One step back

[mellymel]

I have been doing better, but for some reason I am a mess today. I am back to being afraid of being alone with my daughter, I'm shaky, crying on and off, my disturbing thoughts are racing, and I'm just afraid.

[SunnieDebris]

Try to be good to yourself. Call a friend or relative and talk with them on the phone, if you can. You can also journal your thoughts and feelings. Don't judge yourself so harshly. Recovery is a give and take, and there are bound to be setbacks. Just try to breathe and know that you are doing your best.

[mellymel]

Thank you both. Forwells, I'm not sure what upset me but most likely thinking too much. I started to think of my OCD getting worse and from there I started to wonder if my thoughts of hurting my daughter are urges and that scared me so bad I went onto a small panic attack.

[mellymel]

Urges are common with OCD thoughts and in afraid I won't be able to control it. It scares me so bad. The last thing I ever want to do is hurt my precious child :(

[SunnieDebris]

I think that's excellent insight and advice!