Being controlling, dominating and judgemental

[ScaredDan]

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[jessed03]

You know; Some people have told me I'm the most judgemental person they've met.

It does hurt me to hear that, as I just don't judge people at all. When you judge somebody, deep down you're lacking commonality. You're lacking understanding of that person and their lifestyle. I question people a lot, and repeat things they say. I ask them questions about why they do it, and ask if they would consider doing something differently. All of this though, isn't in a judgemental way. I'm actually trying to get that understanding of people. It does sound the same as sort of your grandma would do it though. "Why are you doing it this way" "Whats the point"... "Why are you.../Why do you..." But there is no judgement in my mind when I find out people motivations. I just have a deep curiousity in getting to know them below the social façade they put up.

I could never judge, or try to control someone. My grandfather was a very abusive, judgemental and controlling man, especially to my late grandmother.

I really have no urge to judge and control people now. I have a big person in my life already to dominate; Myself. Not because I'm bragging, but because I have so many personality flaws, so many bad habits and so many short comings.

I hate it when I'm not on time, I hate it when I make stupid decisions, I hate it when I don't express myself clearly, I hate it when my enthusiasm could be better, I hate that I haven't stepped up to the level in life that I know I'm capable of.

I have to fight to control myself. I have a battle to control myself against laziness. I have to fight to stop myself getting complacent. I have to fight to stop myself getting jealous of others who are better than me at what they do.

I'm 23 right now, and my career is fantastic. I work at a top salesfirm, right in the heart of the city. My sales numbers are some of the best in the whole company. Do you know how tempting it is for me, to sit sit back, keep doing what I'm doing, and cruise through a comfortable and pleasant life?

I have to dominate over all of that stuff. When I'm a little intimidated by something, and I go through it regardless, when I feel I'm not good at something, but instead of quitting, I stick to it, and master it, it's an intense thrill. When I control myself and dominate fear, laziness and complacency - It's a great feeling. I imagine it's the same feeling my Grandfather got, when he controlled my Grandma.

Most people don't want to get in your way, as much as you want to get in your own way.

[jessed03]

LOL Dan!! I'm not full of myself :) I'm confident, but I'm shy sometimes too. I just enjoy having fun, and being honest and open. I can seem arrogant, but it's only because I've accepted my flaws. I've accepted my imperfections. Not because I have an ego, I let that go a long time ago :)

Infact, I'm so down to earth, that when I die, I'd like the word humble... written on my statue! Hahaa. I joke! I joke!