I'm not sure if anyone else has had this before but I dread good things. I can't remember the last time I've been excited about something. Instead I waste time with intrusive thoughts thinking about how the worst possible thing could happen because something this fun or exciting could never happen to me. Maybe its a form of low self esteem? Maybe my social anxiety is just heighten and I'm scared of being out of my routine and schedule (I go nuts if my routine is messed up). I can't remember when it started but when I was graduating High School I went the whole spring semester worried I was going to die in a car wreck. When I had my very first trip to NYC the whole plan ride I was sweating thinking we were going to crash. Now that I have another exciting event happening soon in July. I can't shake this fear of death or sickness or even pregnancy (that's a mild worry compared to the others obviously) Has anyone had this before? How can I cope? I don't have a therapist and I don't have health care so I can't just visit a Dr. and ask for medication. Everything recommended will work if its natural. Otherwise I can't get my hands on meds as much as I would like too, I'm a part time worker full time college student at 23.
Thanks,
Lisa Michelle