So upset :-(

[aims86]

Hi everyone, I'm having a really bad day today, I'm absolutely exhausted and suffering really bad with my anxiety. I don't know what to do. I was gonna start taking my course of citalopram but I'm so scared its gonna make me worse! I have. 5 month old son and I need to get better for him. I hardly leave the house anymore! Most my days are spent crying and feeling down. I just want rid of this horrible feeling! Can't go on much longer like this. I just want to feel normal :,( x

[jess123]

Hiya I've had anxiety for about 6 years, you can have days where u feel down but you've gotta pick yourself up. I find walks help, listen to relaxing music or meditating really helps, you gotta enjoy life as life is a wonderful thing :)

[aims86]

I am terrified to go out that's the problem, nothing seems to relax me at all :-( x

[MLeFay]

me too. eek. i dont know what to do either. nothing seems to help nothing can. did you ever find that medication doesnt help and just causes new problems and makes you worse

[aims86]

I am supposed to be taking citalopram but I'm scared to as apparently it makes you worse?!? I feel so down :-( x

[juls]

Hi everyone, I'm having a really bad day today, I'm absolutely exhausted and suffering really bad with my anxiety. I don't know what to do. I was gonna start taking my course of citalopram but I'm so scared its gonna make me worse! I have. 5 month old son and I need to get better for him. I hardly leave the house anymore! Most my days are spent crying and feeling down. I just want rid of this horrible feeling! Can't go on much longer like this. I just want to feel normal :,( x

I have been there. My daughter is now 1 1/2 and I had postpartum for awhile. I cried all day, felt so low and had anxiety. I never wanted to leave the house but I felt like I really need to for my daughter. I'm still dealing with "Mommy Anxiety". It does get better. Our hormones are so out of whack after children. I was also given citalopram but never started it. I really wish I would have. I think I suffered through it and it really would have helped. Are you breastfeeding? I push myself to exercise and still have do. Something easy like relaxing yoga helps and I'm just now getting into meditating. This is so easier said then done and I still have bad days. Its ok to take it easy at home with your 5 months old. I think as moms we put pressure on being this super mom and it makes our life hell. We are still humans and can have bad day just know there are good days coming.

[aims86]

Hi Julls Thankyou for your message!
I am bottle feeding my son, I just don't feel like me at all, I feel like I can't cope no more, I wanna go out but just can't bring myself to. I feel totally exhausted and feel like I'm not capable to look after my son coz I'm so tired anxious and panicky, I wanna take my citalopram but I'm scared it's gonna make me worse, sounds silly I know but I just want a way out so I can enjoy my life and family x

[juls]

Hi Julls Thankyou for your message!
I am bottle feeding my son, I just don't feel like me at all, I feel like I can't cope no more, I wanna go out but just can't bring myself to. I feel totally exhausted and feel like I'm not capable to look after my son coz I'm so tired anxious and panicky, I wanna take my citalopram but I'm scared it's gonna make me worse, sounds silly I know but I just want a way out so I can enjoy my life and family x

You sound just like it did. I never heard of citalopram making it worse but I have never taken it. I also take Xanax as needed. I only take about 3 a month and I am really careful with it. That might help you get over the fear of taking a medication and it helps me sleep. Xanax helps with anxiety but it only covers it so you can push through. Its not a fix. Motherhood really turned me inside out. I always say the first year was the best and worst year of my life. You completely change and I got lost. It does get so much better and its hard when they are so young. Make baby steps everyday. I loved going to the library for the kid storytime. Its filled with mommy's and daddy's. Also it free. I would do like 20 minutes of a workout until I had more time. When he naps trying breathing exercises if you can't nap. I looked a bunch up on YouTube. I hope this helps a little. I am no doctor and still have low days were I stay in my PJs with my daughter. I keep in touch with my doctor and have an apt to see how things are going. You care about your son and want to get better for him. RIGHT THERE you being a good mom. Better than most.

[aims86]

Thankyou! I know my son needs me and I at least manage to care for him everyday! I do spend most days in pjs though which isn't great, I just wanna be able to go into town shopping, tried it the other day but had to come home! The day I reach the point where I feel human again and am able to live a normal life will be one of the best days of my life. I want to be able to take my son out and show him the wold but I get panicky just going to the shop at the moment. I love my son with all my heart and don't want him to miss out x