Please help. New with Anxiety

[em1]

I have to admit I feel like that as if maybe one day my irrational thoughts may turn real and I will have no control over it but I've learned not to search the web for health issues or mental health but I did search the web yesterday when I found a black feather at my door n the results put me into a full blown panic until I searched again and found a different result x

Don't do that Hun you will not do anything they are only thoughts,I know what your going through belive me,I'm here if you need to chat,I know it can be really scary but your a good loving person and a gr8 mum,it's just thoughts in your head,they won't make you go mad or do anything crazy,I know it's very Exhausting but we will get there,you have got better be4 And you will again just give it time x

[kelliesean]

Ive been afraid Im skitzofrenic :| Anxiety really is a pain in the ass lol

Oh my goodness JCX, I used to be SOOOOO afraid that I was skitzofrentic (not sure of that spelling) too!! That was like one of my all time most intense fears!!! Uughhhh.. I know what that fear is like :((

But if it makes u feel better.. I am not.. And I know that know, since beig in therapy and on meds..

[JCX]

Does anyone feel like their brain is going to stop working? Kinda like a pressured headache thats just there

[em1]

Does anyone feel like their brain is going to stop working? Kinda like a pressured headache thats just there

It's anxiety,I get that all the time,try and relax m8,your brain won't stop working you just have a lot on your mind at the moment this will get better

[kelliesean]

It's anxiety,I get that all the time,try and relax m8,your brain won't stop working you just have a lot on your mind at the moment this will get better

I agree totally with em1.. It is anxiety, and it's symptoms are endless.. It's what ever sets u off, and when one is as stressed w it as much as you sound to be (I understand bc I have been there in my 20's as well) you are very sensitive to triggers..

My cousin has an interesting anxiety trigger.. He has anxiety that is many times triggered by the artificial lighting in restaurants or other indoor lighting like in drs offices etc..
Many people can't even understand how that is??? But for him it's what triggers anxiety.. And he claims its lighting..
So you see triggers can be very unusual.. And symptoms are so wide and varying..

I, as well as many other, if not all the people posting , also understand even to this day and with all my experience w anxiety that it is STLL hard to believe this is all mental.. But.. It is..

[frankzito]

I've noticed if you have a big television, the way the camera jerks, and a lot of the ways they film these days, will get mine started. Funny you mentioned the resteraunt Kelli . I was in one the other day and one of the lights were going bad and had a slight constant Flickr. Made me feel seasick

[kelliesean]

I've noticed if you have a big television, the way the camera jerks, and a lot of the ways they film these days, will get mine started. Funny you mentioned the resteraunt Kelli . I was in one the other day and one of the lights were going bad and had a slight constant Flickr. Made me feel seasick

Yeah! There's something to it for some.. It all depends I guess ..

[em1]

Yeah! There's something to it for some.. It all depends I guess ..

I can fully understand the lights thjng to :)

[JCX]

Im feeling like I cant enjoy anything guys. Like im doing things just for the sake of it and not enjoying

[frankzito]

I hear ya, I used to like to go and get drunk with my friends. Now I can only drink a few beers :-( one of the things I miss most.

[kelliesean]

I hear ya, I used to like to go and get drunk with my friends. Now I can only drink a few beers :-( one of the things I miss most.

Me too lol.. Hang overs, even if they aren't classic hangovers.. Just feeling thirsty and tired the next day sets me off..

[kelliesean]

Im feeling like I cant enjoy anything guys. Like im doing things just for the sake of it and not enjoying

You remind me so so much of me when I was In my early twenties- really! I think maybe tht time in our lives can be very stressful.. And if we are prone to anxieties.. They become aggravated..

Your anxiety may be depressing you.. But this is nothig to worry about.. You do need to follow through with your treatment and get meds ASAP.. You will be AMAZED at your recovery., I guarantee it..

[Dcoito]

Yes JCX. That's one of my sensations! The one I hate the most mind you! It feels like its going to just seize up, and stop working, feels like the brain is swelling up or something. Hence the pressure feeling. I have had them a lot and I'm still here, and my brain never did stop working. I know how annoying that sensation is, it makes it hard to concentrate! I can't even watch tv, read , or do much of anything when I get those. However a cold compress on the head relieves it some, and I will take an ibuprofen , and do some relax breathing. As I concentrate on something else. Just make sure not to give it to much of your thoughts! As the stress of that can make it worst, and appear more often.

[frankzito]

Me too lol.. Hang overs, even if they aren't classic hangovers.. Just feeling thirsty and tired the next day sets me off..

Yes! Every time it gets me when I drink! I say to myself I'm not gonna do that again! And low and behold, I will try and boom! I may get drunk once every two months and I will not take my AD that day if I know I'm going to! But a little over a year ago i could do it everyday :-)

[Stephj526]

Weird lighting gets me too, and anything that jerks quickly. Even windshield wipers if they're going too fast, or too fast of action scenes in movies. I couldn't figure out why i was having panic attacks in movies until I figured out my triggers.

My fiancé likes to shake his legs all the time, and if I see it out of the corner of my eye or it shakes the ground it really gets me too.

I think it's just little things that are abnormal that we're more sensitive to.

[kelliesean]

Yes! Every time it gets me when I drink! I say to myself I'm not gonna do that again! And low and behold, I will try and boom! I may get drunk once every two months and I will not take my AD that day if I know I'm going to! But a little over a year ago i could do it everyday :-)

Lol! Yep.. Same kind of thing for me..

[em1]

I've not touched a glass of wine since I started my Meds :( don't get me wrong I never drink to get drunk and I can't even remember the last time I did but I do really miss having one or two on the weekends but I don't want my anxiety to be thrown back at me when I'm doing ok

[frankzito]

I've not touched a glass of wine since I started my Meds :( don't get me wrong I never drink to get drunk and I can't even remember the last time I did but I do really miss having one or two on the weekends but I don't want my anxiety to be thrown back at me when I'm doing ok

I think you would be fine to have that. If you do it and think it might affect ya, it probably will. If you sip em slow, I'm sure you would be fine

[frankzito]

I've not touched a glass of wine since I started my Meds :( don't get me wrong I never drink to get drunk and I can't even remember the last time I did but I do really miss having one or two on the weekends but I don't want my anxiety to be thrown back at me when I'm doing ok

But don't take a chance if your doing well. Don't listen to me on that Lol :-)

[kelliesean]

I've not touched a glass of wine since I started my Meds :( don't get me wrong I never drink to get drunk and I can't even remember the last time I did but I do really miss having one or two on the weekends but I don't want my anxiety to be thrown back at me when I'm doing ok

Yeah.. This is smart..

.. I can handle a beer or two .. But I don't push it past there.. And honestly I don't even have that these days.

But back when I was first getting better I didn't drink ANYTHING for years and years.. I was so scared it would mess me up..

Moderation is important..

[JCX]

Im allergic to aspirin so any type of ibuprofen messes me up as I found out with benadryl lol

Extra strength tylenol works wonders for me though thankfully.

[Dcoito]

I believe from what I have read is that it won't increase your anxiety, but it may increase the side effects of the medication itself. Such as drowsiness , dizziness , ect. The effects of the wine will can increase as well. If it took 5 glasses of wine to feel it before, it may only take 2 glasses now. I think if you only limit yourself to one or two glasses you would be ok. But you know you can always ask your doctor, or pharmacist. On more details.

[JCX]

Yeah my doctor told me to stay away fromcanything with ibuprofen. I used to drink advils for headaches which only made it worse flr me. I switched to tylenol and headaches have calmed down inconsiderably lol

[em1]

Yes I think I will ask my doctor when I go back in four weeks time About having wine as I'm doing so well and wine is nice but I would give it up
Tomorow it if I had no panic attacks/anxiety again ever :)

[Dcoito]

Tylenol is fine too. But your not suppose to take more then the bottles says silly! That won't help you! More is not better! I choosed ibuprofen for mr because it has an anti inflammatory in it. To me it felt like my brain was inflamed causing pressure in my head! LOL. Why did your doctor tell you no ibuprofen ?

