mcornejo
09-17-2012, 12:34 AM
Ey folks. I'm not doing so hot right now. I just like many of you, am going through the worst time of my life. It doesn't even seem logical that all these problems are brought on by anxiety. I have serious derealization. The way I think is fucked up. I wonder things that just scare me. Like big question about life and god and questioning if this is real blah blah blah. I feel like I've gone crazy. I was swimming today having fun and while it was happening I thought "is this even happening?" I look in the mirror and think wow I'm in this body for another 50 years. I feel like I look at life all at once. I constantly think things pasting the rest of my life. Idk I feel like I'm just observing. Watching life go by. The fact that I watch life some much makes like time is sooo slow. Idk I feel extremely weird. Sometimes I just don't think I'll ever be happy or at least content. It feels like I'm just gonna get worse and worse until I end up in a hospital or dead. Has anybody else had this?