Terrified of jumping

[IRONS080]

Everyone that knows me thinks I'm scared of heights. The truth is I'm not, I'm terrified that I will jump!

If I'm up high somewhere I can't physically jump off then I'm fine. If I'm on a high balcony my mind goes into overdrive. I sometimes walk toward the edge with the intention to jump, then am so scared I nearly pass out.

Although I have anxiety issues I have no intention of 'ending it all'.

Has anyone experienced anything similar?

[harleygrl8]

Yessss! I have had morbide thoughts like that all my life.... its like u can see yourself doing it, even though u have no intention of ever doing it.... its like u can feel the feeling of it.... its very wierd! I just try n snap outta that thought and onto something else...

[IRONS080]

Have you ever actually acted out one of these thoughts?

[dazza]

The ultimate self dare, huh?

Probably quite a few folk try this... they push themselves to the limit of their fear, which is invariably a jump.

You're actually seeking the adrenaline rush by acting out the beginning or lead up to the actual event.
You'd probably do well at sky-diving or similar!

[IRONS080]

The ultimate self dare, huh?

Probably quite a few folk try this... they push themselves to the limit of their fear, which is invariably a jump.

You're actually seeking the adrenaline rush by acting out the beginning or lead up to the actual event.
You'd probably do well at sky-diving or similar!

Never thought of it like that, I used to be into extreme sports when I was younger and had a life and I miss it. You may be on to something.

So my treatment for being scared ill jump off something high is to jump out of a plane! Lol, I may just give that a try.

[dazza]

lol... DO IT! :-)

I think there's also some kinda sick curiosity going on too.

I recall a couple of occasions where I've very gently run a razor blade across my wrist... long before any anxiety started and not for any other reason but to just endulge in the thoughts of what COULD happen.
I know this sounds crazy, but it wasn't. I was completely level headed at the time... it's just acting out something that will NEVER actually occur.
It's kinda freaky knowing that you're in complete control of what COULD be a total disaster in the blink of an eye.
Perhaps there's some control element going on as well.

The upshot is: Don't worry about these thoughts, they're not an indication of a crazy mind... just a curious, highly imaginative one.

[jhunter89]

I've thought about jumping infront of moving cars.
I'd have a great excuse why I couldn't go into work lol.

[IRONS080]

You sure its not more of a What if thought fear ?.

Such as what if i crack and just jump

Yea, that's defiantly part of it, I've had plenty of 'what if I crack and....' Thoughts but none that have been this scary.

These usually induce a panic attack, meetings at work are no fun, 'what if I throw up' ' what if I shout something stupid' what if I jump on the table and get naked'. Etc etc