Congratulations on getting through such a difficult time!!
There is such a stigma within our society regarding mental illness and taking medication for mental illness. The research is clear that these diseases/disorders occur in the brain, and effect physiological and chemical influences on the brain. If you were diabetic you would have no problems taking insulin. It's the same thing w mental illness. Your body needs external assistance. There's no shame in taking these medications. The shame is in knowing you need them bc of the effect the illness has on your life and NOT taking them.