[kelliesean]

Yes I think I will ask my doctor when I go back in four weeks time About having wine as I'm doing so well and wine is nice but I would give it up
Tomorow it if I had no panic attacks/anxiety again ever :)

Yes! I wd give up so much for no anxiety :)

[JCX]

Because im allergic to aspirin so I cant have ibuprofen lol

[JCX]

Has anyone felt like rocking up and down? Not sure how to explain it.... I worked out at the gym for 4 hours so maybe thats why...??

[Ahlstrom]

Longest thread ever award.

[kelliesean]

Longest thread ever award.

Lol!!! True!

[Dcoito]

JCX. I have had that sensation before, so I get what your saying, however it was after I got off an elevator and lasted only a couple minutes. Have you ever looked at yourself as being excessive? An overdoer think I just made that word up! LOL. Anyways you seem to push push push. You drank Advil for your headaches you worked out for four hours. Hmmmm! I wonder what else? What do you think? Do you worry about being able to achieve things quickly? Just something I thought of as I'm getting to know you.

[JCX]

Yeah I always want things to be done quickly. If not then I give up on them or dont bother doing at all. Im pretty sure I have adhd. A lot of times I dont even bother doing things even though I want to. I forget a lot aswell. Most disorganized person aswell -____-
These few days I cant bring myself to enjoy anything. I also have a constant headache of sorts. Its more like a heavy pressure of sorts.

[Dcoito]

Hmmm you kinda sound me! LOL.

[str8trippin]

I have the heavy pressure in my head, too! It's been pretty much constant and it is one of the WORST feelings ever...and I haven't found anything that makes it go away! I'd had it for a couple of weeks before it went away for about a day and then came back yesterday.

[kelliesean]

I have the heavy pressure in my head, too! It's been pretty much constant and it is one of the WORST feelings ever...and I haven't found anything that makes it go away! I'd had it for a couple of weeks before it went away for about a day and then came back yesterday.

Str8.. You have started the mag AA treatment right?

[Dcoito]

Try a cold compress, you need to rest! I also feel that a lot of eye strain brings it on with headache

So being on the computer a long time may not be helpful!

[JCX]

Yeah when I told my therapist how I normally am he smiled... which I found odd at the time so I asked him If he thought I was crazy. He replied me with "if you asked me to testify in court that you are insane, I would laugh and say he is the most normal person ive had in therapy". Made me feel better and ive not worried as much as I used to. Then he went on and asked me questions about hyperactivity and explained what it was and it sounded just like me. So Im guessing he thinks im adhd :S

Lets see how it goes next wednesday though!

[kelliesean]

Yeah when I told my therapist how I normally am he smiled... which I found odd at the time so I asked him If he thought I was crazy. He replied me with "if you asked me to testify in court that you are insane, I would laugh and say he is the most normal person ive had in therapy". Made me feel better and ive not worried as much as I used to. Then he went on and asked me questions about hyperactivity and explained what it was and it sounded just like me. So Im guessing he thinks im adhd :S

Lets see how it goes next wednesday though!

Thts great .. Yeah he is probably trying to properly diagnose you.. :-)

[Dcoito]

Quite possible! My son has ADHD. Nothing to be worried about tho! He's doing GREAT! I even love his personality! He can be so funny at times, he's a great joy!

[JCX]

I also had a proper emotional "moment". Cried my ass off and Im a guy LOL. It was something bottled up inside for ages.
I opened up and I didnt think that I would so early, but it really relieved a load of stress out!

EDIT: I meant hyperfocus not hyperactivity! Im not really hyperactive as much anymore lol.

[Dcoito]

Awesome! I love a man that can cry! LOL. It dose feel good! That's we we have tear ducts! LOL. Use em!

[JCX]

Yeah thats true hahah. You know how us guys are though especially with pride ;P

[Dcoito]

LOL. Yep, that's why your better! Haha! Pride is a sin ya know! LOL

[JCX]

That is very very true. Pride is a sin indeed :)

Lets hope I get better though and symptom free!

[Dcoito]

Oh you will!

[JCX]

Does anyones mind/head feel numb? Especially the front part.

[str8trippin]

Does anyones mind/head feel numb? Especially the front part.

Yes...front, back, everywhere.

[JCX]

Yes...front, back, everywhere.

I feel your pain my dear friend. Its making me lazy lol

[str8trippin]

I feel your pain my dear friend. Its making me lazy lol

Mine comes with waves of dizziness or feeling lightheaded, and sometimes I feel pressure in my ears as well like they need to pop and they get crackly. By far the most awful and scary feelings to me are the ones with my head. More than anything else they make me feel like something is wrong with me.

[JCX]

Does anyone feel like theres something stuck in their throat??? Like a bubble that keeps going up and down. Lol

[Dcoito]

Don't you look around and read other post? I read many here that has that. Your normal! Anxiety normal that is. LOL

[JCX]

Lol I try not to read too much because it increases my anxiety!!! Ill get worried I might have that!

[Dcoito]

Well your reading something cuz you worried! LOL

[JCX]

Well your reading something cuz you worried! LOL
True LOL!!!! What can I say? Curiosity and anxiety really is a cunt at times :cool:

[Dcoito]

Your a healthy man suffering from some anxiety! You have an awesome personality, and your not afraid to show emotion! You make me smile, and you have friends here that care! Stop being so hard on yourself! When you become 100% you will be even more awesome! And I want to see that ! You can be stubborn tho. LOL. But I'll keep pushing you!

[kelliesean]

Lol I try not to read too much because it increases my anxiety!!! Ill get worried I might have that!

I do this all the time.. This forum fuels a lot for me at times lol..

[JCX]

I had a freaking wine cooler earlier and now im having weird anxiety attacks. I feel like im going to go crazy :(

[Wychhh]

You won't go crazy mate trust me

[kelliesean]

I had a freaking wine cooler earlier and now im having weird anxiety attacks. I feel like im going to go crazy :(

Yeah. Alcohol was/is a major trigger for me..

[bax]

yeah I stop drinking also

[JCX]

I had fallen asleep and then randomly woke up feeling scared I was going to be blamed for something I didnt do... can anxiety do this...?!?!?

[JCX]

Guys even though I feel fine now Im always worrying I might go crazy in back of my mind. Is that normal???? Like I feel im making myself crazy even though im feeling fine.

[em1]

I had fallen asleep and then randomly woke up feeling scared I was going to be blamed for something I didnt do... can anxiety do this...?!?!?

Yes m8 it can belive me

[em1]

Guys even though I feel fine now Im always worrying I might go crazy in back of my mind. Is that normal???? Like I feel im making myself crazy even though im feeling fine.

JCX you won't go crazy,I thought the same as you belive me we all think the same,it's the anxiety that's all

[str8trippin]

I know the feeling. If I can't get rid of this pressure in my head I really might go crazy! Nothing helps alleviate it and it's ruining my life right now...doctor's appointment isn't until Tuesday and I'm back to being terrified that something is wrong.

[Dcoito]

True, I thought I was gonna go insane! I kept asking people what was wrong with me. Only they looked at me like I had 3 heads! But I was serious! I was so afraid I was never be the same. Couldn't even look past it for awhile. But when I had good days I realized I'm not going crazy! I'm still me, just not feeling well was all. Now it's completely gone! So with that being said, you too will be the same person you was before you became I'll with anxiety.

[Dcoito]

Your ok str8. Because I get those too! And I have read other post with people asking about the same thing! What meds ru on and how long ?

[str8trippin]

Your ok str8. Because I get those too! And I have read other post with people asking about the same thing! What meds ru on and how long ?

