anonymous7
09-07-2012, 11:07 AM
If you dont want to read the text the question is at the bottom :)
Im starting to get more and more control of my anxeity as years pass. A few years ago when my anxeity skyrocketed I was afraid to go out of the door, I just had to much sensations, dizzy tension headaches, cold feet, cold hands, numbness in face, tightness in stomach, and about 45 more symptoms u guys know the deal. Plus back then I was dealing with alot of depression, anyway after much trial and error and eating healthy, socializing, doing my own style of CBT and a great deal of mental strength and courage I became better on my own. But since I made this journey without meds and therapy and completely by my self I never really got rid of it, I always have it with me but I have the courage enough to deal with it myself and thats fine by me.
So now you have some background info on me, now to my question. Lets say you first have a great week much fun, much work,good sleep etc.. and then at the weekend you maybe go out for a few drinks which turns into to many drinks to count and you wake up super hung over the next day and ur anxeity is through the roof and you cant even seem to get food down during the entire day. And on top of that you face alot of family problems that really gets to you, and you just swallow it all down and focus on other stuff just like you have always done before. Now come monday morning you wake up feeling pretty ok, and you go to work/school, during the ride your feel super anxious for no apparent reason, cold sweat, heart racing, globus hystericus in full force etc.. but as the soldier you are you just battle on and focus on work. Now come lunch break you cant seem to get any food down, because that globus hystericus is in full force still(eventho u know its comepletely harmless you still think its darn unpleasant). And still you soldier on and try to focus on the good aspects of life and try to have fun until you get off work.
Now when you get off work and your traveling home again you feel super anxious for no apparent reason at all heart racing widly cold sweat etc etc and your having a full blown panic attack. But as the soldier you are you take a few deep breaths call somebody and talk about random things until its your buss stop and you go off feeling great, but shaky(Okay? what just happened here?) Now by this point you are starting to feel a little bit bad, you have felt great through out all of this and have a positive mindset, and by bed time you have just watched a great movie and you go to bed and you have a big fat panic attack, and all you think is why? I felt so great a little while ago.
Now the week prior or the week after, you go through the same ordeal only you feel like you always do which is "good", you still feel your symptoms but their all very minor and ignorable. You dont experience eating problems, you dont suddenly feel like vomitting, or your heart doesn't race for no apparent reason at all. You simply do not feel any of the symptoms, which is to many to count.
I feel like I went a little bit off topic hehe... My question is that is it only who feels like anxiety comes out of the blue? I mean I know I had a shit week a week ago, but cmon? am I feeling anxious over that now? Since i've gone from being anxious 10/10 on a scale and not beeing able to walk out my door, and for me now two years later beeing able to do whatever I want, I still have one problem left, and id like to deal with it on my own. And its this feeling that anxeity and so on just comes out of the blue, I can be having a good week and on friday I go out with my friends to drink and on the way there I suddenly feel a tension headache or just like vomiting because i've subconsciously tensing my stomach for far to long, Or I sit at the computer chatting listening to music and I suddenly feel a huge ache in my jaw and then I notice ive been subconsciously clenching it to.Or I just notice I have globus hystericus and I move my jaw and my neck and I see that ive been tensing my thorat/jaw/neck area. Why does my body act out? why dont I have any sens of control it all seems to be somehow linked to my subconscious.Today this have piqued my interest, it just so weird hehe :P I want to get to the bottom of it.(I just had drinking as an example, I dont really drink much, just sometimes :P)
Now actually after making the post, when I really think about it I always feel anxious every day for four years now(first year was locked up in my own home for almost the whole year) only it varies, some weeks/days its so minor you can ignore it and somedays its just through the ROOF, your thoughts are everywhere etc..
Im starting to get more and more control of my anxeity as years pass. A few years ago when my anxeity skyrocketed I was afraid to go out of the door, I just had to much sensations, dizzy tension headaches, cold feet, cold hands, numbness in face, tightness in stomach, and about 45 more symptoms u guys know the deal. Plus back then I was dealing with alot of depression, anyway after much trial and error and eating healthy, socializing, doing my own style of CBT and a great deal of mental strength and courage I became better on my own. But since I made this journey without meds and therapy and completely by my self I never really got rid of it, I always have it with me but I have the courage enough to deal with it myself and thats fine by me.
So now you have some background info on me, now to my question. Lets say you first have a great week much fun, much work,good sleep etc.. and then at the weekend you maybe go out for a few drinks which turns into to many drinks to count and you wake up super hung over the next day and ur anxeity is through the roof and you cant even seem to get food down during the entire day. And on top of that you face alot of family problems that really gets to you, and you just swallow it all down and focus on other stuff just like you have always done before. Now come monday morning you wake up feeling pretty ok, and you go to work/school, during the ride your feel super anxious for no apparent reason, cold sweat, heart racing, globus hystericus in full force etc.. but as the soldier you are you just battle on and focus on work. Now come lunch break you cant seem to get any food down, because that globus hystericus is in full force still(eventho u know its comepletely harmless you still think its darn unpleasant). And still you soldier on and try to focus on the good aspects of life and try to have fun until you get off work.
Now when you get off work and your traveling home again you feel super anxious for no apparent reason at all heart racing widly cold sweat etc etc and your having a full blown panic attack. But as the soldier you are you take a few deep breaths call somebody and talk about random things until its your buss stop and you go off feeling great, but shaky(Okay? what just happened here?) Now by this point you are starting to feel a little bit bad, you have felt great through out all of this and have a positive mindset, and by bed time you have just watched a great movie and you go to bed and you have a big fat panic attack, and all you think is why? I felt so great a little while ago.
Now the week prior or the week after, you go through the same ordeal only you feel like you always do which is "good", you still feel your symptoms but their all very minor and ignorable. You dont experience eating problems, you dont suddenly feel like vomitting, or your heart doesn't race for no apparent reason at all. You simply do not feel any of the symptoms, which is to many to count.
I feel like I went a little bit off topic hehe... My question is that is it only who feels like anxiety comes out of the blue? I mean I know I had a shit week a week ago, but cmon? am I feeling anxious over that now? Since i've gone from being anxious 10/10 on a scale and not beeing able to walk out my door, and for me now two years later beeing able to do whatever I want, I still have one problem left, and id like to deal with it on my own. And its this feeling that anxeity and so on just comes out of the blue, I can be having a good week and on friday I go out with my friends to drink and on the way there I suddenly feel a tension headache or just like vomiting because i've subconsciously tensing my stomach for far to long, Or I sit at the computer chatting listening to music and I suddenly feel a huge ache in my jaw and then I notice ive been subconsciously clenching it to.Or I just notice I have globus hystericus and I move my jaw and my neck and I see that ive been tensing my thorat/jaw/neck area. Why does my body act out? why dont I have any sens of control it all seems to be somehow linked to my subconscious.Today this have piqued my interest, it just so weird hehe :P I want to get to the bottom of it.(I just had drinking as an example, I dont really drink much, just sometimes :P)
Now actually after making the post, when I really think about it I always feel anxious every day for four years now(first year was locked up in my own home for almost the whole year) only it varies, some weeks/days its so minor you can ignore it and somedays its just through the ROOF, your thoughts are everywhere etc..