Miss.GracieN
08-12-2013, 06:56 AM
I've been paying more attention to my symptoms recently. Instead of accepting that I'm 'down', actually looking at what happens. I've noticed I am worse in the morning. I wake up with a feeling of dread, in the pit of my stomach. Then, I begin to think though everything, all the little things that have gone wrong or I have done wrong, and I let them eat me up. And I get worked up to such a state I end up crying. By about 7pm, I'm okay. I don't know wether it's because I know I can sleep soon and for a few hours I don't have to worry.
I have a constant worry that I will ruin my relationship. I don't even know why. Just that I will say something wrong. My boyfriend reassures me I won't, he is really understanding. But I don't like worrying him with my problems to the point he can't cope. So I keep it to myself more now. I
I told my mum how I was feeling, and she said I just need to go out more and I bring it on myself. She wants to help, I just think if she accepts I have a problem she has to deal with herself as my younger sisters problems and depression.
I have recently found out my nan suffered from depression when she was younger and was on some sort of medication. My mum also suffered from post-natal (can't spell) depression after me and other siblings. As well as depression later on. Now my sister is currently getting treatment (not medication, like talking therapy) for her depression and only recently diagnosed mild Asperger's syndrome.
I'm being made out to be a typical teenager with hormones and stuff. Yeah, I am. Aren't we all. But that doesn't mean I shouldn't be happy. When I say I'm not happy I get called ungrateful or blamed for it, so I don't tell them anymore
I have a constant worry that I will ruin my relationship. I don't even know why. Just that I will say something wrong. My boyfriend reassures me I won't, he is really understanding. But I don't like worrying him with my problems to the point he can't cope. So I keep it to myself more now. I
I told my mum how I was feeling, and she said I just need to go out more and I bring it on myself. She wants to help, I just think if she accepts I have a problem she has to deal with herself as my younger sisters problems and depression.
I have recently found out my nan suffered from depression when she was younger and was on some sort of medication. My mum also suffered from post-natal (can't spell) depression after me and other siblings. As well as depression later on. Now my sister is currently getting treatment (not medication, like talking therapy) for her depression and only recently diagnosed mild Asperger's syndrome.
I'm being made out to be a typical teenager with hormones and stuff. Yeah, I am. Aren't we all. But that doesn't mean I shouldn't be happy. When I say I'm not happy I get called ungrateful or blamed for it, so I don't tell them anymore