I feel like I have tried everything and it just won't go away. It's also a very hard feeling to describe to anyone, and I feel like everyone in my house is just annoyed at me over it. No meds yet. Was prescribed some (Paxil and Xanax) by my previous doctor but I was very uncomfortable and I only saw her once, so I just want to talk to my new doctor first and see what she thinks and feel like I can actually make an informed decision.

[JCX]

But I have 0 symptoms right now! I just cant stop thinking about last night and what might be wrong with me :(

[Dcoito]

Ahh well Paxil is what I'm on. Also what I took 10 years ago, it has helped me lots! I started very slow, only on 5 MG the first 2 weeks, then went to 10, then 15. Now I'm staying at 20 MG. in the beginning of my treatment I used Ativan. As I adjusted to the Paxil. I no longer use the Ativan. Unless I need blood drawn! LOL. My phobia is doctors. However I do trust there knowledge! IV only been on the Paxil this time around for About 6 weeks, and I'm doing a lot better now! I haven't had the pressure in the head for at least 3 weeks now! I do have headaches still almost everyday. But I thing that's eye strain. Being on the iPad a lot LOL.

[Dcoito]

To me it felt like pressure, almost like my brain was swollen. Lol. It also felt like it was going to just seize up on me and stop working. It was one of my most concerning symptom I had! Also I could not complete task. Not even make a sandwich! I felt confused, I couldn't watch tv. Or listen to any noise at all! Drove me crazy!

[str8trippin]

To me it felt like pressure, almost like my brain was swollen. Lol. It also felt like it was going to just seize up on me and stop working. It was one of my most concerning symptom I had! Also I could not complete task. Not even make a sandwich! I felt confused, I couldn't watch tv. Or listen to any noise at all! Drove me crazy!

This is EXACTLY what mine feels like....sometimes the pressure is in the back, sometimes only one side, sometimes the front, sometimes everywhere....my ears feel clogged or like they need to pop, and occasionally I get a brief wave of dizziness, and a lot of the time it is accompanied by neck tension and stiffness. And the pressure feeling comes and goes. It's by far the scariest symptom to me. All that keeps going through my thoughts is brain tumor. I try cold compresses, warm ones, taking a bath, wearing sunglasses and trying to avoid things that might cause too much eye strain, rest, Ibuprofen, Tylenol....etc. etc. You mentioned that you used to take Ativan? I have that as well, but haven't taken it. I tend to have really bad reactions to medications so taking them just scares me. Do you think it would help with the pressure head feeling?

[Dcoito]

The Ativan just made me feel normal. I would take one .05mg. Then 1 hour later I took another 0.5. Made me relaxed. Sometimes I would only need the one. 0.5. As I begawan to feel better. You know you might be tensing up your upper body a lot without even realizing it. I had upper shoulder soreness, and neck. I didn't even realize I was walking around with my shoulders up to my ears scrunched up all the time until I started focusing on parts of my body. It took me days of reminding myself to relax my shoulders. I was constantly catching myself doing it! All that tension can work its way up into the head area as well! Also I read that cold cucumbers on the eyes are very soothing. Can try that during a guided meditation.
Start paying attention to your body, and when, and where it tenses up! Remind yourself to relax that part of your body!


Ps.. Make sure the cucumber is cold out of the crisper. ; ) slice two slices off and place over your eyes.

[JCX]

Does anyone have problems with memory? Idk if Its adhd but my memory is way worse then usual....

[Dcoito]

Ya, but I had that problem way before my last anxiety attack. LOL. But during a flare up of anxiety it is common because we are not really focusing to much on the out side. Our thoughts are being rather consumed by the anxiety itself. My son would ask me for something, and I would ok ill get it in a minute. Then totally forget about it until he reminded me, all in like a 3 min span! Poor little guy! It has gotten better now that I am recovering! As yours will be too!

[JCX]

Thank you! I feel better now. Hopefully no attacks now that im about to fall asleep! *fingers crossed*

[Dcoito]

Don't forget to relax your brain. Clear all your thoughts, and concentrate just on your breathing! Or use counting to occupy your mind as you drift off.

[str8trippin]

The Ativan just made me feel normal. I would take one .05mg. Then 1 hour later I took another 0.5. Made me relaxed. Sometimes I would only need the one. 0.5. As I begawan to feel better. You know you might be tensing up your upper body a lot without even realizing it. I had upper shoulder soreness, and neck. I didn't even realize I was walking around with my shoulders up to my ears scrunched up all the time until I started focusing on parts of my body. It took me days of reminding myself to relax my shoulders. I was constantly catching myself doing it! All that tension can work its way up into the head area as well! Also I read that cold cucumbers on the eyes are very soothing. Can try that during a guided meditation.
Start paying attention to your body, and when, and where it tenses up! Remind yourself to relax that part of your body!


Ps.. Make sure the cucumber is cold out of the crisper. ; ) slice two slices off and place over your eyes.

I'm sure I am tensing my body. In fact, I know I do, and between that and not having good posture, I'm sure it's a huge contributing factor. And it's definitely a hard habit to kick because you don't even think about the fact that you are doing it. I ended up going to the ER last night. I know everyone says to fight the urge to go, but I talked with a nurse on my insurance's nurse hotline and she told me there was no harm in going to see someone if it was bothering me that badly and since I've had this headache thing ongoing for so long now and haven't been able to find anything that helps alleviate it. They gave me Toradol and Phenergen and tried to assure me that it wasn't my brain. I was really honest with the doctor there about my health anxiety and what not and she was extremely understanding and tried to reassure me. Anyway, she told me the medications would just make me really sleepy. Well, it made me groggy, but I still couldn't sleep, and felt horrible all night and still this morning. Not even sure how I'm going to make it through the work day at this point. I've only been here for thirty minutes this morning and I already feel like I've been here for hours. BLAH.

[Dcoito]

Oh! Sorry to hear about your bad night! Did they say any more about the head pressure? As in why you are having them? I would just try the Ativan , I had a hard time taking it too at first, my boyfriend had to beg me for hours as I was crying, and not wanting to take it! But glad I did! I was able to rest for awhile. Anxiety is a tuff battle! For me the symptoms, and sensations that came with it was to much! I couldn't even get myself out of a paper bag never mind concur my anxiety ! Now that my anxiety is lower I can focus on dealing with it mentally as I know the medication will not cure it for the long term! But now with a more clear mind I can fill my tool belt with all the tools ill need to concur it when I decide to wean off the medication.

[Dcoito]

Checking up on you JCX. How are doing?

[JCX]

im not having any attacks but I feel sorta numb everywere. Also finding it hard to enjoy anything :(

[Dcoito]

Have you started any medication yet?

[JCX]

Have you started any medication yet?

Nope nothing yet. Im going to see my therapist this Wednesday again but I doubt ill be on anything for another month

We are still on evaluation process so to say.

[Dcoito]

Well it sounds like your just a little down and out. That's normal!

[JCX]

My mind just feels so foggy. Idk if my mind is making it up or what lol

[Wychhh]

I can relate to that^

[JCX]

Idk if I feel normal again or what. Havent had anxiety in awhile and now it seems almost unrealistic lol.... am I cured? O_____o I douht myself a bit though If im normal or what again if that makes any sense lol

[frankzito]

Idk if I feel normal again or what. Havent had anxiety in awhile and now it seems almost unrealistic lol.... am I cured? O_____o I douht myself a bit though If im normal or what again if that makes any sense lol

I've gone a coupe weeks before feeling pretty good! Your on the right track

[kelliesean]

I've gone a coupe weeks before feeling pretty good! Your on the right track

Yeah I've had pockets of time where I was feeling ok too..

[Dcoito]

Just keep moving forward JXC. Throw any negative thoughts out the window!

[frankzito]

Yeah I've had pockets of time where I was feeling ok too..

It's not quite tolerable, I'm setting a goal for one more year of it. Keep my fingers crossed. How are you feeling lately, Kellie?

