I am a fourteen year old self harmer that is recovering. I was admitted to the hospital last year around March because of my parent's divorce and I was doing pretty well until it came back again when school started. My parents have always been on and off ever since I could remember and they would always tell me they were going to separate but would just make up again after they fight. They usually fight about money and splitting bills. Last year they got into the biggest fight because my mom had been cheating with another guy. I was mad at her aswell but I knew that my dad never really did take care of my mom so I try to understand. They would always yell and swear infront of me and my brother and I would wake up to the noise of them fighting in the morning. One morning it was really bad and I had an anxiety attack in bed. I could hear my mom yelling at my dad and hitting him in the living room. I just ran into the bathroom and called the police. They said my mom and dad were not allowed to be in the same room so we moved to another house. Around this time is when I overdosed on my mom's trazedone sleeping pills. I was alone at home that day and I was feeling very down about the whole situation. Anyways, my parents have always been a big stressor for me even today. My parents tried to get back together again and then ended up separating again. It is so confusing and it annoys me because it gets my hopes up and it also makes me start hating them. Yesterday my mom told me that my dad was going to get his stuff and that he wanted me and my brother out of the house while he was there. My mom is never home because she's working. I feel so hurt and lonely I know i'm loved because my mother works very hard but i don't feel it very often nowadays. I don't have anyone to talk to because I've lost the three people I would vent to in elementary. Two of them suffer from anorexia and deal with their problems now so they never have time to talk to me and the other one moved away. I always stress about being stressed and never get anything done. I dont want to end up in the hospital again but I dont know how to deal with anything anymore