in my whole life.
anyways For the past few years ive been dealing with anxiety along
with my depression. and i feel my anxiety is an underlying cause of
my depresseion. especially over the past few months ive had several
severe panic attacks.my psychiatrist, that ive been seeing since i
left mountvernon, has me on 450mg of wellbutrin in the morning, and
300mg of seroquell at night to help me sleep. before this ive been on,
paxil, zoloft, celexa, depakote, geodon, trileptal, cogentin, zyprexa,
and prozac. I have what they call treatment resistant depression. and
while i was in mount vernon they gave me ativan along with the other
stuff It put me in a great mood, i was much more social and less
worried about life Since then i've been given xanax a few times from
a friend with PTSD, i loved it, not in an addict kinda way, but more
like wow something actually works for me way, but with my history of
drug abuse I think my doctor is a little apprehensive about
prescribing me any kind of benzos. Ive done some reasearch on drugs
like effexor and lexapro, but those seem to be in the same boat as
paxil, which made me even more depressed. Should I tell my doctor
that my mom gave me a xanax and it really helped me, or should I just
let him know about the severe anxiety ive been having and see where
the cards fall?

p.s. sorry for the ranting

[Pessima]

tell your doctor but then take what makes you feel better even if he disagrees.But let him know of your condition. tell him you cant make it without Xanax. Good luck i hope it ends.

[fernandogress]

Depression, it is a line that slips off the tongue all too readily when we are bored or unhappy. But most of us, when we say that, do not mean we are clinically depressed, possibly wanting or needing treatment.
Depression - the blues can hit us all from time to time, as financial, emotional or work problems hang over like a dark cloud. In the long term, if the problems are not resolved, depression lowers the immune system, leaving you prone to a spiral of worstening mental and physical health.
Anxiety is a normal response to danger. Anxiety is abnormal when its severity is out of proportion to the threat of danger or when it outlasts the threat. Anxiety mood is closely coupled with somatic and autonomic components, and with psychological ones.Depression is a normal response to loss or misfortune. Depression is abnormal when it is out of proportion to the misfortune or unduly prolonged. Depressive mood is closely coupled with other changes, notably a lowering of self-esteem, self-criticism, and pessimistic thinking.