[kelliesean]

It's not quite tolerable, I'm setting a goal for one more year of it. Keep my fingers crossed. How are you feeling lately, Kellie?

:-) In general I am feeling pretty good! Most days go very well for me since I've been on the Zoloft 6 weeks.. Didn't feel solid relief until about 4 weeks in..

What's good while I'm on meds tho.. Is that if I start to feel anxious the Zoloft makes it so much more easy to push it away and carry on w my day etc.. W out the meds it's a battle I lose very often and it consumes me..

I'm pretty good tho :).. Up to 100 mgs.. Working up to 150..

How have you been? :)

[frankzito]

:-) In general I am feeling pretty good! Most days go very well for me since I've been on the Zoloft 6 weeks.. Didn't feel solid relief until about 4 weeks in..

What's good while I'm on meds tho.. Is that if I start to feel anxious the Zoloft makes it so much more easy to push it away and carry on w my day etc.. W out the meds it's a battle I lose very often and it consumes me..

I'm pretty good tho :).. Up to 100 mgs.. Working up to 150..

How have you been? :)

Glad to hear :-) I agree, it seems easier to push em away, with the meds. And it really takes something bad to get one started . I started on a half of a ten mg escitalopram and after a year moved up to a full tablet. It seems to work fairly well. I take a low dose beta blocker too, for pounding heart, and slight blood pressure. . It's funny when I try and have a panic attack, my heart can't pound like it did. It's kinda scary in a way lol and I have Xanax as well. I haven't become addicted to them, but they are a life saver! So doing better than ever! But it's only been a year and a few months. I'm lucky I haven't had it that long. Just regular anxiety before . Thanks for asking :-) be well!

[Blessed]

:-) In general I am feeling pretty good! Most days go very well for me since I've been on the Zoloft 6 weeks.. Didn't feel solid relief until about 4 weeks in..

What's good while I'm on meds tho.. Is that if I start to feel anxious the Zoloft makes it so much more easy to push it away and carry on w my day etc.. W out the meds it's a battle I lose very often and it consumes me..

I'm pretty good tho :).. Up to 100 mgs.. Working up to 150..

How have you been? :)

Not trying to nosy and excuse me for asking but do have any side effects on this med such as lows sex drive? I've tried so many different meds I lost count but I always had to stop taking because of the side effects

[kelliesean]

Glad to hear :-) I agree, it seems easier to push em away, with the meds. And it really takes something bad to get one started . I started on a half of a ten mg escitalopram and after a year moved up to a full tablet. It seems to work fairly well. I take a low dose beta blocker too, for pounding heart, and slight blood pressure. . It's funny when I try and have a panic attack, my heart can't pound like it did. It's kinda scary in a way lol and I have Xanax as well. I haven't become addicted to them, but they are a life saver! So doing better than ever! But it's only been a year and a few months. I'm lucky I haven't had it that long. Just regular anxiety before . Thanks for asking :-) be well!

Glad to hear you are feeling better! Thank goodness for modern medicine lol.. Now I just have my fingers crossed that this sticks!! Lol.. I sometimes read about people's meds not working for so long grrr.. Well if that happen to me I'm marching rt down to my dr for a new drug to try lol! I HATE anxiety.. Can't live w it.. Smh..

Good I hear from you :)

[frankzito]

Glad to hear you are feeling better! Thank goodness for modern medicine lol.. Now I just have my fingers crossed that this sticks!! Lol.. I sometimes read about people's meds not working for so long grrr.. Well if that happen to me I'm marching rt down to my dr for a new drug to try lol! I HATE anxiety.. Can't live w it.. Smh..

Good I hear from you :)

Thank you! :-). There's plenty of medicine out there, that's for sure! I hate anxiety too, and thought it was bogus until I got it myself.
I've had a hard time getting to talk to people on here! . I remember the special ones. Thanks and nice to hear from you. Beat wishes to you

[kelliesean]

Thank you! :-). There's plenty of medicine out there, that's for sure! I hate anxiety too, and thought it was bogus until I got it myself.
I've had a hard time getting to talk to people on here! . I remember the special ones. Thanks and nice to hear from you. Beat wishes to you

To u also! And feel free to contact me anytime :))

[frankzito]

To u also! And feel free to contact me anytime :))

Okee dokee ;-)

[JCX]

Is it normal not to be on any meds but not let yourself have anxiety attacks?!?!? Kinda like stop them dead on its tracks... or am I makijg too mufh of being kinda normal again? Im confused as heck about it lol

[Dcoito]

Of corse it's normal. It's the way to overcome anxiety, but you have to keep up with it! Start training that brain! Meds will never cure anxiety! It just makes you function But you still need to deal with your thought process. And also keep doing relaxation. For everyday stress! Don't let your thoughts, and stress build up!

[frankzito]

Is it normal not to be on any meds but not let yourself have anxiety attacks?!?!? Kinda like stop them dead on its tracks... or am I makijg too mufh of being kinda normal again? Im confused as heck about it lol

I'm not sure, but probably some people are capable of that. I got on medicine after a month of fighting it. But it has been worse at times before the medicine. But over all better.

[Ahlstrom]

Yeah frank I agree, Im much better off on meds than not. 90% of my anxiety is gone and it's been forever since I was depressed.

[JCX]

My therapist told me to just get over it. He told me "what if theres not anything?" Theres a bigger probability of something not happenijg to you then happening. For some reason that sparked me out of having anxiety attacks. Instead its just thoughts now that I brush off. At least these couple of days so far. Who knows lol

[Dcoito]

That's awesome!

[raggamuffin]

If you don't feed the thoughts with fear and worry then anxiety has nothing to latch onto and you don't wind up in the downward spiral of anxious rumination, symptoms, pains, panics etc.

Ed

[kelliesean]

Yeah frank I agree, Im much better off on meds than not. 90% of my anxiety is gone and it's been forever since I was depressed.

I agree.. The meds make it possible to have enough sanity to focus and then we do actually retrain our brains under those circumstances.. We become more and more confident w each successful experience., not to say that it lasts forever lol.. But thank goodness ..

But this is most probably true for those w severe anxiety and depression, as I have severe., maybe people having moderate to light anxiety and depression have more capability to retrain on their own..

[JCX]

I just had an anxiety attack in class... my fear of going crazy and doing something bad to myself came back and almost started crying in class in fear that I would become suicidal or something :(


Af least my anxiety attacks arent lasting as lng though!

Does anyone feel like their body aches though?!?!?

[raggamuffin]

Body aches are extremely common. Your body is exhausted from the fear and worry and the fight or flight response kicking in daily. The ecess of adrenaline in the muscles over prolonged periods of times can literaly make nearly any body part ache.

Read about anxiety, understand how it's affecting you/ Accept it's anxiety. Work out where your stresses and fears are. Do your best to rationalize them. Remove the fear and worry and anxiety has no fuel to continue burning and over time will reduce.

Ed

[JCX]

Seeing my therapist in 15 mins. Hopefully all goes well

[kelliesean]

I just had an anxiety attack in class... my fear of going crazy and doing something bad to myself came back and almost started crying in class in fear that I would become suicidal or something :(

Af least my anxiety attacks arent lasting as lng though!

Does anyone feel like their body aches though?!?!?

I almost always cry right after a true anxiety attack..

[maliyasmummy]

You won't take your life because you've got your whole life ahead of you my friend commited suicide on Saturday and it just makes you realise how precious life really is

[kelliesean]

You won't take your life because you've got your whole life ahead of you my friend commited suicide on Saturday and it just makes you realise how precious life really is

On Saturday??? Wow.. That's crazy!

Sorry for your loss.

[JCX]

Anxiety, a bit of depression and a case of ADD is what my therapist thinks so far.


-________-

[kelliesean]

Anxiety, a bit of depression and a case of ADD is what my therapist thinks so far.

-________-

Yeah.. Having anxiety can make us depressed lol..

