I think my past is holding me back as well as constantly worrying about every single little thing...
People, friends, weather, money, love, family, everything. I told my doctor and she has me on paxil and propanolol for my bad heart.

Im a smoker as well...

Everyone tells me ill get over it its just a phase but i believe i cant take any more hurt whether it be emotional or physical.

My goals are to make it on my own, to be strong and im doing everything i can to accomplish those two goals but im scared to death of everything....