Getting anxiety and fear about starting a new job!

[zurilove27]

This is my first time posting on this site. I have had anxiety all of my life, but the panic and fears have become increasingly worse over the past 2 months after a certain situation occurred and I went into the worst attack of my life. In a nut shell following that attack I got on Zoloft in which I had an adverse reaction that caused me to pretty much lose my mind and have suicidal thoughts. (Mind you I have NEVER in my life ever had those type of thoughts until I started taking the Zoloft). Anyways, The past 2 weeks since being off of the Zoloft have been hell, but the depression aspect has definitely improved. The main issue now is the racing thoughts, general anxiety, and fear/worry. I am a stay at home mom and a nanny. During all of this I have still continued to nanny-and everything has been fine. I KNOW I am more than capable to care for children, as I said I do have a 2yr old of my own who through out all of this I have cared for. So now I am taking on an additional child to watch, and The anxiety over it has already started. I keep reminding myself that it's just the fears/worry and that I know I am okay and capable, but it just sucks. I have been a nanny for years, and I am vary confident in my ability, but these fears are consuming me. Any advise or kind words that anyone has would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

[jess1988]

Hi zurilove27!

I find that for myself a lot of what helps me is confirmation from me that I am capable and I have been living and functioning and taking care all along and anxiety won't stop me. Have you tried saying to yourself out loud these things? Like "I have a 2 yr old that I am a wonderful parent to and I can also help take care of other children"? I'm sure you will be perfectly fine. Our minds like to psyche us out. You can do it! And you will!

[zurilove27]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate that input. I do tell myself that in my head, and I know that it's the truth. I just HATE all the constant negative thoughts. From the outside I appear to be completely fine, but in my head my thoughts are constant. I just wonder, will the racing thoughts EVER go away? They are enough to drive one mad!

[jess1988]

Over time we can overcome the racing thoughts, it sometimes may take medication, and not all meds work for everyone, and sometimes it's a mixture of meds and other techniques. It's good that you know and recognize the truth, just keep thinking that way, even when it seems impossible!