I'm happy for you that u have a diagnosis.. Thts a great start.. Now you can get on to recovery :-)

[em1]

Anxiety, a bit of depression and a case of ADD is what my therapist thinks so far.

-________-

How are you going with it ? Does it help you?

[em1]

You won't take your life because you've got your whole life ahead of you my friend commited suicide on Saturday and it just makes you realise how precious life really is

Oh that's really sad,was they ill?

[kelliesean]

Hi em1 xoxo :-)))

[em1]

Hi em1 xoxo :-)))

Hi ya kelliesean :) how's you today? Lovely new
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[kelliesean]

Hi ya kelliesean :) how's you today? Lovely new
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Haha! Thanks em1.. A make up artist did my make up that day.. Cha cha! Lol

I'm doing very well!! How r u? :)

[em1]

Haha! Thanks em1.. A make up artist did my make up that day.. Cha cha! Lol

I'm doing very well!! How r u? :)

Well it's lovely :)
Yes I'm doing fab how are you doing?

[kelliesean]

Well it's lovely :)
Yes I'm doing fab how are you doing?

Thank you!! Yeah I'm doing great!

[JCX]

You are gorgeous btw kellie! :)

[kelliesean]

You are gorgeous btw kellie! :)

Oh my goodness.. Thanks JCX :-))

[Vannie05]

Oh my goodness.. Thanks JCX :-))

Lol !!!!! I agree with JCX !! :-)

[kelliesean]

Wow! You guys are doing wonders for my depression ;) haha.. Too kind :)

[Dcoito]

I also agree! Beautiful!

[kelliesean]

☺☺☺.. Thank you..

[RAIDER805]

I also agree... Lol

[kelliesean]

😄.. This is too funny :-).. But thanks!

[str8trippin]

I think everyone here is really beautiful! But you really are, Kellie!

[frankzito]

I didn't know it was ok to say things like here. Yep, Kellie is very pretty! And so are others as well, not being shallow here either . Wink wink

[kelliesean]

Yes. It seems a few weeks ago some of us have sort of made this thread a sort of chat room haha.. Very cool :)

Yeah.. I have seen many beautiful avatars :-)

[frankzito]

It's a good thread lol ;-)

[kelliesean]

It's a good thread lol ;-)

I think so too :))

[em1]

I think so too :))

You see I'm never wrong kelliesean lol

[kelliesean]

You see I'm never wrong kelliesean lol

Lol em1! I'll keep that in mind :)

[em1]

Lol em1! I'll keep that in mind :)

You do that lol

[kelliesean]

You do that lol

😃😀😀☺☺😉 lol

[kelliesean]

Oops.. Emoticons didn't really show up so well..

[Dcoito]

Nope just your beautiful self, keep it shining girl!

[JCX]

Okay im going all off topic here (sorry guys) but is it normal to be this afraid of going suicidal?!?!?

[kelliesean]

Okay im going all off topic here (sorry guys) but is it normal to be this afraid of going suicidal?!?!?

I have had a lot of experience w feeling like I wd kill myself.. I think some of you may have read/heard me going on about that..

It's all part of our disorder..

[frankzito]

It goes through all our minds at one point or another. The last thing I would wanna ever do, but have thought about it. Not about doing, but just suicide.

[kelliesean]

Yeah.. There is "I'm so miserable that I want to die.." Sort of depression suicidal thts.. Which I have felt, but never set out to take action or even thought about how I wd do it..

But then there is the anxious/OCD kind of "oh crap.. Im flipping out!! Damn! I think I might uncontrollably kill myself!! Omg.. I hope I don't! What if I do? OMG I'm going to!"

Or at least that's what I have experiences smh., lol..

I have a lot of experience w the anxious suicidal type thts.. And some w the first..

[frankzito]

Yeah.. There is "I'm so miserable that I want to die.." Sort of depression suicidal thts.. Which I have felt, but never set out to take action or even thought about how I wd do it..

But then there is the anxious/OCD kind of "oh crap.. Im flipping out!! Damn! I think I might uncontrollably kill myself!! Omg.. I hope I don't! What if I do? OMG I'm going to!"

Or at least that's what I have experiences smh., lol..

I have a lot of experience w the anxious suicidal type thts.. And some w the first..

Yeah, I haven't felt the second one yet. Hope I don't !

[JCX]

Yeah the second one is like me kellie. Today I had thoughts of what if I went suicidal... I even pictured myself doing it like an image In my head. Thrn i freaked out. Is that normal??? :(

Its never been im so depressed that I want to die.

[kelliesean]

Yeah the second one is like me kellie. Today I had thoughts of what if I went suicidal... I even pictured myself doing it like an image In my head. Thrn i freaked out. Is that normal??? :(

Its never been im so depressed that I want to die.

Normal is tricky lol.. But people like us would say that it's par for the course w this kind of illness..

The thing you really have to remember is that most people respond very well to therapy and/or medications luckily.. And so you don't have to "live with it"..
Even just look at me and em1 being examples for you right here before your eyes.. About 6 weeks ago I created my account here bc I was losing my mind and needed to talk to like minded people.. And same is true for em..
And I was just starting back w my meds.. Still 3 weeks in I had an insane anxiety attack.. And generalized anxiety most of the time everyday, and woke up t about 2 am every morning shaking.. Desperately trying to get my mind off my anxiety (insanity).. And then a few days later it got better.. And better.. And better.. And now I am 6 weeks in.. And I feel normal again..
I don't want to jinx anything here!! Lol.. But I'm just trying to tell you that you do have an illness.. BUT it's incredibly treatable :)

[JCX]

Thankfully. How long do you think till im on meds? Do you think my therapist will even put me on any meds? :S

[kelliesean]

Thankfully. How long do you think till im on meds? Do you think my therapist will even put me on any meds? :S

Hmmm.. Well, you could ask if he thinks you will need meds in order to start feeling better..
If he is a psychiatrist he will be able to prescribe them to you.. Otherwise he can refer u to one..

:)))

[em1]

Thankfully. How long do you think till im on meds? Do you think my therapist will even put me on any meds? :S

Kelliesean is right JCX we are both living Proof that you can get better and it's not just to do with Meds it's to do with your mind set and knowing your going to get better and you will

[kelliesean]

Kelliesean is right JCX we are both living Proof that you can get better and it's not just to do with Meds it's to do with your mind set and knowing your going to get better and you will

Absolutely.. Positive mind set is definitely key..

[kelliesean]

Yeah, I haven't felt the second one yet. Hope I don't !

Lol.. Yeah I have had major issues w the second one grrrrr .. But I'm good for now :)

[frankzito]

Lol.. Yeah I have had major issues w the second one grrrrr .. But I'm good for now :)

Well, I hope don't anymore! :-) when I go, I hope it's in my sleep, and I never know...

[frankzito]

Well, I hope don't anymore! :-) when I go, I hope it's in my sleep, and I never know...

I need to proofread more. Left out a they there

[kelliesean]

I need to proofread more. Left out a they there

Hahaha! It's just the way of the world now!! Lol I almost always have typos.. Small keyboards and being in a rush :)

[frankzito]

Hahaha! It's just the way of the world now!! Lol I almost always have typos.. Small keyboards and being in a rush :)

The sad thing is, I did it again! Should of said YOU instead of they :-/ lol your right little keyboards and rushing

[kelliesean]

The sad thing is, I did it again! Should of said YOU instead of they :-/ lol your right little keyboards and rushing

I hear ya! Lol.. I don't throw stones.. Lol

[frankzito]

Maybe I do have a little OCD

[JCX]

Proud of myself! I stopped my biggest fear from taking over today :)

[kelliesean]

Maybe I do have a little OCD

Goodness knows I do lol

[kelliesean]

Proud of myself! I stopped my biggest fear from taking over today :)

How so? That's cool :)

[frankzito]

Proud of myself! I stopped my biggest fear from taking over today :)

Good news!

