laura_001
06-25-2013, 12:38 AM
I have always felt awkward in public places, especially when I'm by myself. I feel like everyone is looking at me. I would rather isolate myself from other people than to talk to people I don't know.
ever since I can remember I've always been terrified and nervous talking to a group of people. I have had some friends but eventually we fall out an they grow out of me because I'm not moving forward socially. they make new friends and I
Can't relate and I become a kind of burden. every close friend I've ever had has replaced me with someone else. And it's the worst feeling knowing that they have found someone who's company they prefer.
Some days I accept that I won't have friendships that last, but all I do is constantly compare my life to those around me and I feel this overwhelming fear that I am alone. and I get so stressed and angry because I want what they have, and I have Been trying for years and nothing had changed.
I try to stop the feeling of loneliness by having boyfriends, but then usually, after a few months I realize that it is just an escape.
ever since I can remember I've always been terrified and nervous talking to a group of people. I have had some friends but eventually we fall out an they grow out of me because I'm not moving forward socially. they make new friends and I
Can't relate and I become a kind of burden. every close friend I've ever had has replaced me with someone else. And it's the worst feeling knowing that they have found someone who's company they prefer.
Some days I accept that I won't have friendships that last, but all I do is constantly compare my life to those around me and I feel this overwhelming fear that I am alone. and I get so stressed and angry because I want what they have, and I have Been trying for years and nothing had changed.
I try to stop the feeling of loneliness by having boyfriends, but then usually, after a few months I realize that it is just an escape.