About a week ago I had a massive panic attack, unlike anything I’ve ever had before . I got so scared and in my head I literally thought I was loosing control. I always delt with anxiety and intrusive thoughts but never like this. Why is my brain treating me like this!? So after the panic ended , the fear has crept in and wont seem to lift. I’m basically afraid of “snapping” and killing myself. When I say it out loud it sounds so stupid, but it has been festering like crazy and cant seem to let the thought go. I have literally been thinking about it for a week straight. And then start to panic what if I am never able to shake this thought and it drives me to do it. Has any ever felt this way? Will it go away? I went to the doctors and got on 20mg of citalopram. It is a medication I have been on before and seemed to help really well for my anxiety in the past… but I could use some words of encouragement!