[JCX]

Idk I kept telling myself its just anxkety and calm the eff down... it happened although it was hard as heck... hopefully I can get better :/

[kelliesean]

Idk I kept telling myself its just anxkety and calm the eff down... it happened although it was hard as heck... hopefully I can get better :/

U will.. :)

[JCX]

Thank You! Lets hope so :)

[JCX]

Has anyone ever felt like their neck and lower part of head is heavy?

[str8trippin]

Has anyone ever felt like their neck and lower part of head is heavy?

I feel like this on a daily basis!

[Ryaan]

Yeah... Noticed ur posts were at "666" and had a panic attack, so lets make it 667.

[kelliesean]

Yeah... Noticed ur posts were at "666" and had a panic attack, so lets make it 667.

Haha.. That's funny

[Dcoito]

Lol. Superstitious I guess! Good call

[JCX]

Me and my young bro are about to go seen "pacific rim" but im knda afraid or idk wtf im feeling.... fucking hell im a guy scared to watch a action movie -.-


I used to be Mister Fearless, wtf happened? :(

[Dcoito]

You still are! So enjoy the movie!

[Ryaan]

Lol i check my phone at 9:11 every single day, it never fails, ill pull my phone out of nowhere and its 9:11, same thing with 666 see it everywhere.

[mkeenan]

Me and my young bro are about to go seen "pacific rim" but im knda afraid or idk wtf im feeling.... fucking hell im a guy scared to watch a action movie -.-


I used to be Mister Fearless, wtf happened? :(

I used to be a bad ass dude. i fought alot and did alot of crazy shit. now my wife has to watch scary movies with the kids while im upstairs watching teenage dramas lol. so i can relate when you say WTF HAPPENED. It sucks

[kelliesean]

I used to watch scary movies and they always freaked me out.. And I always tried to "face" my fears and wk through them.. Then my psychiatrist was like "Kellie- stop watching scary movies.." Lol.. And I don't. For me I'm fine w it..

I also used to get freaked the hell out being in movie theaters- anxiety wd run so high.. And I think the overall dark, combined w all the intensity and drama of the previews followed by the action packed movie just had my feeling extra sensitive to anxiety.. I wd have to leave the theater many times..

Now I go to the movies and everything is fine :-)))

However I DO NOT watch movies that upset me.. But you guys don't have to worry about feeling like you're not masculine etc.. U don't have to explain yourselves to anyone .. Just say "I like funny movies-and that's all.." Lol

JCX.. I can relate to your feeling so defeated.. I used to feel like that too.. Every time I have had a bad bout of anxiety I feel like a weak failure who is not a functioning member of society..
But I'm telling you therapy and meds help that amazingly too!! There is so much good waiting for you..

:-))

[frankzito]

Can't remember last time saw a movie at a theater. The first Jurassic park lol I'm still a hard ass at work, other than that I wanna be on the couch withy cat

[JCX]

Cant stop thinking about depression and treatment. Wtf cant keep my mind off it. Also cant get happy about things. Idk if its just me thinking I cant get happy :(

[Dcoito]

Kinda hard not to think of something as your going through things. It's gonna happen! The key is not to dwell on it to long! Replace it quickly with something else!

[JCX]

It seems impossible :(

I feel like Im getting worse!

[kelliesean]

Yeah.. Having terrible anxiety or depression bouts are traumatic.. And then we are horrified that it might happen again.. So it's always on our minds during those times..

You will be able to move past it.. Hard to believe right now I'm sure.. But you will..

[kelliesean]

It seems impossible :(

I feel like Im getting worse!

But you're in therapy now.. Your therapist will guide you toward the proper treatment for you.. So you will be getting better.. But it's hard right now..

[kelliesean]

And for me it was almost impossible to stop worrying and thinking and obsessing.. It was very overwhelming and stressful.. It really is..

But I got so so much better.. And u can too..

[JCX]

Thank you Kellie ♥

I have a therapy session today. Should I ask my therapist if we can move faster?

[kelliesean]

Thank you Kellie ♥

I have a therapy session today. Should I ask my therapist if we can move faster?

No problem JCX :)

Hmm.. Well I guess it wouldn't hurt for you to ask him what he felt you guys would be doing to help you.. What his plan of action is..

I know my dr didn't prescribe me meds until I saw him a few times, bc he was still trying to figure out what my diagnosis was..

So happy your following through w all of this :)

[JCX]

Srvere adhd with anxiety :S

[kelliesean]

Srvere adhd with anxiety :S

Well.. That's treatable thankfully :-))

[JCX]

Pretty bad anxiety today but im way too used to it now to actually give a crap lol.

[frankzito]

Pretty bad anxiety today but im way too used to it now to actually give a crap lol.

It's pretty much annoying, more than anything with me anymore

[kelliesean]

Pretty bad anxiety today but im way too used to it now to actually give a crap lol.

Me and em were thinking about you JCX.. Hope you are feeling ok, and that you are getting better :)

[JCX]

Thanks Kellie :)

Yeah much better. Still with anxiety but its manageable at least lol.
How have you been? :)

[kelliesean]

Thanks Kellie :)

Yeah much better. Still with anxiety but its manageable at least lol.
How have you been? :)

I am doing remarkably better since I started the Zoloft again, about 8 weeks ago. I am right now about 140 miles from home- in the mountains visiting family.. I had to drive over the George washington bridge and the throgs neck bridge in NY.. Which is a HUGE feat for me as I am very agoraphobic when I am having a bad time... And bridges are impossible for me when I am in an anxious mode- it's crazy lol..
It took at 4 weeks to begin feeling relief from anxiety etc... But little by little I am better :)..

I still get a tht here and there- but (knock on wood) no anxiety attacks.. No generalized anxiety.. And I am able to push the thoughts away much easier..

I'm glad your much better :))

[Dcoito]

That is so awesome ! Keep up with all the positives !

[kelliesean]

That is so awesome ! Keep up with all the positives !

Thanks Dcoito.. It feels amazing to have some peace and sanity restored! Whewww!!

How r u doing?? :)

[Dcoito]

Doing really well! I have my small moments, but I overcome them fast! I started back to work again last Sunday! A lot of new faces there. So I'm still adjusting. The heat has been tuff! I came down with a virus, that has a barking cough, and heavy chest, and stuffed up head. So all this humidity really sux! But pushing though it! Weather looks much better for tomorrow! Yay!

[kelliesean]

Doing really well! I have my small moments, but I overcome them fast! I started back to work again last Sunday! A lot of new faces there. So I'm still adjusting. The heat has been tuff! I came down with a virus, that has a barking cough, and heavy chest, and stuffed up head. So all this humidity really sux! But pushing though it! Weather looks much better for tomorrow! Yay!

Oh good! Thts great you are back to work!

I can understand how the weather and your being so sick cd affect your anxieties., grrrr

It's awesome you are feeling good in general tho :)

[Dcoito]

Oh good! Thts great you are back to work!

I can understand how the weather and your being so sick cd affect your anxieties., grrrr

It's awesome you are feeling good in general tho :)

Thx kellie! The support here has been great! I think one of the key thing to do is act quickly when anxiety comes along! Or depression. The quicker you act, the quicker you heal! I mean 2 months might seem like a long time to heal for me. But I hear a lot that suffer years. I know I'll always have anxiety, just the way I'm wired. LOL. But I no longer fear it at all! And that's a huge step to make. Glad I was able to do that! And very glad I got to meet you, and all the other people here on this forum!

HUGS!

[kelliesean]

I agree this is such a great and supportive place, and I feel a special closeness w all of the people I have connected w here :)))

That's amazing that you have battled this terrible disease on your own! Awesome :)

Xoxo

[JCX]

Proud of you D!!!! Keep it up you are doing amazing =]

[Dcoito]

Thx. ; ) I know you will be there soon too!

