I'm Afraid

[angeleyes01]

I Suffer from depression, panic/anxiety attacks. I also have arthritis,gallstones,Fibroids in my uterus,ibs and acid reflux. The government here has decided to change benefits for the sick. So I have to make an appointment to see a big doctor who will decide if I am entitled to receive it. I am having panic attacks every day I have heard loads of people are being turned down. They only seem to be giving help to immigrants and not to people who actually live here and need help

[angeleyes01]

I have been depressed awhile but have forced myself to think of my family even if they don't think of me. I have felt really suicidal lately but know without me my sick parents are on their own. Cause the rest are lazy pigs. The doctor made me a hospital appointment but I did not keep it, I don't care anymore if I get worse just want to look after my parents, when they go I will definitely not care

[jamus75]

Angel do you see a psychologist ?

[angeleyes01]

No just take anti-depressants sometimes they work sometimes not. I have a problem talking to people. Any parcels come I send to my mums so I don't have to talk to anyone. I hardly ever answer my phone unless I know who it is

[angeleyes01]

Also have agoraphobia so have trouble leaving home. If I get round people it can cause a bad attack. I once crossed a main road without checking the traffic cause I did not care

[scared44]

I feel for you Angel. I also suffer terribly!! Take care... Beverley

[angeleyes01]

Finally the result I was dreading, went to medical and they told me.
I who have not left the house, answered phone,answered door in years was fit to work. I don't even go to family birthday or Christmas parties.The only place I go at night is to my mums flat below me. Cause she needs me after her stroke. But now I find myself loosing my temper at everyone. I am in pain and so so tired. I have hurt myself in the past but I have fought it. I love my family and that is what has saved me so far but now I know why people finally give up. I have been told to appeal the decision but to do that I need to go to court and appear before 3 or 4 people and tell them why I think the decision was wrong. I don't know if I can do it. I can't sleep though I usually only slept for an hr or 2 anyway. And am having heart palpitations and being sick everyday. Someone tell me what is the point.

[Lin]

I understand and during depression I don't answer phone or go out of the house. But luckily my depression is sporadic because caused by hormones, so I have a job already. I end up with months off work but then make myself struggle to go back. My social life has not returned yet but at least I get out of the house. Might sound dreadful to you now, but if you could find nice job with nice people it might help you like it does me. I would not go out without my job and people there.