FordingTheWaters
03-05-2013, 09:31 PM
I saw my GP today for a follow up. He's trying to get me into a high caliber psychiatric center in the city I live in. It's taking time...even a referral and that he knows people there doesn't even guarantee that I'll be seen.
While he reassured me that I don't seem like I'm a threat to myself or anybody, that I seemed perfectly articulate and self aware (his words, because I asked him for reassurance) he did say that I seem to be in a constant state of unrest.
He perscribed me Zoloft, 50mg. I'm afraid to start because Idk how it will work for me. I told him that I don't think I'm depressed, just severely anxious. And since he already said it may make me feel temporarily like not myself, that worries me. If I feel any less like myself I'm not gonna be sane. I feel barely sane... maybe it's just the anxiety talking. I HOPE it is...
Extreme derealization, some degree of deprsonalization, constant fatigue, dizzyness, irrational fears, fear of anxiety becoming schizo, fear of losing control, fear of sleeping, strong health anxiety, strong agoraphobia which I never had, no concept of time (actually tho, my doc said I seem to have a strong concept of time), everything looks strange, very strong sensitivity to motion and sound... I'm putting myself out there now. But that's how I'm feeling. Am I losing it?
So yea, is Zoloft really the answer? Should I just take small doses first to see how it makes me feel?
I'm just plagued by the "what if" bug. Help
** I did take Zoloft when I was younger and it worked well for me. But my body chemistry may be different from how it was then. I was a young teen then, I'm a young adult now. And back then I didn't have anxiety, I was in a deep depression.**
While he reassured me that I don't seem like I'm a threat to myself or anybody, that I seemed perfectly articulate and self aware (his words, because I asked him for reassurance) he did say that I seem to be in a constant state of unrest.
He perscribed me Zoloft, 50mg. I'm afraid to start because Idk how it will work for me. I told him that I don't think I'm depressed, just severely anxious. And since he already said it may make me feel temporarily like not myself, that worries me. If I feel any less like myself I'm not gonna be sane. I feel barely sane... maybe it's just the anxiety talking. I HOPE it is...
Extreme derealization, some degree of deprsonalization, constant fatigue, dizzyness, irrational fears, fear of anxiety becoming schizo, fear of losing control, fear of sleeping, strong health anxiety, strong agoraphobia which I never had, no concept of time (actually tho, my doc said I seem to have a strong concept of time), everything looks strange, very strong sensitivity to motion and sound... I'm putting myself out there now. But that's how I'm feeling. Am I losing it?
So yea, is Zoloft really the answer? Should I just take small doses first to see how it makes me feel?
I'm just plagued by the "what if" bug. Help
** I did take Zoloft when I was younger and it worked well for me. But my body chemistry may be different from how it was then. I was a young teen then, I'm a young adult now. And back then I didn't have anxiety, I was in a deep depression.**