lmgibson87
04-18-2012, 10:29 PM
Hi everyone,
My name is laura and I'm new to this board. I'm a 24 year old female, I'm in law school and waitress and have a full time internship. I have panic disorder and a.d.d and can usually mange pretty well, I have a great counselor and usually I'm a pretty strong independent person as I've been thru a lot . I don't have a lot of people I'm close too, just lot of acquaintances so I don't have many people to talk with. Lately I am feeling like I'm going to lose it though.. I am completely exhausted from my schedule and I work all the time. My panic is through the roof and it's getting to the point where I am dreading going to sleep at night because I know I will be panicking all night and that I will only get 4 or 5 hrs sleep which will then make the next day just as terrible and exhausting..I have never been an agoraphobic but I'm beginning to absolutely dread being anywhere but my room or a my boyfriends apartment. I got unexpectedly pregnant in august 2011 with my bf at he time who I go law school with. We decided to keep the baby and were planning on getting married. In October when I was 12 weeks, we found out the baby had no heartbeat and ad passed away but i hadn't miscarried...and I had to go almost a week before getting the operation. It was unbelievably devastating and shortly after my bf at the time left me because my horrible anxiety (and because he was an asshole) . Anyway the baby was supposed to be due in a few weeks and I had been doing pretty well despite e circumstances until recently. I had been having panic attacks rarely (1 or 2 x a month) but now I have what seems o be a constant feeling of dread and fear of the next panic attack (daily at least). I have a wonderful boyfriend now who I am probably freaking out with all of my issues but he is amazing and always there for me. I just feel like I'm living constant fear of having an attack and losing my mind and on top of my school, finals coming up, my internship, job, and my lost little one's due date coming up I don't know if I can handle this.. I want to crawl in a hole :( does anyone have any suggestions on how to get through everything right now? Its too much ...
* I take Xanax .5 as needed which is becoming 2x. Day now which I do not like (I'm also a hypochondriac and obsess about my health )
My name is laura and I'm new to this board. I'm a 24 year old female, I'm in law school and waitress and have a full time internship. I have panic disorder and a.d.d and can usually mange pretty well, I have a great counselor and usually I'm a pretty strong independent person as I've been thru a lot . I don't have a lot of people I'm close too, just lot of acquaintances so I don't have many people to talk with. Lately I am feeling like I'm going to lose it though.. I am completely exhausted from my schedule and I work all the time. My panic is through the roof and it's getting to the point where I am dreading going to sleep at night because I know I will be panicking all night and that I will only get 4 or 5 hrs sleep which will then make the next day just as terrible and exhausting..I have never been an agoraphobic but I'm beginning to absolutely dread being anywhere but my room or a my boyfriends apartment. I got unexpectedly pregnant in august 2011 with my bf at he time who I go law school with. We decided to keep the baby and were planning on getting married. In October when I was 12 weeks, we found out the baby had no heartbeat and ad passed away but i hadn't miscarried...and I had to go almost a week before getting the operation. It was unbelievably devastating and shortly after my bf at the time left me because my horrible anxiety (and because he was an asshole) . Anyway the baby was supposed to be due in a few weeks and I had been doing pretty well despite e circumstances until recently. I had been having panic attacks rarely (1 or 2 x a month) but now I have what seems o be a constant feeling of dread and fear of the next panic attack (daily at least). I have a wonderful boyfriend now who I am probably freaking out with all of my issues but he is amazing and always there for me. I just feel like I'm living constant fear of having an attack and losing my mind and on top of my school, finals coming up, my internship, job, and my lost little one's due date coming up I don't know if I can handle this.. I want to crawl in a hole :( does anyone have any suggestions on how to get through everything right now? Its too much ...
* I take Xanax .5 as needed which is becoming 2x. Day now which I do not like (I'm also a hypochondriac and obsess about my health )