Cara1989
04-03-2013, 02:05 AM
I dont know where to start everyday is a struggle to make it through my vision is messed up my breathing is messed up everything is messed up my reality everything i feel like i dont know what normal is and ill never get back to normal :( this fucking sucks its almost been a year dealing with this bullshit...Ive been taking xanax i dont want to become addicted but damn i have to take it or i feel panicy every day its the same thing! i'm so scared i have a mri on the 16th to make sure its nothing wrong in there i have really really bad depresionlization and derealization really really bad i litterally feel like im not in my bady like my legs arent mine and my hands and arms its soooo weird still trying to cope the best i can its really really getting to me everything feels strange everything is strange i wish i could go back to just having panic attacks every once in while instead of this shit :( i dont know how to get better no therapist can help me i guess cant see a damn psychitrist til my mri i dont know what to do anymore i have 2 babies and i struggle every damn day to take care of them i feel like im going insane all the damn time i take a xanax sometimes i feel alright sometimes i dont lately ive been soooo scared i have ms because of how my hands and legs feel plus my vision and its freaking me out :/ i just dont know what to do anymore