[VegasMel]

Hey everyone. I'm new here. I read the first 10 pages or so, and the last ten. I'm 39, and pot made me have my first panic attack as well. I also thought I was going insane. Still kinda do, but I managed a bit to realize it's the anxiety. Had anxiety since I was 17. Never been on anything, but just got prescribed Sertraline (Zoloft) two days ago. Haven't taken them yet as I'm too scared. I also was given Diazepam. Took one last night, and it helped relax me. Just wanted to say hi to all.

JCX, are you now on medication? I see you have a therapist. How's it all going?

[kelliesean]

Hey everyone. I'm new here. I read the first 10 pages or so, and the last ten. I'm 39, and pot made me have my first panic attack as well. I also thought I was going insane. Still kinda do, but I managed a bit to realize it's the anxiety. Had anxiety since I was 17. Never been on anything, but just got prescribed Sertraline (Zoloft) two days ago. Haven't taken them yet as I'm too scared. I also was given Diazepam. Took one last night, and it helped relax me. Just wanted to say hi to all.

JCX, are you now on medication? I see you have a therapist. How's it all going?

Hey Vegas :) yeah.. There is a lot of chat going on w this thread.. W awesome people!! :)

I completely understand your reluctance to take the Zoloft.. I was that way too for a while when I was younger.. But it did change my life so much for the better! I'm sure some have good and some have not so good experiences w any drugs out there.. But for me it has all been good so far..

One thing to consider is that you don't have to stay on the meds if you go on and decide you don't like. But it's worth a shot, just like anything is worth a shot when fighting anxiety., :)

[Saldav]

Mine started with my Heath and then for some reason I got it in my head that I was going to go to prison for harming my children and that really made me ill,I lost a stone in two weeks as I felt so much guilt,(why would I ever think such a thought into head) I went right away to my docs as I thought I was going metal,tho I've read so many people get crazy thoughts in there heads through anxiety,I would die for my baby's they are my whole world and make my life worth living everyday I adore them x

I would feel and think crazy thoughts too about my kids, but they are everything to me, and the reasons I live.

[dita1990]

I dont know if ive posted in the right spot, but I am just like all of you. Had a really bad panic disorder for a couple of years now... agoraphobic :(

[nicole2003]

Hi everyone I posted on this thread before glad you all are doing or at least managing the anxiety. I was doing ok but have been getting my anxiety a lot the past weeks. My therapist just upped my lexapro dosage from 10mg to 20mg. Just started taking a few days ago. I been dealing with this anxiety for the past year off and on. It just seems like its never gonna leave. When I start to feel better it last about a few weeks and then the anxiety hits and stays for weeks. It's just off and on. I feel I will never get better and the more I think of the anxiety the more it stays

[dazedd_out]

That's how I got my anxiety marijuana I start therapt august 9 I also fear seizures :/ hoping to take supplements

[VegasMel]

Hi there. Thank you so much. You are so right! I am going to try it in a few days on my day off to see how it goes. So happy to hear it helped you.

[JCX]

Hi guys back from vacation! Ive tried to keep my mind off anxiety as much as possible.

Today I had a weird convo with a friend and she kept trying to scare me into thinking "what if youre the only one that exist and were all in your head"

Ive been kinda scared and thinking what if its true. Is that anxiety or something else?!?!? :/

[Dcoito]

Well if that was true, then I'm the only one to exist and your all in my head! Of corse it's not true! Just your anxiety.

[JCX]

Well the fear with it is also that ill start believing it and become crazy or something lol.

Its stupid I know!!

Hlw have you been though??? Ive missed all you guys ♥♥♥♥

[Dcoito]

Been doing great! Don't be worried! Remember, worry is what anxiety feeds off of! It is just a silly thought, and that's all! Remember to use things that you have learned to overcome nagging thoughts! I still practice my deep breathing, and positive thinking every day! And will always continue for the rest of my life. It's just plain healthy to do so EVERYDAY. Even when I feel great. So how was your vacation? What did you do?

[kelliesean]

Hey Dcoito and JCX :)

Yeah.. When I am going through a rough time w anxiety I feel like one big sensitive raw nerve, pretty much anything suggested, anything I wd read about could freak me out and get me worrying/panicking..

Eating breakfast I would swear I would choke.. Going for a walk I would w concerned that I might over work my heart and have a heart attack.. Or tht bc I was outside in the elements I might have some crazy allergy attack and die.. While the TV is on I could become anxious about any number of things tht were being discussed on the TV.. And when I was younger I went through a phase that I was hyper focused on airplanes going over head, and I was panic stricken tht ea and EVERYONE of them was holding a bomb tht they would surely drop and kill us all.. So sometimes likes a psycho lol, I would run for cover and hold my ears smh.. And as I have said in previous posts I cd NOT watch ANY movies, not even commercials/previews about movies with ghosts or possessions.. I would become so overwhelmed with anxiety and fear that I would become possessed smh..

So.. I have learned tht the power of suggestion is AMAZING, particularly when you are OCD, and or anxious.. Everything is perceived as a threat and a horrifying possibility..

I leaned that especially when I found so much peace and sanity for so many years while in treatment.. I could finally see just how sick I was and how consuming these illnesses can be.. It is anxiety..

Glad to hear you are still doing well Dcoito :).. And I agree with what you're saying.. And even if someone is on meds (as I am now) I still have to work to avoid certain hardcore triggers and keep my mind away from obsessions etc.. Meds and positive thinking and acting are very powerful :)

[JCX]

Fucking anxiety sucks balls.

[mcboyle]

the exact same thing happened to me with smoking M.j. i used to smoke every day from 16 to about 19. one day out of no where i had a severe panic attack i litereally thought i was dying and or having a heart attack. and ever since then it was like my body knew what panic felt like so it was a lot easier for me to get to that state. im now on lexapro and my panic attacks are gone and i feel like my body is slowly learning how to manage those feelings. go to the doctor and tell him/her how youre feeling. they deal with this 100x more than you would think. also this may sound silly but what i used to use a lot when i was feeling anxious was an app on my phone called "relax lite" its a 15 minute meditation that (for me) really helped me calm down. good luck JCX i hope you start feeling better!

[fuzzylilkisses]

Fucking anxiety sucks balls.

I'm with you on that one :(

[JCX]

Problem is im not having an attack. Its just thoughts that wont go away and I think it randomly :(

[kelliesean]

Fucking anxiety sucks balls.

YEAH it does!!! Grrrr

[kelliesean]

the exact same thing happened to me with smoking M.j. i used to smoke every day from 16 to about 19. one day out of no where i had a severe panic attack i litereally thought i was dying and or having a heart attack. and ever since then it was like my body knew what panic felt like so it was a lot easier for me to get to that state. im now on lexapro and my panic attacks are gone and i feel like my body is slowly learning how to manage those feelings. go to the doctor and tell him/her how youre feeling. they deal with this 100x more than you would think. also this may sound silly but what i used to use a lot when i was feeling anxious was an app on my phone called "relax lite" its a 15 minute meditation that (for me) really helped me calm down. good luck JCX i hope you start feeling better!

Yeah.. Marijuana is one of those substances that can trigger a life time of being prone to anxiety!

I'm happy to hear that you too have had positive experiences w medication.. And that you are doing so well!

The app you brought up is a great suggestion!! :)

[kelliesean]

Problem is im not having an attack. Its just thoughts that wont go away and I think it randomly :(

Yeah.. Having that general anxiety, and/or obsessive thoughts is enough to make anyone miserable..

That sounds like OCD.. At least that was my experience w OCD.. And the meds kicked the crap out of that for me too..

[JCX]

Yeah my psychologist said anxiety and ocd walk together. They sort of feed each other.

[kelliesean]

Yeah my psychologist said anxiety and ocd walk together. They sort of feed each other.

Yeah.. That's true..

[JCX]

How have you been though kellie?

[kelliesean]

How have you been though kellie?

