I Just Want To Be "Normal"

[Hopeful29]

Hi Everyone, This is my first time posting on here. A little about me...I'm 29, married, no kids yet, I starting having anxiety about 3 years ago when my husband had his first seizure. It happened in the middle of the night and I was terrified. After that he had a few more and had to go on medication. The medication he was on started to shut his liver down and he almost died. After that it was like I was constantly worrying and afraid something bad would happen. I would be scared to go to sleep at night and I would wake up every single morning and have this horrible feeling. After awhile I would start getting it while I was driving. I would feel dizzy and think what if I pass out, I would get the same feeling when I was in the grocery store, especially when I"m waiting in line. Sometimes I feel like I going to just have to walk out of the store and leave all of my stuff behind because I'm scared I will pass out. I feel like this has really taken over my life and I"m at a point where I just don't know what to do anymore. I talk about it with my friends and family but honestly I feel like they don't understand. I would give anything to just be "normal" again, to have just one day where I didn't worry or feel anxious. I'm hoping to find a few new friends here who understand what I'm going through and hopefully give me some advice on things that have helped them. Thank you for taking the time to read this!!

[kelsta]

Hi, I'm a fellow panic / anxiety sufferer. I'm 35 & have had this horrible thing since I was 16... I know all too well what u are going through. However I could not get by each day without my medication. I'm on Zoloft. It helps greatly. My panic attacks seem to occur really full on when I go through bad bouts of stress. My body can't seem to handle it. I'm having a bad episode at the moment where I can't drive or go to shopping centres. I'm fighting it but it's hard... You are not alone. The best thing I could suggest u do is speak to your doctor about your fears & how u are feeling...

[rhar]

Hi, I suffer the exact same feelings as you. I feel faint ALL the time and constantly worry I will pass out. It's all I think about.

It's horrible and I too long to be "normal" again.

When it first started I convinced myself I had a brain tumour!!!

I also have weird sensations when walking at times, like I feel like I can't walk or that I might fall over... I hate it :(

[Brittany1995]

I have feelings like that in the check out line. I don't like to stay still. Moving helps clear my mind. That's why sleeping at night tends to suck.

[rhar]

I have feelings like that in the check out line. I don't like to stay still. Moving helps clear my mind. That's why sleeping at night tends to suck.

Moving helps me too! Which isn't great when you work at a computer all day!!!!

[Brittany1995]

Moving helps me too! Which isn't great when you work at a computer all day!!!!

I've also convinced myself that I have brain problems, too! Because sometimes I'd wake up and parts of my body would be numb or tingly. But since I've been on medicine, and can fall asleep peacefully, I haven't. But I would literally lay an bed and cry, because I was 100% sure there was something wrong with my brain. And I'd get bad stress headaches.

[Jamie Matthewman]

Hi Hopeful,

I have a free e-book that might help you with the worrying, if you'd like a copy let me know and I'll send you one. :)

Jamie

[omoplata]

Hi Hopeful,

I have a free e-book that might help you with the worrying, if you'd like a copy let me know and I'll send you one. :)

Jamie

Whats the name of this e-book?

[ally]

Hi I'm so sorry to hear how bad you are, I'm currently suffering from anxiety and depression and can relate to lots you have put, it's a horrible illness, I'm currently taking mirtazapine 45mg at night and just started today on 10 mg of citalopram, I use to take citalopram 20mg daily for about 4/5 years up until I had this bad episode only this last December, but I couldn't handle the 40mg increase on the citalopram and was taken straight off it and put onto the mirtazapine, started on 15mg till now I'm on 45, the side effects are not good though and im still really suffering with terrible nausea, and the anxiety is through the roof especially first thing and I can feel panicky for most of the day, I've been told I can take diazepram 5mg up to twice a day, which I do but usually just try to take one dose, all this is so incredibly hard and my husband and 3 children are really affected too, has anyone else had any experiences of these medications taken together? I feel so isolated with this:(

[rhar]

Hi Hopeful,

I have a free e-book that might help you with the worrying, if you'd like a copy let me know and I'll send you one. :)

Jamie

I'd love a copy too please!!!

[ally]

Can I have a copy too please x

[stephanie21]

Wow! Everything you wrote I go through as well! I can't give any great advice because I need help taking my medication I'm scared of it.... But just know u are not alone! That's why I love this forum I feel like a lot of people can relate.... No one understands the awful feelings until they have it!! I can't talk to my friends an fam about it they think I'm crazy

[moonchild1986]

I'm so glad a found this thread. I too have this fear of passing out. It's ruining my life. Just start CBT and its helping but the dizziness and weird sensations when I'm walking sometimes is unbearable

[rhar]

I'm so glad a found this thread. I too have this fear of passing out. It's ruining my life. Just start CBT and its helping but the dizziness and weird sensations when I'm walking sometimes is unbearable

I get this too... What sensations do you get when walking??

[moonchild1986]

I often feel like I'm of balance. Sometimes I feel like I'm 3 ft tall lol I love anxiety !! :(

[rhar]

Yeah I feel off balance too. Sometimes I feel like I will fall over or my legs won't work

[kelsta]

How do I get a copy of this e book

[omoplata]

How do I get a copy of this e book

Still asking what is the name of this e-book and who is it by? Anybody?

[rhar]

I got a reply from him with this website


www.stopanxietynow.com

[rhar]

Sorry it's

www.howtostopanxietynow.com

[rhar]

Apparently the e book is on there but I haven't been able to locate it as yet??!!!!

[omoplata]

I just looked at the website....looks like a sales pitch.