DDW056
04-13-2013, 05:26 PM
Okay, so I have been sick for over 2 months (nausea, loss of appetite, upper and lower abdominal pain/discomfort, digestion issues, depression, anxiety and fatigue). I have been to the ER once where they ran a series of tests and I later went to a free clinic where the doctor felt around my stomach for abnormalities and prescribed me Lexapro (been on the lexipro for a little over a week now)
I have had anxiety before in life as well pretty severe anxiety, , but never anxiety like i have now where it can be so severe as well as last all day long. Some days it seems like it is there almost 24/7 and I don't know what to do to turn it off, , I've tried meditating, guided meditation, exercise... but none of these things seem to help, , it's like my anxiety has a mind of it's own. The thing that causes me the most anxiety (possibly the only thing) is my sickness... Sometimes I'll feel fine, almost completely normal, , but then once I start feeling pain or feeling sick, then my anxiety comes along with it...
My question is, how do I break the cycle!? This is madness.... I just want to feel normal again but I am soooooo miserable everyday. The worst thing is too is that a lot of times in the evening by the time I go to bed I feel okay, almost normal, but every single morning without fail I wake up sick and with that comes the worrying, the fear, the anxiety... I actually thought last night (I felt good and almost normal for 6 hours before bed time) what if I just didn't go to bed, , what if I just stayed up and waited this out, , cause I know that once I wake up in the morning I am going to feel completely horrible again, , would that work? I am at the end of my rope with this and I just want to go back to feeling like normal, , normal sounds so wonderful...
I have had anxiety before in life as well pretty severe anxiety, , but never anxiety like i have now where it can be so severe as well as last all day long. Some days it seems like it is there almost 24/7 and I don't know what to do to turn it off, , I've tried meditating, guided meditation, exercise... but none of these things seem to help, , it's like my anxiety has a mind of it's own. The thing that causes me the most anxiety (possibly the only thing) is my sickness... Sometimes I'll feel fine, almost completely normal, , but then once I start feeling pain or feeling sick, then my anxiety comes along with it...
My question is, how do I break the cycle!? This is madness.... I just want to feel normal again but I am soooooo miserable everyday. The worst thing is too is that a lot of times in the evening by the time I go to bed I feel okay, almost normal, but every single morning without fail I wake up sick and with that comes the worrying, the fear, the anxiety... I actually thought last night (I felt good and almost normal for 6 hours before bed time) what if I just didn't go to bed, , what if I just stayed up and waited this out, , cause I know that once I wake up in the morning I am going to feel completely horrible again, , would that work? I am at the end of my rope with this and I just want to go back to feeling like normal, , normal sounds so wonderful...