Hi all,
Im 17 years old this year and I am attending school. In my school, we were to stand up still to sing the National Anthem and take the National Pledge before lesson starts. And whenever this happens, I realize I cannot stand still, i will shiver in fear and on better days I shiver less, on worse days, I shivered so badly that I wanted to sit down and stop the shivering all at once. It seems like I fear something, which I don't know what it is. It all happened this year and I am really wondering why. Other than that, I get embarrassed easily. In other words, I get red face easily. Sometimes I can be talking to my friend halfway, and I have this mentality that something got struck into my head and that's it, oh no, i know my face is going to get red. And I have to do something to stop it from happening. Sometimes I take a slow walk and calm myself down. Sometimes, I just let it be red. I hate that feeling, because it is so so so humiliating. I have been visiting the school counselor for quite some time and she let me stand at the back of the school hall and that indeed makes me feel better. I shiver lesser, sometimes I don't even shiver at all! But the flushed face still happens, and Im quite sure all of these are symptoms of Anxiety. Why is this happening?