HealingTime
07-30-2013, 10:19 AM
Just checking in to say hi and I'm still here.
My husband and I had an interesting weekend. Some healthy talks. I had a few drinks Saturday night and then he tried to talk ... that wasn't a good idea. Panic attack city. I tried my coping skills but it was 3am and he would not let me go run around the block alone but I needed to be alone I was freaking out I was going to hurt him again. It took him a long time, but he eventually calmed me down. He was my savior.
Anyway, we talked some over the weekend and he said he loves me and does want to try to work on us. He says he's hesitant to believe we won't fall back into old habits. For my sanity, I have to form new habits. I cannot continue my old habits or I will eventually end up insane or dead.
So for now we are trying. I'm less anxious but still am anxious. I don't want to screw this up. But we are so scared of hurting each other and stepping on each others toes and what not.... that has to pass. We need a new normal. We're working on it.....
My husband and I had an interesting weekend. Some healthy talks. I had a few drinks Saturday night and then he tried to talk ... that wasn't a good idea. Panic attack city. I tried my coping skills but it was 3am and he would not let me go run around the block alone but I needed to be alone I was freaking out I was going to hurt him again. It took him a long time, but he eventually calmed me down. He was my savior.
Anyway, we talked some over the weekend and he said he loves me and does want to try to work on us. He says he's hesitant to believe we won't fall back into old habits. For my sanity, I have to form new habits. I cannot continue my old habits or I will eventually end up insane or dead.
So for now we are trying. I'm less anxious but still am anxious. I don't want to screw this up. But we are so scared of hurting each other and stepping on each others toes and what not.... that has to pass. We need a new normal. We're working on it.....