Amber......I had the same thought process as you! Always thought I can do this alone , because I'm a strong man! I was wrong! It's been a battle for years now, this last battle has been the worst, I thought I was going to have a nervous break down...I'm still not out of this mess either.This stuff is powerful ! Our brains chemicals have been altered for some reason......stress, heartache, etc.... My psychiatrist told me that I couldn't see a psychologist until my levels of stress and anxiety had come down to a somewhat manageable level....then the process of finding out what causes our feelings is easier to do. I hope that you will consider meds or at least seek help of some kind......You're definitely not alone on this one! Take Care!