How do you start truly LIVING your life?

[Ponder]

I hear what your saying. I had no choice when I was dragged from one school, from one house and from one parent to the next. I often think the world is grey. The only way I can color things up is to change where it is that I choose to look. I might not have had many choices and still to this day I do not; but fact is we always have one. How we react. Once you come to see that most of the choices we are presented with, are not actually choices that we need let alone want; the road becomes a lot easier as in we learn to be more accepting of what is rather than what's not.

If you can't fit into the box your trying to squeeze into, then become more flexible until you land in another box. If you can't find you way on the current path your traveling, then bide your time until you hit a fork in the road.

As for banging your head against a brick wall - that's definitely a choice within your control. As harsh as it sounds, there is a silver lining in that. More so in knowing - that despite when it seems the world is against us and we have no choices ... realizing the power of choosing how we react is a most rewarding and liberating act. It costs us nothing and yet we have everything to gain. "NO! I'm not going to self sabotage just because I can't get what I want, I'm going to change what it is that I want!" Once we come to see the power of control that we really have by not giving in to the expectations of illusive wants, then we come to a fork in the road before we know it. Then that Grey World as we once knew it ... it starts to color up!

We may not always see in color vision, but once we understand there's always silver linings in every dark cloud, it becomes much easier to no longer bang our heads against the wall and bide our time till that fork in the road shows up time after time.

All the movies gypsy listed require a lot of grey in order for their colors to be felt.

I've just now run out of money myself ... So now it's time to start using more of my mind and or making use of what I already GOT!

I say if we can't change where we're looking, then we should change the way we think. It's what I do when walking / running in the same spot over and over again. It's what I did when locked in a small prison cell - although I don't recommend taking that course in order to learn.

Best of luck choosing your route.