Gatsby
05-22-2013, 03:24 PM
Well, my therapist (who is a resident in psychology) consulted her supervisor, another therapist in the building, of my experiences and "condition" if you will. She informed the other doctor about my depersonalization disorder and anxiety disorder as well as the depression I have as a result of the anxiety. At the start of my 2nd CBT appointment, my therapist sat me down and said that her and the other doctor both agree that a medicinal path would be beneficial to me. She said an anti-depressant with something that aids anxiety (it starts with an "e"... I can't remember! :( ) would be ideal for me in order to control ruminating thoughts.
My therapist sent a referral for prescriptions to my general physician stating that I met the criteria for 2 anxiety disorders. My GP is VERY hesitant to give me anti-depressants (maybe because I'm 16? I have no sweet clue!) and insists that I progress through therapy. He's insisting on a progress report. My therapist, at the following appointment, was kind of confused as she was under the impression that he would prescribe me an anti-depressant as she suggested in the report. She wants to keep doing sessions and if we find that things are not improving or not improving at the desired pace, she will write another referral.
I have told my therapist though that even with the techniques I still feel down, anxious, and like nothing's working as it should. This also makes me feel guilty because these methods SHOULD be working, right? :( She stressed the emphasis of being assertive with her and my GP. She told me that I have the right to have my needs met and she told me that next time, with another referral, if he is still resisting, to be assertive and tell him (politely!) that I'm not fully satisfied with the CBT and feel that extra measures should ne taken regarding my therapy.
After the appointment with my GP refusing me meds, I actually cried as soon as I walked back into the waiting area. That morning I had a panic attack before school which NEVER happened to me before so all throughout that anxiety-filled day, the one thing I was looking forward to was that appointment where I would actually be helped with prescriptions that would aid my thoughts. My therapist said she understood why I cried and was angry and she told me not to think of that incident as a "tantrum" as I deemed it. It was like a door of opportunity was shut right in my face, y'know? Meh, I don't know. Maybe I'm a drama queen?
Anyway, I was just wondering, should I bring up to my therapist that these past 2 weeks that I haven't seen her have been really tough? Should I show her my mood diaries? Should I insist on my thoughts of feeling the need of medication! I'm so confused! I'm scared of assertion and conflict, especially with adults! :( I just want everyone to be happy with me!
My therapist sent a referral for prescriptions to my general physician stating that I met the criteria for 2 anxiety disorders. My GP is VERY hesitant to give me anti-depressants (maybe because I'm 16? I have no sweet clue!) and insists that I progress through therapy. He's insisting on a progress report. My therapist, at the following appointment, was kind of confused as she was under the impression that he would prescribe me an anti-depressant as she suggested in the report. She wants to keep doing sessions and if we find that things are not improving or not improving at the desired pace, she will write another referral.
I have told my therapist though that even with the techniques I still feel down, anxious, and like nothing's working as it should. This also makes me feel guilty because these methods SHOULD be working, right? :( She stressed the emphasis of being assertive with her and my GP. She told me that I have the right to have my needs met and she told me that next time, with another referral, if he is still resisting, to be assertive and tell him (politely!) that I'm not fully satisfied with the CBT and feel that extra measures should ne taken regarding my therapy.
After the appointment with my GP refusing me meds, I actually cried as soon as I walked back into the waiting area. That morning I had a panic attack before school which NEVER happened to me before so all throughout that anxiety-filled day, the one thing I was looking forward to was that appointment where I would actually be helped with prescriptions that would aid my thoughts. My therapist said she understood why I cried and was angry and she told me not to think of that incident as a "tantrum" as I deemed it. It was like a door of opportunity was shut right in my face, y'know? Meh, I don't know. Maybe I'm a drama queen?
Anyway, I was just wondering, should I bring up to my therapist that these past 2 weeks that I haven't seen her have been really tough? Should I show her my mood diaries? Should I insist on my thoughts of feeling the need of medication! I'm so confused! I'm scared of assertion and conflict, especially with adults! :( I just want everyone to be happy with me!