MrsPhillips
06-30-2013, 01:31 PM
Hello everyone. I am a 26 year old stay at home wife and have been married to a great man for 3 years now. I very much love my life except for the fact that I am not working currently. This is something that will be changing very shortly. I try to remain optimistic despite harsh situations and at times it even annoys me that I am that way. :)
Nobody really realizes the things that float through my head and the intense level of anxiety/panic attacks that I experience on basically a day to day basis. I find myself hoping every night before I go to sleep that the next day will bring a day free of panic attacks. This rarely happens.
When I was a child I had some tramatic events happen to me that at the time I guess I brushed aside and ignored. It feels like one thing set it all off and from there I started a downward spiral. I've never been a trouble maker and have always tried to do the right thing in my life. I try to correct any mistakes that I make as soon as possible. I'm too caring at times and I love too much. Some say there is no possible way to love too much, but when you love so much that it hurts emotionally then I believe something needs to change. These are just a few very random things about me. :)
I have tried medications for anxiety/depression and none that I have tried have been of much assistance even with personal changes that I have made to help the medication work. So, currently I am off of all medication and trying to cope with panic attacks without taking anything for them. This is seeming to be impossible lately as I have made a very recent trip to the ER because I thought that I was having a heart attack. I just want to find people that have to deal with the same thing that I do...so I can realize that I am not alone or just crazy. There really is something wrong with me and that is anxiety. More people need to realize that this is an actual thing and not something made up or something that can be controlled very easily.
:) Thank you for taking the time to read this. I know that my thoughts were all over the place, but I've never really been open with many people about my panic besides family and my husband.
Nobody really realizes the things that float through my head and the intense level of anxiety/panic attacks that I experience on basically a day to day basis. I find myself hoping every night before I go to sleep that the next day will bring a day free of panic attacks. This rarely happens.
When I was a child I had some tramatic events happen to me that at the time I guess I brushed aside and ignored. It feels like one thing set it all off and from there I started a downward spiral. I've never been a trouble maker and have always tried to do the right thing in my life. I try to correct any mistakes that I make as soon as possible. I'm too caring at times and I love too much. Some say there is no possible way to love too much, but when you love so much that it hurts emotionally then I believe something needs to change. These are just a few very random things about me. :)
I have tried medications for anxiety/depression and none that I have tried have been of much assistance even with personal changes that I have made to help the medication work. So, currently I am off of all medication and trying to cope with panic attacks without taking anything for them. This is seeming to be impossible lately as I have made a very recent trip to the ER because I thought that I was having a heart attack. I just want to find people that have to deal with the same thing that I do...so I can realize that I am not alone or just crazy. There really is something wrong with me and that is anxiety. More people need to realize that this is an actual thing and not something made up or something that can be controlled very easily.
:) Thank you for taking the time to read this. I know that my thoughts were all over the place, but I've never really been open with many people about my panic besides family and my husband.