:-) I have been doing really well since back on Zoloft for the past 9 weeks.. Took 4 weeks for me to feel any relief tho..

I haven't had any anxiety symptoms or depression bouts..

Sometimes I have thts.. But I can push them away.. In sure that will get less and less.. And the thts don't consume me any longer..

[em1]

How have you been though kellie?

Hello JCX how's things with you?

[JCX]

Ive been good until recently em! As soon as igot back from vacation I have been crappy again :(

[em1]

Ive been good until recently em! As soon as igot back from vacation I have been crappy again :(

Oh sorry to hear that,tho I'm
Sure it's just a bump and you will be back on track soon :)

[JCX]

How have you been yourselt though? :)

[em1]

How have you been yourselt though? :)

I've been fantasic thanks :)

[JCX]

Thats so awesome :)

Hopefully I reach those same heights! Ive already been imlroving immensely. Its just when it hits its bad lol

[JCX]

Ongoing headache and brain feels clogged up :/


Also has anyone else noticed that when the weather is crappy and congested that they feel worse??

[em1]

Thats so awesome :)

Hopefully I reach those same heights! Ive already been imlroving immensely. Its just when it hits its bad lol

And you will get there,I think we have all hits lows but with every low we come back fighting stronger :) keep up the fight

[Nicbean91]

Hello, I'm Nicki and I'm 21. I'm new to this forum, and have been suffering from anxiety for around 9 months now. I'm commenting on this thread because there are lots of people involved and I want different opinions :) I started on propranolol initially, however couldn't tolerate it as I have low blood pressure and it just made me dizzy. I'm now on citalopram 20mg which has helped to a certain extent, however I'm looking to do something such as yoga or exercise as an extra relief... Does anyone have any suggestions?

Also, I suffer from what I believe is OCD in the form of locking doors and turning off appliances when I'm leaving the house... It can take me a good 20 minutes once I'm ready to leave before I can actually leave because I'm checking things... Does anyone else suffer from this? Any tips? Am I going mad, checking things over and over again?

Any help would be fantastic... Sorry for the essay :) thanks!

[JCX]

Wtfff!!! Anyone ever had a panic attack during sex?? Idk if its alcohol or what but in midlde of sex I felt like my heart was going to give away. Massive panic attack omg how embarrassed :(

[jessy]

Yep I have had an attack during sex

Embarrassing & put me off :-(

[em1]

Wtfff!!! Anyone ever had a panic attack during sex?? Idk if its alcohol or what but in midlde of sex I felt like my heart was going to give away. Massive panic attack omg how embarrassed :(

Oh you poor thing I'm sure,they understood

[sazaroo]

Hello, I'm Nicki and I'm 21. I'm new to this forum, and have been suffering from anxiety for around 9 months now. I'm commenting on this thread because there are lots of people involved and I want different opinions :) I started on propranolol initially, however couldn't tolerate it as I have low blood pressure and it just made me dizzy. I'm now on citalopram 20mg which has helped to a certain extent, however I'm looking to do something such as yoga or exercise as an extra relief... Does anyone have any suggestions?

Also, I suffer from what I believe is OCD in the form of locking doors and turning off appliances when I'm leaving the house... It can take me a good 20 minutes once I'm ready to leave before I can actually leave because I'm checking things... Does anyone else suffer from this? Any tips? Am I going mad, checking things over and over again?

Any help would be fantastic... Sorry for the essay :) thanks!

Im terrible at locking doors i lock my front door walk away, have to walk back and check it then walk away again thn go back and cheak even tho i know ive locked it and i also not only do i just cheak the handle i have to get cheaking it like ten times, tbf thats part of me now least i know my house is secure xo

[kelliesean]

Wtfff!!! Anyone ever had a panic attack during sex?? Idk if its alcohol or what but in midlde of sex I felt like my heart was going to give away. Massive panic attack omg how embarrassed :(

Never happened to me.. And I won't even think about this too much as I don't want it to happen to me.. Lol..

But I have had anxiety while working out, and I had to stop that for a while.. My heart rate going up wd freak me out.. So I can see how while you are having sex.. Heart rate going up, cd trigger an attack.

[JCX]

But I work out all the time kellie and I dont care when my heart rate goes up. I bench press a lot aswell so im used to that. Out of nowhere though it happened. She thought she did something wrong so she didnt realize I had a panic attack... so it passed off as she needed to take it easy. But I knkw what happened and its emberrasing as hell...

[kelliesean]

But I work out all the time kellie and I dont care when my heart rate goes up. I bench press a lot aswell so im used to that. Out of nowhere though it happened. She thought she did something wrong so she didnt realize I had a panic attack... so it passed off as she needed to take it easy. But I knkw what happened and its emberrasing as hell...

I'm sure it was embarrassing! Uughhhh.. What doesn't kill us ;) lol.. I'm not making fun.. Just tying to make light :)..

Well.. I'm sure someone understands this and has experienced it. I know I was reading on one thread here about a guy you has major anxiety only when he is in love...

[JCX]

Im far from being in love. This is more casual sex... which ive been making progress with because I used to find it hard to have sex with someone I didnt know well. Im over it though now thanks to my therapist lol


She was on top and for some reason I felt like a sharp pain in my heart then it felt like I pulled a heart muscle... then panic attack

[kelliesean]

Im far from being in love. This is more casual sex... which ive been making progress with because I used to find it hard to have sex with someone I didnt know well. Im over it though now thanks to my therapist lol

She was on top and for some reason I felt like a sharp pain in my heart then it felt like I pulled a heart muscle... then panic attack

I'm sure it's related to anxiety.. Sometimes it really does just pop up unexpected and seemingly for no reason. I can related to the symptoms you have described for sure..

[em1]

Im far from being in love. This is more casual sex... which ive been making progress with because I used to find it hard to have sex with someone I didnt know well. Im over it though now thanks to my therapist lol

She was on top and for some reason I felt like a sharp pain in my heart then it felt like I pulled a heart muscle... then panic attack

That's really good progress JCX
I did try and message you but your in box is full

[kelliesean]

They are ripped up all the hardwood floors in my house and replacing.. Whewww I am tired.. Had to be up and move last minute things around.. And my guinea pigs hate all the ruckus.. We have to have my mom pig sit for a bit lol..

I have not had a good amount of sleep.. Grrrr

[kelliesean]

*ripping typo oops

[kelliesean]

Good morning.. Or actually afternoon to you Em1 :-))

[em1]

Good morning.. Or actually afternoon to you Em1 :-))

Hi us kelliesean oh you poor thing you have got it all going on in your house today but it will
Look lovely when it's done,how are you doing?

[kelliesean]

Hi us kelliesean oh you poor thing you have got it all going on in your house today but it will
Look lovely when it's done,how are you doing?

Yes I am excited about the finished product :)))

I am doing really well.. My youngest is sick tho.. That's not at all a good time for any of us lol..

Otherwise I am mentally well :-)).. Weather has cooled thank goodness!! It was soooo hot for a while there..

How are u Em?

[JCX]

Emptied my inbox :)


Im working a 16 hour shift now with 50 minutes of sleep... last night was rough. Too much partying then a panic attack to top it off with -.-

[em1]

Yes I am excited about the finished product :)))

I am doing really well.. My youngest is sick tho.. That's not at all a good time for any of us lol..

Otherwise I am mentally well :-)).. Weather has cooled thank goodness!! It was soooo hot for a while there..

How are u Em?

Oh that's not nice when the little ones are ill :(
Yes the weather here is so much more cooler to tho we have had rain with it which is rubbish lol
Yes I'm goodddddd :)

[kelliesean]

Glad to hear you're good Em :)

[em1]

Glad to hear you're good Em :)

Yes and you to kelliesean,u was saying to JCX that I don't think I need my Meds anymore as I've never been on anything be4 and was feeling better be4 they even stared to work but I will see what she says this week when I go to see her :)