panic. nervous. &scary thoughts.

[its_ok_jazzy]

Hello everyone new here . Ok I'm 26yrs old living with anxiety/depression but my main concern is anxiety. And my thinking. I get all nervous going out. Talking. I avoid everyone. Have lack of motivation. I've quit school &work cuz I get overwhelmed. & don't finish anything. I worry took dam much bout other peoples feelings and reactions. I seem to do way irresponsible want not way I want nd I've lost myself I'm stuck home with my 2 kids and supportive boyfriend. Da happy confident girl he met has hidden under hats and black clothes. And in her room. Smh! And with him I've closed I get shy now worry of his thoughts why???!! I lack self esteem I guess I'm on celexa I'm up one day run wa next I'm down. No emotions I've been rude to people Tryin not to do way thy think. Run I ave guilt trips. How can I stop doin fir Lynda nd do for myself. I don't ink and I stand now. My next step been in my home not doing anything. Scared!! My nerves take over I think to much ahead or way I think will happen and tht stops me from my next step. Break out of shynes and go were way I want and how to.not take stuff so personally me being all sensitive I've noticed have hard itchy shell but yet I'm a cry baby. I hesitate answering calls. My door. Talking important places. I need my life bak. I deserve to. I ink I can but I cant!

[Presley505]

Consider the book 'facing panic' by R. Reid Wilson, PH.D. I have just started reading it and have taken matters into my own hands. I still see doctors and therapist but I still remain having server panic attacks. So I decided I would get a different perspective. Understand the panic rather than talk about panic. So in a nut shell the book shows how panic happens and how other phobias attach themselves (like agoraphobia or phobias driving). The book explains how our escapes or relief from panic attacks ( like avoiding places, staying home, not driving etc.) are only reinforces the panic. The book also details conscious and sub conscious aspects of panic. It's worth the read! I still have server panic and associated phobias and I have only just begun, my hope is to return to some sort of normal I once had.

[its_ok_jazzy]

Thank you. Yea I have few books and reading online stuff. I go to therapy and am on meds but I see its my thoughts that take over. And change my mood. Yea panic basically. Limits me. I push myself out my four but don't enjoy it. Also shy.

[dboldman]

its_ok_jazzy, obviously you have peoplpe around you that care. Take advantage of that to take small steps but keep moving forward, get hlpe, work on it, have a goal in mind. LIttle successes turn into big ones, then life gets fun again.

[MindlessMumblings]

I feel like this sometimes too! Sometimes it just feels as if it'll never end right? When you have rushing thoughts, try to do something that distracts you, like listening to music or reading a book. I'm not an expert and I barely deal with my own anxiety so I can't really give diehard advice. I don't know of any books but you've got a world of information at your fingertips! Of course, all good bookstores can reccommend good books on dealing with anxiety and panic.